Loreena Arenais-Valhoun
Owner of Dar'manda Industries
Lori sat on her bed inside her quarters of Jaster's Delight. She stared at her holopad, waiting to pen a message to
LE-03 (Leigh)
, otherwise known as The Voice. The two of them were there for the start of the Eclipse Rebellion since the tragic events of Bakura. And their working relationship only grew as well as the movement against the Eternal Empire that was started.
Much has gone on these past few weeks. Not only did she suffer personal loss, but her character as well. And that was merely to add on top of the restrictions already placed on her due to her acts of sabotage and insurgency against the Empire. But now she felt attacked on all fronts. Continuing on was surely going to end up breaking her down even more.
It was time to change course.
~Voice,
As of late everything that I say or do has been the subject of ridicule and disappointment, not just by my enemies but within the Eclipse as well. I had gotten used to being the public figure so that you and others can work in secret. I had accepted the price that it had placed on me. I'm cut off from family and what little support there was for me. My wedding was attacked in what was supposed to be a safe region and now my husband is...he's gone.
And what is there to show for it but me failing to live up to whatever expectations that they have for me. I'm not a mind reader, I can't do or say what people want if I don't even know what that is. I'm not my late Dad, or my twin brother that has surpassed everything that I have tried to srt out to do with flying colours. I'm not my late Mom either. I'm not a leader, I am just....a child that just tried to save some innocent people from a life they didn't want.
I don't think that I deserve or should be the Face of the Eclipse anymore. I can't do so if the Rebels around me call me out on their disappointment in front of influential leaders across the Galaxy. Propaganda against me from the Empire is one thing, but when it comes from the Eclipse too, it merely shows that I've worn out my welcome.
I still believe in the movement and will just go back to what I was doing at the start, which was working alone, with whatever intel you give me. The Empire may make a martyr out of me yet but at this point, I don't really care. Just let them. I'm sure that it'll make many people happy and perhaps give the Rebels a boost in members and support. But of course it could have the opposite effect and just be another way for me to disappoint everyone.
My family's legacy is a novel, while I am merely a footnote.
I hope that whomever is chosen to replace me will do a far better job than I have done. Such a thing probably isn't difficult to do. But at least they wouldn't be a disappointment like I have been.
I'm sorry for not being able to live up to everyone's expectations of me.
I will be around to fight or sabotage ships or factories where I can. But I won't be public about it. I won't be teaming up with the others, for they can do well enough on their own without me to mess things up for them.
Thanks for trying and seeing in me what no one else did....And I'm sorry for failing you too.
Loreena....~
After sending off the message, she turned off her datapad and closed her eyes. Goofball Lori she was again; the one that everyone overlooked. Maybe in time she'd be forgotten by her enemies as well and would be allowed to connect with people again. But until then there'd be no one but her and Arla to fight the good fight together.
LE-03 (Leigh)
, otherwise known as The Voice. The two of them were there for the start of the Eclipse Rebellion since the tragic events of Bakura. And their working relationship only grew as well as the movement against the Eternal Empire that was started.Much has gone on these past few weeks. Not only did she suffer personal loss, but her character as well. And that was merely to add on top of the restrictions already placed on her due to her acts of sabotage and insurgency against the Empire. But now she felt attacked on all fronts. Continuing on was surely going to end up breaking her down even more.
It was time to change course.
~Voice,
As of late everything that I say or do has been the subject of ridicule and disappointment, not just by my enemies but within the Eclipse as well. I had gotten used to being the public figure so that you and others can work in secret. I had accepted the price that it had placed on me. I'm cut off from family and what little support there was for me. My wedding was attacked in what was supposed to be a safe region and now my husband is...he's gone.
And what is there to show for it but me failing to live up to whatever expectations that they have for me. I'm not a mind reader, I can't do or say what people want if I don't even know what that is. I'm not my late Dad, or my twin brother that has surpassed everything that I have tried to srt out to do with flying colours. I'm not my late Mom either. I'm not a leader, I am just....a child that just tried to save some innocent people from a life they didn't want.
I don't think that I deserve or should be the Face of the Eclipse anymore. I can't do so if the Rebels around me call me out on their disappointment in front of influential leaders across the Galaxy. Propaganda against me from the Empire is one thing, but when it comes from the Eclipse too, it merely shows that I've worn out my welcome.
I still believe in the movement and will just go back to what I was doing at the start, which was working alone, with whatever intel you give me. The Empire may make a martyr out of me yet but at this point, I don't really care. Just let them. I'm sure that it'll make many people happy and perhaps give the Rebels a boost in members and support. But of course it could have the opposite effect and just be another way for me to disappoint everyone.
My family's legacy is a novel, while I am merely a footnote.
I hope that whomever is chosen to replace me will do a far better job than I have done. Such a thing probably isn't difficult to do. But at least they wouldn't be a disappointment like I have been.
I'm sorry for not being able to live up to everyone's expectations of me.
I will be around to fight or sabotage ships or factories where I can. But I won't be public about it. I won't be teaming up with the others, for they can do well enough on their own without me to mess things up for them.
Thanks for trying and seeing in me what no one else did....And I'm sorry for failing you too.
Loreena....~
After sending off the message, she turned off her datapad and closed her eyes. Goofball Lori she was again; the one that everyone overlooked. Maybe in time she'd be forgotten by her enemies as well and would be allowed to connect with people again. But until then there'd be no one but her and Arla to fight the good fight together.
