Too Stubborn To Die
Weapons: Lightsaber
Tag: Open to a Jedi
Gatz wondered when The Vonnuvi was going to start feeling like home.
That was a weird thing to be pondering, as he patched a fuel line on the enclave's sole Defender-class light corvette. Gatz imagined that most mechanics and engineers didn't ponder superficial things like that when in the middle of repairs. But when it came to ships—flying, fixing, or otherwise—his body basically switched to autopilot, and left his mind free to wander. Hands that had performed this exact task a hundred times needed only muscle memory, and no thought.
Hence: Gatz was busying his brain by letting it think about his place here. He was a full-blown member of the enclave now, no longer a part-timer. He had a master in Inanna, and therefore a place where he belonged right here on the herdship. Hell, here he was performing a much needed duty on the enclave's primary vessel. He was actually of use for once, and that felt great.
Really... Gatz hadn't felt this good in a very long time.
So why did things still feel off? How was it that he still felt like an outsider—a Jedi imposter? His training and studies, while still a little on the slow side, were going so much better now that he could turn to Inanna Harth when he needed help. He'd actually constructed a lightsaber, and had basically done it all on his own. He'd spent the last year of his life trying to do good, even when it meant bodily harm. For all intents and purposes, he was on exactly the path he should be. He liked where he was in life right now. He had a sense of belonging now.
Yet, despite feeling more comfortable on the Vonnuvi than he ever had at the Temple on Coruscant, it still didn't feel like home, and he still felt a little... out of place.
"I wish I could patch my mind as easily as I can patch this fuel line," Gatz muttered to himself, but with a hint of a laugh.