Lonely self training in Tatooine (open preferably to force users)

[nismodriver]

Not long after the events in the cantina i ditched my fancy clothes and bought myself common desert garb for the deserts of tatooine. I built myself a crude hut for shelter for the unforgiving mid-day heat. I was in shape and my althetic frame was slender and in prime...i wasn't that strong or muscular though...the desert plains i was in was surrounded by mountains so i didn't have to worry about desert storms. Last night i had a dream my mother had told me to seek training in the ways of the force...it was destiny. She had passed long ago but time after time i would see her briefly...my dad said it was possible to commune with her...but i could only have dreams...i didn't believe in destiny or fate. I would learn ways of the force with help or not. I had no force powers but i could still sense it around me if there were persons strong in the force around me. My mind was determined but my confidence faultered at times...if only i could use the force to get a girlfriend. ..even someone weak of mind could resist my fancy clothes and mildly handsome looks. I walked outside the hut closed my eyes, held my hand out focused my mind and tried to levitate a pebble that i felt beside my foot. I peeked out with one eye to see that nothing happened it didn't even shift. My father said he had an ability to use his anger for light side of the force if it was for a good cause, for example a loved one was in danger and about to be killed and was currently being injured by a foe...i don't know how my mother died but now i wonder if the story of when my father said he killed a fairly strong dark knight was related...my father was a commander of a fleet of x-wing pilots. But when he was young he had extensive training but he was no jedi. The force is a mysterious thing, using anger and not letting it go to hate, twisting it to your will to protect the ones you love...and if they died with a determined mind and hell of a lot of focus what is possible? I have heard that it was possible to have increased strength, speed, recouped stamina during an arduous battle and supposedly tenfold greater strength in force powers.

If someone killed my dad i would be angry alright...or a woman i loved. The thought unsettled me..my teeth clenched and my fists tightened. I focused my mind called out to anyone who was strong enough to sense it with the force...didn't know if it would work...but still my heart was racing, tears down my face...no one is going to hurt the ones i love...not while i was alive...i turned my back to the pebble not noticing it was vibrating ever so slightly. ..