Peeps:
Rurik Fel
Daiman Zannen
Castian Vero
Dorian Sicarrio
Detritus Ren
Equipment: Lightsaber
Armor
To say that Corran felt out of place among his fellow Knights was a bit of an understatement. The show that Daiman put on, hovering in the air, and essentially preaching made him a feel a bit uncomfortable. He took a step back and decided that he would not ask any further questions. As Leoric spoke, he listened, and took mental note of the task at hand. He did, however, wonder if he was equipped for something like this. He felt the sentiment even further as Rurik spoke of the history of this place. Corran had understood that they were coming somewhere that the darkside had infested but the history behind it was fascinating but frightening.
Do not be a child, Corran thought to himself as he pushed down the fear rising inside of him. The group continued their approach and Corran focused his thoughts on the mission and pushed aside all of the self doubt and self pity that he had been plagued with his entire life. Those were paths to the darkside if one could not contain their emotions and, unfortunately, Corran was not someone who had a firm grasp of his own identity. He could not trust himself to tamper with the darkside as he knew it would corrupt him.
"And so the Knights emerge...and yet, you all wear a masque, each and every one of you, a false guise. As he did....as we do. Yet still, you spout that brazen, false and pitiful dogma...afraid...afraid of revealing the truth in each of you."
His thoughts were distracted by the voice in his head and he quickly stopped and looked around trying to find the source of the voice. What he was met with, though, was darkness. He could no longer see or sense his comrades and he panicked for a moment as he felt around trying to find any of his brethren. As panic began to seep in he reached for his lightsaber but before he could get his hands on it a voice rang out from the darkness.
"You are a disgrace to the Watts legacy," He knew that voice, that soft spoken but unusually firm and confident sounding man, it was his father. Had he tracked him down? How had he found Corran? He had been so careful and he had been assured by the Imperial Knights that he would not be able to track him. "Oh? You thought I wouldn't be able to find you? You always did think more highly of yourself than you needed to."
He tried, in vain, to find Ben's presence in the darkness. He reached out with the force to find anything but he was met with nothing.
"Show yourself!" Corran shouted as the fear began to creep in. Where was everyone else? He knew his father was powerful but there was no way he was able to incapacitate the entire group he was with without them putting up a fight.
"How did you find me!" He put his hand on his lightsaber but he did not draw it. Despite his feelings towards his father he doubted he would do anything to harm him... he thought.
"The breadth of my power is not something you would be able to understand," A lightsaber buzzed to life a few feet in front of him, the blue glow illuminating a large open room and in the middle stood a hooded man that Corran knew to be his father. Immediately he reached for his lightsaber but he felt a tug pulling on it. Try as he might to hold on the lightsaber was ripped from his hands and Corran felt an immense weight wash over him and force him to the ground. "You are my greatest shame. The Jedi Order collapsed while I lead it, the entire Galactic Republic crumbled, and I lost my homeworld to the Sith, and yet you.... you bring more shame to me than the combined weight of my other failures."
"Stop!" Corran shouted from his knees, tears streaming down his face as he struggled to stand to his feet, but it was no use.
"I didn't ask to be born! Your failures are your own! I deserve to follow my own path!" He snapped his eyes open and all of the sudden he was alone. It was not pitch black dark anymore, instead, he stood face to face with a door. A light shone through a hole above him and illuminated the door. He struggled to his feet and stumbled forward. He ran his hand along the door and it was cool to the touch. As he touched it the door creaked open and revealed a box sitting upon a circular desk.
Corran reached out but before he could touch it he heard the voice again, the one before the blackness.
"The approval you seek from him will not bring you peace. Embrace the darkness within and become something more than your father could ever become. Surpass him, force him to tremble at your might, and then you can let go of the pain he has wrought upon you."
He felt it, something powerful.... something sinister. Its embrace was like laying in a warm bath, all around him he could feel it, its draw so alluring Corran never wanted to leave. He closed his eyes and in his minds eye he saw it. He saw himself standing above his father, Ben Watts trembling at his feet begging forgiveness. He saw no fear in himself, no, he saw raw power. The man he had always wanted to become would be so easy to transform into. All he had to do was give in.
"Yes, young Corran, rewrite the history books. Retell the Watts story from a different angle. Let the world know what your bloodline is capable of! They will respect you. They will fear you. All of them."
The voice echoed in his head but Corran pulled back. He was not sure how but this was not right. He felt the last bit of himself screaming from the back of his head and he listened. He refused the feeling, he refused the surge of darkness, he forced it all away but it did not go easy. He screamed a powerful scream and reached deep within himself to use the force to expel the dark energy. He was not sure how he did it, but a burst of light from within flooded the room momentarily as he pushed the darkness away.
He collapsed, breathing heavily, he stared at the ground and tried not to dwell on what had just happened. Though he had pushed out the darkness he now knew its embrace. He knew the temptation and how easy it would be to give in. When it had been in his veins he felt.... powerful. But, it was all false, and he was his own being. Many would see him as a coward. A timid little boy who lived in the shadow of a once great Jedi Master who would never live up to his fathers legacy. Well, that may be the truth, but they would also see a boy who never stopped moving forward. He would never take the easy way because he refused to let anyone say he gave any less effort than his all.
"The truth of who you are is not what you think."
He snapped up as the voice rang again but this time he was back where he had been left. He was no longer alone, his comrades where near him, but he was unsure of what had happened. They were all spread out and he wondered if they had been hit by the same sort of encounter that he had?
The truth of who you are is not what you think.
What did that mean?