The Admiralty
Sometimes after the Carida Debacle
On board the Redemption
Unknown Regions
[member="Anaya Fen"]
For all intents and purposes Carida had been a test of mettle for me. She had called upon me for assistance, asked of me something.. impossible, think I never even considered she would do it. In the end the only thing I had done was make the fight even for her, allow her to fight Varanin without her trusty sidekick backing ‘er up with all kinds of nifty mentalism voodoo. ‘Course in the end the fight ended up going badly, for the both of ‘em perhaps. But she had taken the blunt of the damage, can’t have it any other way when you are fighting a Tank. I had to take her out of there, don’t think Spencer nor Ashin appreciated that much. But sometimes.. You gotta do what you gotta do, no matter what the people around you may think of it.
I took her back to the Redemption, gave her the best medical attention a woman could ask for. Costs to fix her back up were skyrocketing through the roof, but it was all the same to me. Strange that, my emotions are gone. Can’t feel a goddamn thing most of the time, but it feels like I am working on an auto-pilot. No free will at all, I just do stuff and then I ask myself… why the feth did I do it? Was it a thing Jared Ovmar would have done? Or am I not that full of apathy like I think I am? Didn’t even come to mind that this situation was very close to how Anaya had taken Shorn away.
Until now, at least. As I walk through the halls of my space station, walking to her I wonder how she will receive me. Scorn? Disappointment? Or would she be glad that I saved her? Maybe she wouldn’t express anything, but a desire to leave my stronghold. She liked to be in control, can’t imagine her liking to be in this situation right now. With me as her caretaker even. Why did I save her? Question kept coming to me and I wasn’t entirely sure anymore. Wanted to say it was just the lust, can’t say she ain’t a pretty sight for the eyes. Neither is there anything to complain about in bed. But there was more than that, I ain’t the same man I once was. Lust, women.. It as still an interesting idea, but not that all persuasive as it once was.
Did I.. can’t be. Couldn’t be. It would present a hell of a lot of different problems all together, and I ain’t a fan of complications. As I finally strode into the medical bay I was hit by the scent of.. Kolto? I ain’t sure what the smell was, but it wasn’t pretty. Lights were too flashy, sounds wer— Relax, Ovmar. You ain’t a kid anymore. Lord of the Fringe, remember?
Why was I so damn anxious then?
Carefully I picked my way to her bed, and sat down next in a comfy seat. Eventually decided to talk too.
“Anaya.”
I know.
Wise words.