"How far have I gone?"
Location: Coruscant, Jedi Temple, Restricted Archives
Tag: Aadihr Lidos Ran Serys Valery Noble
Mentioned: Kaila Irons Darth Imperius Jack Wright Cerrik
The starship's hum was a constant, soothing rhythm beneath Serina's feet as she stared out the viewport, Coruscant growing ever larger against the vast backdrop of stars. The sprawling city-planet glowed with artificial brilliance, an endless sea of lights that shimmered like a beacon of civilization and order. Yet, as Serina gazed at it, she felt no comfort—only a deep and gnawing uncertainty.Tag: Aadihr Lidos Ran Serys Valery Noble
Mentioned: Kaila Irons Darth Imperius Jack Wright Cerrik
Her thoughts lingered on Kaila, the warmth of her embrace, the raw humanity they had shared. In the aftermath of their battle against the dark spirit, Serina had seen more clearly than ever the depths to which the Dark Side could drag her. The tendrils of power were intoxicating, promising control and dominance, but they came at a cost—one she now understood far too well. It wasn't just about power. It was about what she was becoming. The path ahead was no longer as clear as it had been mere days ago.
As the ship entered Coruscant's atmosphere, descending through layers of glittering traffic, Serina tightened her cloak around herself, the dark folds concealing her lightsaber and the crystal she carried. She couldn't shake the memory of her parents, powerless to stop the Jedi from taking her. It wasn't their fault; she knew that now. But the pain of that separation had been seared into her soul. She couldn't change the past, but perhaps she could forge a future where she would not cause such suffering to others—where she could honor the connection she had found with Kaila.
The archives were quiet, the kind of stillness that came with the weight of countless years of knowledge carefully cataloged and preserved. Serina moved with purpose, her steps silent as she made her way deeper into the Jedi Temple, her forged clearance granting her access to the restricted section. The irony was not lost on her; the very Order that had taken her from her family now served as a resource in her desperate search for answers.
The restricted section was vast, its shelves lined with ancient holocrons and crumbling texts, illuminated only by the soft, ambient glow of the archive's lighting. Serina's fingers brushed over the spines of books and databanks, her eyes scanning for anything that could offer her a way out—a way to sever her connection to the Dark Side entirely.
She didn't expect this to be easy. The Jedi did not seek to destroy the Force; they sought to channel it, to coexist with it. And the Sith? They relished in its chaos and power. Serina was seeking something that neither path offered—a complete and utter disconnection from the darkness that whispered to her, that threatened to consume her.
She remembered Rakata Prime, when Darth Imperius struck her down and her revival, she knew it had plans for her, that her fate may truly be determined against her will.
She remembered Imperius' words, which stung like a blade:
You think you have resisted the Dark side's allure by your strength of mind and clear goals, but it is already within you. I can feel it. There is a line drawn by your peers and you have crossed it already with your secret that you guard so well.
But she knew she had to try, if people like Master Cerrik, who Serina considered to be arrogant and blind, if people like Knight Wright, who by all accounts Serina considered to be barely functioning, can chose their own fates...
Why couldn't she?
As she poured through the texts, frustration began to mount. There were works on suppression, meditation techniques to calm the mind and silence the noise of the Force. There were accounts of Jedi Masters who had fallen to the Dark Side and clawed their way back. But nowhere did she find what she was looking for—something definitive, something final.
The hours stretched into the depths of night, the shadows growing long in the archive. Serina finally slumped into a chair, her hands gripping the edge of the desk as she stared at the small pile of works she had gathered. None of them held the answer she sought. Perhaps, she thought bitterly, there was no answer.
Her thoughts turned back to Kaila, to the way she had carried herself with both strength and vulnerability, a rare balance that Serina couldn't help but admire. She wanted to be better—for her, for herself, for the parents who had been unable to protect her. But how could she, when the darkness felt so intertwined with her very being?
Now Master Cerrik's words poured into her head:
Tell me, when the ashes settle, and you are left standing alone, what will you have built? What will endure?
Serina exhaled, the sound heavy in the quiet chamber. She closed her eyes, letting the silence envelop her. For the first time in what felt like days, she allowed herself to feel the weight of her doubts. The path ahead was uncertain, but she knew one thing for certain: she couldn't walk it alone.