☤ Golden Heart, Cold Hands ☤
{ Location: Somewhere in Chasin City, Commenor }
{ Equipment: Scrubs, basic medkit }
{ Tag: [member="Noah Corek"] }
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She had just gone through an unbroken string of lectures and laboratories only a few hours prior, but she had long forgotten today was still today. She tended to get caught up every time she volunteered in the free, full-service clinic. It was mostly student run by all levels of learners from the various medicine departments at UoC (University of Commenor): undergrad, graduate, and doctorate students studying biomed, epidemiology, hospitalism, toxicology, nursing, and more. They all intersected here, bound by the opportunity and desire to help the waning numbers of the Commenori homeless. It was a wholly collaborative experience, for what skills one individual lacked another would offer.
It was also truly transformative. Of course, it was a lot of hard work--as evidenced by how Prennis would temporarily forget what day it was. She forgot, too, that she was volunteering for swathes of time she spent with the needy, mostly because they changed her rather than just the other way around.
But even the best, most rewarding of jobs got to their doers every once in a while, not that the state of some of these beings was what got to her now. No, rather, the reality of her actions stoked up the fires of guilt in her gut. Her stomach churned, not at the blood she meticulously drew, but at the raw memories of Doctor Terrani.
She had called Matlock over, another training nurse, to relieve her as she stepped out into the hall. As she left, she peeled off and threw away her microsensory gloves, and then doubled over a cleared table out in the corridor.
People, help the people.
That had been her medical mantra through her professional career with the Order, from beginning to end. In all actuality, it was some miracle that such a conviction lived on in the other empire for so long, but, somehow, it did.
A simple ideology, no matter how moral, turned out not to be enough, though. The things she had done--the things she had not been able to do and thus left undone... She had done her best, but it wasn't good enough and it still haunted her.
One instance stood out immediately from all others: all those innocents on Sullust she had cleared for grueling work--
"Lia'ry, are you listening? That's like the third time I've--" Melfina. Prennis straightened up and turned towards the almost-doctor, who now appeared shocked. "Oh goddess, are you crying?"
"What?" Prenn rose her hand instinctively to her cheek and wiped under her eye with her fore- and middle fingers. She pulled them back and looked at them, before whiping them on her scrubs and glancing back up to Melfina. "U-uh, no. My eyes just water when I'm really tired."
"Go home then," she almost cut off her friend, voice a little harsher than she likely meant for it to be. "We got it. See you tomorrow." The Rutian Twi'lek made a shooing gesture, though she had a gentle and understanding smile on her face.
There was no point in arguing with her classmate. Not only was Melfina the only one who actually liked her, but Prenn had already committed to the sleep deprivation lie. Therefore, she only nodded before turning down the hall towards the locker rooms. When there, she unlocked her assigned cubby, took out her leather jacket--tanned, as not to remind her any more of her past--as well as her nurse's tote. She shrugged on the former and slung the latter over her shoulder, and pushed out to the street through the back door.
She was halfway though silently cursing herself for apparently lying so well before an authentic yawn came over her. Covering her mouth with her hand and then pulling up her hood when she realized it was sprinkling, she walked out from under the clinic awning. Then she started down the sidewalk she knew from weeks of experience would lead her back to her apartment near campus, her holographic disguise matrix safe from the rain under her scrub blouse and clipped to her belt.