flesh is temporary
"Master, your guest has arrived."
Blackened eyes slowly opened, peering inquisitively through the viscous blue liquid that their owner was suspended in. A droid stood motionless outside, awaiting some sort of command. A hand languidly raised, making a sharp hooking motion. The meaning was clear, even in such a simple gesture.
It is time.
Pull me out.
There is work to be done.
The fluid within the tank began to drain, and the occupant within could feel gravity begin to pull on him again; artificial or not, it pulled all the same, leaving him with the same feeling it had over the course of the last year. The sense that his limbs might spontaneously detach from his body, ligaments worn too thin and weak to hold them any longer. The imperceptible feeling that the flesh of his arms was slowly sagging down towards his fingertips, from whence it would detach entirely, leaving nothing but useless bone behind.And with those sensations, pain. Constant pain. Nerves left constantly flaming as they slowly broke down into their constituent parts, nerves rendered hyper-sensitive to the breakdown of all the cells surrounding them as well. As his flesh began to be exposed to the air, even just the cold, sterile air that came into the tank as the bacta drained away, his skin seemed to explode as though he'd just been stabbed with thousands of needles at once.
He slumped, slightly, held aloft by the slowly-draining bacta and the other hoses and cables that left him constantly connected to other machinery. Needles, inserted intravenously, threatening to tear themselves out at a moment's notice. The pulse of his blood, a sluggish and lugubrious rhythm underneath the pads that constantly monitored his life signs.
The maddening conglomeration of it all, overwhelming the senses within moments; how easy would it be to give in? To let them carry the mind off where they would, to let the body fail, once and for all?
No.
With the absence of the numbing, healing fluid, came something else.Lucidity.
Drawn out of the depths of the Force once more by matters which he must attend to, he exerted the Force of his will over his own body, his consciousness expanding outward through the mortal material, holding it all together in an iron-hard grasp. The flesh that wanted to sag, to slip away and decompose into nothing but organic molecules and freed energy, was forced taut against the bones it remained connected to. Ligaments were reinforced with the power of the ephemeral, and the blood began to move faster, the heart beating harder.
This man would not allow his life to end so easily.
It was a careful balancing act, what he did. Too much power drawn, and his body would burn out despite his attempts to preserve it. Too little, and the sheer exertion of existing outside of the bacta tank, away from the alchemical medications he had prepared for himself, would render him nothing more than a bloated corpse on the floor.
But even then, he still couldn't do away with the pain. The pain was his tool of focus. And so, as he dressed, he wrapped himself in the rough zeyd-cloth robes that had been a tradition of the Sith for millenia; the cloth set his skin aflame anew with every shift it made over his flesh, leaving him in a perpetual state of near-agony.
He set his will upon the pain, centering himself in it; he transformed the sensation into one of anger, then rage, and hot, seething hatred. Then, from there, he passed into a sort of peaceful state; the pain and the emotion were kept hidden beneath a cool veil, the same personality he always wore. It was truly him, and yet, it was not. For through the pain, he was rapidly becoming something new.
He was still Tsisaar Taral, an inquisitor, sorceror, alchemist, and knight of the Sith.
Yet further beyond was a new name, one he would take when his transformation was completed, for he wasn't yet the Sith Lord he knew he would one day become. Yet, today, and the work carried within it, would bring him closer yet to that stage.
When he looked up again, after being fully dressed, no sign of the pain, nor the hatred, nor even the artificially-induced age of his body remained on his face. He was Tsisaar Taral again, not the creature of the bacta tank, that existed more in the Netherworld than it did in waking life. "Direct him to the experimental medical bay," he commanded, the rasping tones of his voice grating on his ears as they came back to him from the hard surfaces of his private medical room.
Not all signs of the degeneration could be hidden.
"[member="Khonsu Amon"] and I have much to discuss."