Ziare Dyarron | Keilara Kala'myr | Mercy | Freedom
Mongrel's Shadow and his widow; Matriarch of the Scar Hounds Tribe; Guardian of Mongrel's armour and sword
Objective: Try to contact Manifold and ask his help.
Location: Ancient ruins, Selvaris
Equipment:
FS-18-UP2 Assault Rifle | 2x
Sunfury Pistol |
Light Armour |
Viper Mk. I Skinsuit | 2x
Vibrodagger | 2x
Riftblades |
Promise of Freedom ||
Cloaking Device | 5x
ASBF Probe Droid ||
OPBC-01m
Writing With:
The Manifold
(and as Kallan) | Closed
[ Come back… ]
"Galactic Basic" | ~ Telepathic communication ~ | << comm. channel >>
~ Mercy ~
I didn't have much memory of how I got out of Exegol. From the place I loved so much, where I was home, in Asher's sanctuary. We spent most of our time here when there was no war, temporarily. The place I reached even during dream walking, at any time, I have made that journey so many times. First, when he only invited me to his sanctuary in the evenings, and then, when it became completely natural for me to be with him. To sneak in, to be there secretly, and then to go home at dawn, so that no one would find out what kind of relationship we had. I knew those secret passages at least as well as our shared minds.
The whole thing was as if years, decades had passed since I was last there. The mind is a strange thing. In fact, it was only months, but to me it really seemed like a lifetime, decades. Those sixty years, that world we built, that made everything so far away in time. A whole life in a few minutes. Us… the twins… and then just us again, then the grandchildren and maybe great-grandchildren. A full, happy life. Not easy, but happy. The life that now only existed in my dreams because I was alone because Asher wasn't here with me. And I didn't want this life, not like this, not alone. I wanted him!
The weeks of recovery were slow and painful despite the bacta treatment. I didn't recover quickly due to a combination of depression and postpartum depression. Added to this was malnutrition and dehydration and an infection because the surgery’s cut on my belly became infected. For weeks I just lay there, speechless, not even speaking to Kallan and Keilara or the twins. I didn't feel the slightest attachment towards them, only the duty to get them out. I hated myself for it and couldn't wait to sleep so I could escape to the dreamscape, to Asher's arms. It wasn't him, just a cheap copy, but for now there was nothing else…
Soon…
If what I've come up with works, I'll be with him soon, and Kallan will get what he wants too. To stay alive. When I was a bit better, I started working on a transceiver, using Freedom's memories. A beacon to be exact, capable of emitting radiation that Manifold could sense. And I hoped he would answer it. So I worked on it like a maniac. While I was working on this, I didn't even sleep, only when I literally passed out from fatigue. I refused to stop even if
Thomas Barran
asked me to, or Kallan. I was just trying to chase him away by yelling, just like Kallan. Sometimes it was difficult to move forward, because many times I just sobbed without stopping.
I don't know how much time passed, but it was finally ready. I used MANIAC and Nite's data to find a place where some gaps and rifts between the Netherworld and our reality are thin and I can send a message that he will surely receive. Terraris was one of the best places, but I couldn't get there. The other one that was close to us was the planet Selvaris. Based on the data, even the Galactic Alliance was preparing to strike there, so I had to hurry. I didn't want to miss the opportunity. Because it is possible, this was the last one.
I sought a higher place on the planet, one far from civilization and the impending war, and landed my own ship there. I was no longer interested in the war, the flames of revenge were no longer alive in me. Pain and emptiness killed, extinguished them. I was just an empty shell, nothing more, and I couldn't be whole without Asher. We were not Force users, but the relationship between us was like a Force dyad. But I couldn't even die with him. I knew, we knew where the children were because all three of us felt them. I was hoping Manifold would help with both requests. And then he gets Freedom.
I disembarked from my ship among ancient ruins. The ruins were incredibly reminiscent of the ruins we had seen on Durace. There... We were together for the first time after that. Pain ripped through the rest of my heart and soul again and I felt tears running down my face. I was tired, I didn't want this pain anymore. But at the same time, I was afraid that he was waiting for me over there or not. Whether or not Asher wants to be with me since I've let him down time and time again. I wasn't even able to fulfil his request to be happy or live without him. I couldn't… and I didn't want to.
