Judah Dashiell,
I am writing this on the evening of war, expecting tomorrow to hold the battle I warned you of. The fight for Lothal would be horrific, and I’d be lying to myself not to consider the reality of what could happen to me. I figure that should the worst occur, you will have received this message.
When we last spoke, as you mentioned, emotions were high. The truth about my Mother and how I came to be with the New Jedi Order wasn’t easy to hear. Nor was your bias towards them, though I don’t expect to change your mind.
I don’t know your history with the Jedi save for what you mentioned, but the actions of one don’t represent them all, and while I do not consider myself to be Jedi, they are still an essential part of my life and people I hold dear. I’m saying this not to excuse my behaviour when we spoke, but perhaps hoping we don’t repeat what occurred then.
Reading this, I cannot help but imagine your reaction. My intent is not to anger you or create further resentment but to allow myself to speak freely and for you to say that you heard your Son.
I have been well-trained and am more capable than most typical people, but I don’t know what it is to be a part of a Family. If I survive the battle of Lothal, I want you to know that I intend to learn.
You asked me if I would be interested in attending a university, to participate in your business. I'm sure I left an impression in this regard. I've spent my time being a student long enough, but that is not to say that I cannot be of help. I am a fair artisan thanks to the teachings of the New Jedi Order, and I can offer protective services alongside the manufacture of technology. Granted there are better metal workers and electrical engineers in the Galaxy than I, but where I fall short, time will help me to improve. The Force can also offer means and methods of crafting that is out of reach for typical folk - this is perhaps something that you might consider, Force Imbued technologies and the art of Alkahest. If the idea of utilising the Force doesn't sit well with you then perhaps the profits to be made from such a rare skill will leverage your taste.
Though I must first survive Lothal, and I'm getting off track. My thoughts are all over the place right now. The stress and fear of war. I started this letter wanting to put to rest the tension between us.
You were not aware of my birth, and you're not to blame for my abandonment. You could not have known that fault rests with my Mother. Whoever or wherever she may be.will When I return from this fight, I will take the time to talk with you again, and this time do so with patience and restraint. I have met with Makai, and as I told him, I wish to know my family.
I contact you once the fighting is done. The Force guide you, Father.
