will you sink down to me?
H A T R E D
Location: Ruins of Carnuss Gorgull, Gamorr
The aura was thick and palatable, like smoke clouding around a clan bonfire. It tasted like the first bite of fresh-killed fanteel, flesh not yet salted by the seas and tanging of metal. Pilot fish swimming before the saberjowl, or the squaloid.
"Haar'chak..." she muttered to herself, pushing off her thighs to stand from her bleacher seat. As she made her way into the standing crowd below, the sithspawn rose a clenched fist and rapped on the side of her head just hard enough to jostle her focus from her alter ego to the pain she had just caused herself. Just like the right preventative measures could stop an oncoming seizure in its tracks, she hoped a sprinkling of self-harm would garble Syreni's genocidal intentions.
Damsy had found that the easiest, albeit most exhausting, way to make sure such thoughts didn't take was to focus on the moment. She just had to get to the next one. And the next. And then the one after. But she needed to whatever the cost to her sanity. If she could steep herself in the current object of Syreni's hatred, the Gamorrean culture, she might just come out of the experience as one woman again - whole, and with just a regular amount of daddy-issues-anger.
The only trick would be to not skin pig hide on her way.
Oinking snorts soon drowned out both of her problems as she traversed the only sea that had ever made her skin crawl, and she had once swam the swamps of Dagobah. Somehow, everything here smelled even worse without all the peat and algal mat. Damsy's ungloved fingertips twitched over the handle of her trident as she fought not to arm herself with it.
"Haar'chak..." she muttered to herself, pushing off her thighs to stand from her bleacher seat. As she made her way into the standing crowd below, the sithspawn rose a clenched fist and rapped on the side of her head just hard enough to jostle her focus from her alter ego to the pain she had just caused herself. Just like the right preventative measures could stop an oncoming seizure in its tracks, she hoped a sprinkling of self-harm would garble Syreni's genocidal intentions.
Damsy had found that the easiest, albeit most exhausting, way to make sure such thoughts didn't take was to focus on the moment. She just had to get to the next one. And the next. And then the one after. But she needed to whatever the cost to her sanity. If she could steep herself in the current object of Syreni's hatred, the Gamorrean culture, she might just come out of the experience as one woman again - whole, and with just a regular amount of daddy-issues-anger.
The only trick would be to not skin pig hide on her way.
Oinking snorts soon drowned out both of her problems as she traversed the only sea that had ever made her skin crawl, and she had once swam the swamps of Dagobah. Somehow, everything here smelled even worse without all the peat and algal mat. Damsy's ungloved fingertips twitched over the handle of her trident as she fought not to arm herself with it.