Malice
|Jedi Temple, Coruscant|
|1200 Local Time|
|False hope, perhaps, but the truth never got in my way.|
|1200 Local Time|
|False hope, perhaps, but the truth never got in my way.|
Assigned a master. For some reason, it sounded rather degrading. Assigned, as if for some reason he wasn't good enough to be chosen. He'd mulled it over for some time, what exactly he'd done wrong for them to resort to an assignment. The frustration and self-doubt that followed were rather antithetical to the very ideology he'd been taught. It didn't seem fair, every test, every trial, every exercise lead him to believe he was a step ahead of everyone else. It made him feel real stupid once he'd been finally left behind. Maybe it was hubris, or maybe it really was an injustice, bad luck even.
The banging, hissing, and screeching of the ongoing reconstruction of the temple made it hard to think. Not that it mattered, such thoughts weren't in any way productive. As much as he wanted to be at peace with the circumstances, something just wouldn't allow him to let go. Being a Jedi isn't about being the best, or better than anyone else. He had to remind himself of that fact quite frequently. Competitiveness was a trait no mentor could ever quite mold out of him, and it was the source of many a headache. Always needed to get better, to be better, the best, good enough.
Staring at the airspeeder traffic from the massive windows of one of the temples many corridors, he waited. It was far from a formal meeting, which made it feel even more degrading. No third party to introduce, no overseeing or supervision, just meeting in a hallway. Holding out hope that he wasn't going to be met with some washed-up fluke of a master seemed more and more futile by the second. Best case it was just some unconventional wildcard, or someone with reluctance to take a padawan. That didn't exactly sound like it'd make the best learning experience, though.
Well, beggars can't be choosers after all.