Ben Watts
I Am No One
Ben’s hand shook as the transport ship began its descent through Coruscant’s dense layers of atmosphere, the sprawling city-planet gradually coming into sharper focus below him. The last time he had set foot here, he had been the Grandmaster of the Jedi Order, a beacon of hope and strength, held in awe by countless beings across the galaxy. Wherever he went, people knew him; children waved, adults greeted him with pride, and dignitaries watched him with respect. He had always greeted them with a smile, concealing the doubts and pressures that came with his position. Now, as he sat incognito among travelers who were simply returning home, none recognized him, and he wasn’t sure if that anonymity felt like relief or a subtle sting.
Ben shifted in his seat, tugging the worn tan robe closer around his face. It was a habit he hadn’t shaken even though his appearance had changed enough that no one would recognize him. His once smooth face and dark black hair was now hidden beneath a coarse gray beard, his hair grown long and unkempt. His skin was marked with lines of age and years under the harsh, unforgiving suns of Jakku. This was the face of a man who had endured not only years in exile but also the relentless self-reflection that came with it.
In the row opposite, a man caught Ben’s gaze for a split second before looking away, wary of the strange, robed elder who had spoken to no one since boarding. Ben gave a polite nod, accustomed now to being misunderstood or mistaken for someone of little consequence. It was a stark contrast to the days when people avoided his gaze out of respect rather than indifference.
As he looked out the transport window, his eyes found the Jedi Temple rising in the distance. A sharp pang of memory cut through him, vivid and raw, and he could almost smell the acrid smoke from that terrible day when he had last left. The building had been ablaze, symbolizing not just the loss of physical structure but the failure he believed he bore. He had once led the Jedi, championed their purpose, and fought fiercely for the Galactic Republic. And then, in one devastating attack, everything had crumbled. He had lost friends, comrades, and promising Padawans all because he had failed to see the danger. He had been blind, arrogant, so sure that his way was the right way.
How could I have been so foolish? he thought, a bitter taste rising in his mouth.
His mind turned to the Jedi Masters who had preceded him -greats like Tefari and Darron Wraith—whose wisdom and sacrifice had cast shadows so large he had once felt honored just to stand within them. But he had dismissed those shadows in his youth, eager to prove himself, to shine even brighter. As he thought back on those days, he recognized that he had, in truth, been driven by a desire for adulation, cloaked in the guise of humility and duty. That realization was his curse, the self-inflicted wound he had nursed for years on Jakku, where only the vast emptiness of the desert had heard his silent admissions of guilt.
You must not let these thoughts seep in. He told himself, his left hand reaching out to steady the shake in his right. It was a tremor that had worsened with age, but he felt it more keenly when his mind strayed into dark memories. He closed his eyes briefly, breathing deeply, centering himself as he had taught so many others to do before. He could not allow himself to fall into that pit of self-blame now. He was here because he had finally made a choice: to stop wallowing in past failures and begin making amends, however he could.
The transport touched down, and Ben waited his turn to disembark. There was no fanfare for him, no crowds or Jedi Council members waiting to debrief him on the latest developments, eager for his insight. The last time he had walked on Coruscant, it had been in the middle of a heated debate among the Jedi leadership. He had believed, arrogantly that the Jedi deserved a say in the Republic's future direction, even pushing for them to have more influence. After all, he had argued, who had been the Republic’s strongest arm if not the Jedi? Wasn’t it Ben Watts himself who had destroyed Omni and defended so many of their worlds? In retrospect, he realized that what he had considered wisdom and leadership had been little more than a masked desire for control.
Walking through the busy terminals of Coruscant, he drew the hood of his robe lower, trying to block out the noise and bright lights. The closer he came to the Jedi Temple, the heavier his steps felt, as though the weight of his memories tried to root him to the ground. But he pressed on, feeling his purpose rekindle with each step.
As the familiar stonework of the Temple came into view, he paused, breathing in its presence, letting it fill him with the calm he had once drawn from this sacred place. This was where he belonged, even if he had to prove it to himself all over again. The temple, once aflame in his nightmares, now stood whole, vibrant, and alive with the energy of new Jedi who had not known the darkness that had cast him out.
