The Lady’s question had caught Jake completed off guard. Should he have expected it? Yes. DId he? No. The question triggered both a biological and psychological avalanche in the man, whom now desperately tried to keep himself composed. It was in his
As the tune shifted, so did their bodies. In a swivel on her feet, Jake pressed Ereza’s back to his front. Their frames so dangerously close that even through his clothes, Ereza’s would have felt a sudden temperature rise in Jake. No, not a rise of arousal over the attractiveness of his date. This was a rise of heat from a guilt that had been buried so deep. A regret that Ereza’s simply words had managed to unlock with absolute ease.
Jake led her arm back around his. She could feel the fire that was his flesh. The Noghri nearby finally saw it in his eyes. The man’s iris’ had shifted yellow; a trait Jake was unable to control when the darkness returned. This was what he did not want Ereza to see. His hand on the front of her abdomen, the other on her hip, he allowed the bodies a moment of silence as he contemplated a response.
“My Lady,” Jakes lips were so close to her ear, that his whisper was as light as a dove’s feather.
“I am a disgraceful lover. I am a failed husband.” His yellow iris’ finally allowed a few tears to slip free. His voice near trembled, “I am a horrendous father. I am a failed Apprentice.”
He finally said it. He was finally letting it out. He wanted but had trouble giving.
“I destroy what is pure. I hurt what is given to me. I can’t risk harm to you. You’re all that I have left.” His eyes closed as he inhaled quietly. The tears were finally forced to stop tough one managed to land on an exposed part of Ereza’s shoulder. “I’m sorry my Lady, I do not think I am able to escort you on your journey as promised.”
With skills only one of experience could have, Jake spun Ereza back around those this time his back was to her.
The Knight was making his leave.
He couldn't fail Ereza .
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