Mishel hobbled over and took a seat on the bench she set her crutches against it and winced a little. She ran another hand through her hair and exhaled as she rested her back. It felt good to take the weight off her hair was messy, badly in need of a comb or a shower - both. Things certainly had changed and the teenager noticed her eyes focused on her mother's new horns and she wanted to ask all the questions. But first to answer her mother's question, "all the thing." Mishel gestured and gave a rather dramatic sigh with a smile, "like..." her mouth opened but no words just a shrug and a bit of laughter, "it's all a bit upside down, yeah?" Another shrug, "don't even know where to start."
"I left the Ren, question mark."
The Tygaran looked her mother in the eyes and just, "and uh, yeah, there you go. I left, and it's honestly probably been the most freeing thing I've done?"
"Like, don't get me wrong, I - I think somewhere I still care about them and I sort of always will but, I just..." Her voice trailed again and her attention drew away from her mother, hair spilled over her shoulders. She focused on the ground, mostly on a single piece of dirt as she collected her thoughts, Mishel then looked back at Hazel, "just didn't feel, I don't know it was like I got back from Bespin and I was losing myself in something way darker and I just, there was this moment where Seiger came in and he basically whooped everyone used Ysalamir, a few Pikes and a lot of Force Lightning and I just broke down, I just lost it."
Mishel took in a deep breath and exhaled, "and you... you, you went dark." The teenager seemed a little hurt by it, "and I felt it when I was on Utapau and that's - that's where I knew that I had to go back to the light."
"I mean, this is after I left the Ren - cause, I was supposed to go reinforce some troopers at L-49 but jumped ship, got caught by some slavers and was rescued by Joza Perl before Utapau, anyway, I was there and I realized you and Kismet were right, there had been a light but it wasn't there just because of what you did for me on Monastery. It had always been there, no one is born evil or born dark or even good, it's made. We make those choices, we decide - and I decided to take my light and let it shine." Mishel threaded her fingers together and shrugged again, "I uh, got this." She rolled up her shirt and showed the carbon fibre mesh, "from that Beskad yeah so I could've totally dodged it but instead I just took it because I was just so tired of the darkness. I was so tired of being depressed, of being angry with myself and angry with the galaxy, like it's so karking exhausting and I was done."
She shrugged again, "because if being a Knight of Ren means that I have to sit there and be this brooding entity for the sake of Seiger Ren then they can just gorram'en stuff their chit and take it somewhere else."
Mishel cleared her throat and looked around, "right, so uh, that's been me you know fighting Mandalorians on Utapau, having family reunions on Dagobah where I got this." She gestured to her leg, "cause I uh decided that I would do Force Speed which is great y'know, until you're fighting Force Slow and then get kablew'ed by someone else and end up falling through the trees, and uh, land, land on your leg the wrong way. And yeah... uh, lets see there was Ember Farseer who is my master? I'm not sure if that's what he is... I guess mentor is a better word and uh yeah we were on D'Qar and then the Vergesso Asteroids and uh like I said, I'm here with friendos who are probably being nutters in there." A smile and then she leaned over and put a hand on a horn. "Are these like... okay, your turn mom, spill everything and can you at least give me the story behind these?"
"Also... don't spare any gory bits, please - I mean, I have literally blown up cities, and stabbed and killed countless things so.... yeah."