He vowed to let go of the shame that had plagued him for so long. He had returned to make peace with his past, not to deny it, and to redeem himself, even if only in his own eyes. His hands steadied as he took the final steps toward the Temple. This was his first step toward atonement, and he embraced the sense of belonging that settled over him.
The Jedi, once Grandmaster Ben Watts, had returned. Not for power or recognition but for redemption and for the hope that he might find peace within himself once more.
Valery Noble
Ben shifted in his seat, tugging the worn tan robe closer around his face. It was a habit he hadn’t shaken even though his appearance had changed enough that no one would recognize him. His once smooth face and dark black hair was now hidden beneath a coarse gray beard, his hair grown long and unkempt. His skin was marked with lines of age and years under the harsh, unforgiving suns of Jakku. This was the face of a man who had endured not only years in exile but also the relentless self-reflection that came with it.
In the row opposite, a man caught Ben’s gaze for a split second before looking away, wary of the strange, robed elder who had spoken to no one since boarding. Ben gave a polite nod, accustomed now to being misunderstood or mistaken for someone of little consequence. It was a stark contrast to the days when people avoided his gaze out of respect rather than indifference.
As he looked out the transport window, his eyes found the Jedi Temple rising in the distance. A sharp pang of memory cut through him, vivid and raw, and he could almost smell the acrid smoke from that terrible day when he had last left. The building had been ablaze, symbolizing not just the loss of physical structure but the failure he believed he bore. He had once led the Jedi, championed their purpose, and fought fiercely for the Galactic Republic. And then, in one devastating attack, everything had crumbled. He had lost friends, comrades, and promising Padawans all because he had failed to see the danger. He had been blind, arrogant, so sure that his way was the right way.
How could I have been so foolish? he thought, a bitter taste rising in his mouth.
His mind turned to the Jedi Masters who had preceded him -greats like Tefari and Darron Wraith—whose wisdom and sacrifice had cast shadows so large he had once felt honored just to stand within them. But he had dismissed those shadows in his youth, eager to prove himself, to shine even brighter. As he thought back on those days, he recognized that he had, in truth, been driven by a desire for adulation, cloaked in the guise of humility and duty. That realization was his curse, the self-inflicted wound he had nursed for years on Jakku, where only the vast emptiness of the desert had heard his silent admissions of guilt.
You must not let these thoughts seep in. He told himself, his left hand reaching out to steady the shake in his right. It was a tremor that had worsened with age, but he felt it more keenly when his mind strayed into dark memories. He closed his eyes briefly, breathing deeply, centering himself as he had taught so many others to do before. He could not allow himself to fall into that pit of self-blame now. He was here because he had finally made a choice: to stop wallowing in past failures and begin making amends, however he could.
The transport touched down, and Ben waited his turn to disembark. There was no fanfare for him, no crowds or Jedi Council members waiting to debrief him on the latest developments, eager for his insight. The last time he had walked on Coruscant, it had been in the middle of a heated debate among the Jedi leadership. He had believed, arrogantly that the Jedi deserved a say in the Republic's future direction, even pushing for them to have more influence. After all, he had argued, who had been the Republic’s strongest arm if not the Jedi? Wasn’t it Ben Watts himself who had destroyed Omni and defended so many of their worlds? In retrospect, he realized that what he had considered wisdom and leadership had been little more than a masked desire for control.
Walking through the busy terminals of Coruscant, he drew the hood of his robe lower, trying to block out the noise and bright lights. The closer he came to the Jedi Temple, the heavier his steps felt, as though the weight of his memories tried to root him to the ground. But he pressed on, feeling his purpose rekindle with each step.
As the familiar stonework of the Temple came into view, he paused, breathing in its presence, letting it fill him with the calm he had once drawn from this sacred place. This was where he belonged, even if he had to prove it to himself all over again. The temple, once aflame in his nightmares, now stood whole, vibrant, and alive with the energy of new Jedi who had not known the darkness that had cast him out.
He vowed to let go of the shame that had plagued him for so long. He had returned to make peace with his past, not to deny it, and to redeem himself, even if only in his own eyes. His hands steadied as he took the final steps toward the Temple. This was his first step toward atonement, and he embraced the sense of belonging that settled over him.
The Jedi, once Grandmaster Ben Watts, had returned. Not for power or recognition but for redemption and for the hope that he might find peace within himself once more.
Valery Noble