In the centre of the ruins was some sort of altar in a large square. Around it are dilapidated buildings overgrown with jungle. I think this will be the best point to do what I need to do. I was on a pretty high mountain in the middle of nowhere. I put the transmitter on the altar and activated it, which started to emit the signal in this reality and the signal will filter through the rifts into the Netherworld.
Now I just had to wait and hope that Manifold could receive this broadcast and respond. He had to… I couldn't take one more disappointment. Not alone… not without him.
~ Keilara ~
Our situation has not been easier since they rescued us from Exegol. I continued to try my best to support Kallan with calmness and cheerfulness to completely erase the effect of the darkness. But Mercy's depression was already affecting the mind palace as well. It was harder than before. I don't know why, because I wasn't as strong as I used to be, or it's really the effect of depression. But I didn't give up, especially not when my husband needed me, maybe when he needed me the most. If everything went the same as during captivity, then he supported Mercy and I supported him.
The children had a great time and they also tried to keep their father busy and involve him in the games and activities.
Tu'teggacha
didn't seem to realise how different they were from normal children. And now they were far from us, but they were still able to be here with us. There seemed to be no end to it. That way they could at least know that they are not alone and that they can always count on us. I was happy about that, but I was saddened by Mercy's condition. I kind of understood, since she already collapsed when she found out that Asher went to die to Tython.
I tried not to think about what our lives would be like if Asher listened to her and they left, running away together. Although it was especially painful to think about because I remembered Kallan's face when we were out in the meadow holding me as I "died", disappeared. I remembered the pain and felt Mercy's pain too. Despite this, I always tried to smile and look strong. Now I had to be strong, support Kallan and the children. We didn't want this kind of life, but this is what we got. I tried to make it the best I could. I was patient with Kallan, waiting for him to open up to me. Even though our minds became one and I could have felt what he felt, knew his thoughts, I didn't check his thoughts, memories, I waited for him to make the first steps and let me in.
I didn't want my husband to feel that I didn't trust him or that I was forcing it. I wanted him to accept that I am here, and I will support him with all of my strength. And he also had to accept that this was not fatigue or a burden for me. I did it because I loved him and I wanted him to be okay. For me the greatest happiness is when he is happy and feels good. He would never be a burden to me, never was and never will be. We were at least as close together as Mercy and Asher. For me, it was not a burden, but a joy, because he was the most wonderful person I knew. And that includes those whom Mercy or Ziare remembered, and from everyone he was the most wonderful.
The children were not here now, they were sleeping. They were developed mentally, but the body they were in was still that of a baby. So they had to sleep a lot, and even if they stayed here in the mind palace, they still slept. In their own room, which had to be added to our house because otherwise it would have been small. Ever since I knew, we knew what Mercy wanted, to summon
The Manifold
to help us free the twins and then ask him to take us to the Nether, I tried to show Kallan through Freedom's memories that the Nether is not so bleak, not so desolate and cruel place, but there are also beautiful places and entire cities in it, where there are even living beings and different creatures.
I know he wanted a normal life somewhere away from the wars, somewhere far away. But at the moment it looked like it would be in the Netherworld. This is not what we wanted, but it can be done there. And maybe this is our only chance for us and the twins. That's how we can live, because I was really afraid that if Mercy's plan didn't work, she would really kill herself. But this way, if it worked out, then maybe Mercy would finally feel better on Asher's side and Kallan wouldn't have to worry so much either.
But now that we were alone, I stepped behind Kallan and hugged him from behind, holding him close. I stood up on my tiptoes and pressed a soft kiss to the back of his nape. I embraced him not only with my arms, but also with my mental strength, softly, gently, so that he feels that I am here and that he does not have to be alone. While I held him tight, I snuggled up to his back and inhaled his scent. Now that I was more and more separated from Mercy, I looked a little different from her. My eyes were still green, and my hair was longer than hers and there were no shaved or trimmed on one side. We both have red hair now because Mercy hasn't dyed her own hair pink since Asher's death.
~ I love you Kallan! ~ I whispered gently, lovingly.
~ How are you feeling today? Is the darkness and fatigue starting to fade? ~ I asked him, while I continued to embrace him with tender feelings, with my love.