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Zeren watched as Efret took a piece of bread and cheese, it was a good sign that she kept her appetite. Her response to his question about the visions was chilling, each word pierced through with the image of suffering and darkness. The descriptions she offered—Kaggath, ritual sacrifices, alchemical experiments, and the torture of prisoners—were familiar to him, each one a mirror to the sins he had once committed. His past as Darth Misios, the Sith Lord who had reveled in such horrors, surfaced with a brutal clarity.
The darkness within him stirred, rising like a malevolent tide. He could almost feel the ghostly echoes of his past actions thrumming beneath his skin, pressing against the boundaries of his self-control. Memories of his own Kaggaths—those battles of life and death, where he had obliterated not just his foes but their entire legacies and cults—haunted him with vivid intensity. His victory had always been total, his dominance absolute, leaving nothing but voids where lives once existed.
In a moment of desperation, Zeren reached for a vial from a hidden compartment on the floor, within many more vials of the murakami essence he had shared with her. As the liquid poured into him, he felt a fleeting calm, a temporary escape from the oppressiveness of his past. The darkness retreated, but only to a degree, its presence still palpable and hungry.
Sitting by the fire, he let out a weary sigh, his gaze returning to Efret. He noticed how her demeanor shifted, the mention of her curse clearly affecting her more deeply than he had realized. Her struggle was not dissimilar to his own, yet there was a key difference between the memories and emotions that plagued him and those that tormented her.
"You may be carrying them now, Efret," he said softly, his voice almost lost in the crackling of the fire.
"But those are not your memories… not your feelings. They are them's."
He knew his own experiences with darkness, his capacity to destroy and his indulgence in the evil of the Sith, was a deep abyss he could never fully escape. Yet he could offer something to her that he struggled to accept himself: a recognition that her suffering, though real, was a result of something external. The curse was not a part of her essence, not her true self.
Zeren shifted uncomfortably, the weight of their conversation mingling with his internal struggles. His movements were slow as he prepared to settle in for the night, keeping an eye on the dwindling fire. The bed was indeed a small comfort, but it seemed to be the right thing to offer her, if only to provide a bit of respite from the harshness of their surroundings.
As Efret handed him the oversized robe and nudged the basket of food toward him, he accepted it with a nod, grateful for her kindness despite the awkwardness of their exchange. He could feel the exhaustion creeping into his bones, a drowsiness that followed the suppression of the darkness. It was an uneasy tranquility, but it was enough for now.
"Thank you," he said, his voice tired but genuine.
"I'll make sure to eat. Rest well."
With that, Zeren adjusted his position by the fire, trying to find a semblance of comfort in the uncomfortable. The warmth of the fire, the weight of the robe, and the faint remnants of the murakami essence worked in tandem to bring him a fragile peace. He watched as Efret settled into the bed, this night could be over in relative calm.
As sleep began to claim him, Zeren's mind remained tangled with the ghosts of his past and the hope that somehow, despite everything, he might find a way to help her find peace from her own. Hoping to find his still seemed to be asking for the impossible.
XxXx
As dawn's first light crept through the small windows of his humble abode, Zeren stirred from a restless sleep. The fire had long since dwindled to embers, and the chill of the early morning air nipped at his skin. He rose slowly as to not wake his guest, the weight of his dreams and the remnants of darkness still clinging to him. The murakami essence had brought a temporary reprieve, but it had done little to erase the shadows from his mind.
Zeren began his morning routine, moving with practiced ease despite the early hour. He stoked the fire, adding fresh wood to rekindle its warmth. The glow of the fire gradually dispelled the cold, casting a warm light over the rustic interior. His home was modest, with rough-hewn wooden walls, simple furnishings, and a sparse but functional arrangement of tools and supplies. He set about his chores methodically: washing a few dishes, tidying the small space, and preparing a pot of some infusion over the fire.
As he was about to exit his eyes would look for the convor, perhaps it would appreciate roaming the surrounding woods in the early morning. He would tend to a small herb garden right outside, which he kept for both culinary and medicinal purposes. The morning air was crisp, and the faint hum of early wildlife provided a soothing white noise as he worked. Zeren was careful, his movements kept efficient and deliberate, keeping an eye on the home's entrance to ensure he'd be aware when Efret stirred.
As the sun began climbing higher, Zeren glanced back at the bed where Efret slept. He knew she needed her rest, and he felt a pang of reluctance to intrude on her recovery. His chores were a distraction, a way to keep his mind occupied and avoid delving too deeply into the darkness that lurked just below the surface of his consciousness. For now, his focus was on maintaining the small semblance of peace he had found, both for himself and for his unexpected guest.