A vain, cruel and petty manchild, rebelling against any form of authority that dared try to tell him no. All these, the worst parts of Mikhail, flowed through him now in excess. Vanity, for he would not let some miscreant dark sider lay low the man who had toppled emperors. Cruelty, for he could not deny the thrill of watching an enemy bleed. Petty spite, for that was all that was left to him now. Here in the nothing. Here in the Nether.
Shorn sneered as he watched his foe's blood wet the ground, sating its thirsty cries. He rose painfully to his feet, the stump of an arm clutched to his stomach. Mikhail could feel the dirt coating his neck from the blast wave, each granule rough against his skin.
The fingers of his hand curled into a fist and trembled.
Here he stood, body reformed at last. A man of flesh, who could hurt, who could feel. What else had he wanted for the last six years but this only? No longer some wandering spirit, but a mortal again. He'd noticed the change the moment that circle of flames sprang up and it grew stronger by the minute. Freely given the thing he wanted more than anything else in the galaxy.
Hot anger blasted through the wasteland of his heart once more, because he knew the truth. This form, it was too good to be true. And it was a trick. Some stupid ploy by a malevolent Sith demigod who mocked his heart's desire with a taste of life. The sort of Sith who would find a man lost in the desert, dying of thirst, and give him only a single drop of water, just to see the flavor of his anguish before he died.
Hatred burned at the heart of Mikhail's fury, a hate born from guilt, because he knew that despite the cruelty of the ploy, it was no better than he deserved.
Wasn't that what the voices told him in their whispers? Wasn't that why here he could taste nothing but ash?
Memories of mayhem.
"Murderer."
Unborn children, their blood on his hands. The Republic Senate, torn down and slaughtered like the animals they were by his power. Alexis, his first love, her dead eyes a glassy, hateful stare.
"I still love you."
"I don't, I never did."
Her corpse, still warm in his arms, a smoking hole through the chest. Her husband's body, hands pinned to the wall by curtain rods. Crucified and slit open like a pig. His children butchered before him while he died. So he could watch. Wasn't that what Mikhail had said? So he could watch.
Spencer, the woman he could never have. Too good. Too forgiving of his wrongs. And he'd spat it all back in her face.
Rosa Mazhar, the woman whose child he'd killed. The woman who he begged for forgiveness in his drunken stupor. And she'd given it to him.
Andra, another woman whose child he'd murdered, all in pursuit of putting Jared Ovmar in the ground. The same woman who somehow saw some speck of good in him. The mother of his children. He'd felt so close to the light with her. So close to being what they all wanted him to be: a better man.
But there was no light in this damnation. Not even from the shimmering flames that licked around them in a hungry circle. Nothing but tricks and shadows.
"You can kill your father. And then you can die. And then... you'll have my forgiveness." That's what Alexis had told him.
He'd killed his father. And now he was dead.
"So where is my forgiveness?"
But Mikhail knew. He'd sacrificed those scraps of redemption years ago. Why? Because he wanted to survive? Because he wanted to get back to his daughter? Didn't he have some noble goal to achieve, some better reason to live?
No.
The fact that terrified and thrilled Mikhail more than anything else was so idiotically simple. All the murders, all the killing, all the pain and all the power...
"I enjoy it."
Shorn's lips curled up into a crazed smirk and he felt plumes of stygian strength curling from the embers of his hate. He drank in the dark side until his body swelled with that foul, atramentous energy. A hideous, swirling venom that poisoned soul and sinew.
He guzzled it all down like it was nectar from the gods. Sweet but for the bitterness of his suffering.
The short, quiet, persevering stranger who opposed him meant nothing. A pawn in someone else's scheme. But Mikhail didn't see the pawn. He saw only the hand pushing it into place. And in that moment it didn't really matter to him who [member="Alkor Centaris"] was, or where he'd come from, or what he strived to achieve.
Shorn needed to hear the sound of bones snapping and the gurgle croaking of a shattered man. And pawns snapped as easily as kings. All of them, in the end, just bundles of meat and ossein.
Gauntleted fingers stretched out toward the man. Mikhail focused on the man's left ankle. He brought to bear a will that had crumpled buildings like sandcastles. His fingers curled inward and he sought to crush the fragile bones of that foot, to hobble him.
Crippled by a cripple. Shorn snickered.
He should have fought smarter when he had the chance.
Thought the Thronebreaker. There were chinks in his armor. From knees to hips he was unprotected on the thighs. Under the armpits. His palm. The gaps between overlapping plates in his chest. All bare. All vulnerable spots capable of receiving debilitating blows. And Shorn didn't think he'd have been fast enough to stop them. But the stranger had gone only for the obvious blows. Only for the killing ones. That was a mistake.
It wouldn't do to simply kill a man. Mikhail wanted to watch the hope leave his eyes first.
"The tour. I wasn't finished."