@Sage Bane | @Darth Venefica | @Vrag
The earlier cut of the lightsaber across her abdomen could little compare to the agony that the young man now inflicted upon her in standing upon her hand, the pressure of his weight grinding down forcefully onto the tender flesh, the rough ridges of his boot pinning her effectively to the floor, though she had a broader range of motion available to her than she might have done had he sought to crush her elbow, or press his foot into her shoulder. Of all her options, he had picked the one that perhaps inflicted the most pain, yet caused the least true damage.
She heard the bones popping under that crushing weight with a detachment that lasted all of a nanosecond, before the pain kicked in and sent an electrifying jolt right up her arm, the compression his boot was causing almost desensitising the nerves in her hand, so all she was left with was considerable referred pain all along the arm, jarring her shoulder and causing the softest of gasps to escape her lips. It was an odd thing, looked at objectively: any other in her position would be screaming in pain, begging for mercy, saying whatever they might to relieve the pain.
Not even that option is left open to me. How frustrating he must find that.
All she could offer him was a widening of her now tear-filled eyes, that gentle gasp that indicated the involuntary clearing of her lungs, all she could offer in a silent scream that would not have registered on the most sensitive of auditory monitors. Her hand started to burn as he continued to dig his foot in, and she could well imagine the skin being broken by such sharp, painful contact. Yet, odd as it was to imagine, she felt more alive in that moment than she had done all day, the agony rushing through her, compounding upon that already inflicted, making poignant the sense that in death all this would have ceased, and she would be beyond all sensation, painful or otherwise. Both Jedi and Sith taught that pain sharpened the senses, and that when some would shut down from it, becoming supine and lethargic, giving in to the inevitable, they instead felt more awake, more focused, more
alive.
She stared at him now, deathly calm in her expression, the ragged breathing of a moment ago steadier, more relaxed than it had been, the tears still streaming down her face, though now off to the side, rather than spilling down her cheeks. The endorphins that her pain of her crushed hand surged through her, blocking off pain receptors and leaving her feeling oddly relaxed, even though inwardly she knew she had to be in real agony for this to have happened. She hadn't intended it, of course: the Sith always taught that one had to draw upon pain as a means of empowerment, but her body had betrayed her in this, numbing those sensations and leaving her less to feel.
But leaving my head clearer. That part was a blessing, at least.
He spat out his demand, commanding her into submission, but if he was waiting for her to verbally declare that victory was his, he would be waiting a very long time.
Long enough for my bones to knit themselves together, long enough for our hair to turn grey and for our strength to leave us both, long enough for us both to collapse together on this floor in death, longer than it takes for our bones to dissolve into dust and be brushed away by a stiff breeze. In truth, the way he spoke to her hurt more now than the pain and weariness her body felt, leaving her with that smarting sense of being humiliated in this fashion by a
man. And a young one at that.
Such insult cannot be borne without restitution, she thought calmly.
Can I make it this easy for him?
Her undamaged left hand came up then, brought across her chest, the fingers splayed open for a moment, bringing them up so he could clearly see what she was doing, noting as he had to that she remained unarmed, and had no weapon to hand. The crimson lightsaber hovered close, too close for comfort, but she could not help that now. There was no overt way to avoid his immediate wrath, so perhaps a signal needed to be sent to at least allay the wrath she knew her silence would provoke.
Has he not made that evident in his every action today? She could feel it, that annoyance that was quickly pushing towards anger, only serving to turn a civilised being into a monstrous example of brutality.
The first law is obedience, she signed, her fingers flickering rapidly, spelling out each letter in the fashion she had learned after she had first been thrown into this voiceless hell. It had taken time, and considerable self-loathing before she had been able to force herself to learn, but GSL had been her only effective means to communicate. She could not even use it properly now, having only one hand to sign with, but that was sufficient to spell out what she intended. Whether he would understand or not, she couldn't say, but she had to try. Maybe one of the Sith observers would do her the kindness of translating for him.
Will you risk their wrath in turn?, she asked, fingers rapidly transitioning from one shape to another, a slight nod of her head upwards giving some indication of who she meant.
There was a very real possibility of meeting death here, but that thought calmed her further, rather than made her fear it, the way he expected her to.
You've sought to intimidate me from the first, Elensa thought, her blue eyes locked upon the brown ones of her adversary, hers moistened by the tears that had escaped her without prohibition, his narrowed in anger and with clear ferocity. The fingers she had used to sign with fell silent now, remaining still, resting on her breast as she continued watching him.
Fear is a tool effective only against those who have reason to deny death, she mused.
Mine should have been some time ago, with my friends and family in the Temple. She let that wave of pain wash over her again, a half-remembered moment where the Sith had sought to annihilate everything she knew, succeeding only in part and leaving her doomed to remember it as a living victim.
That should have been my end, she knew, to have fallen with her Master, fellow students and friends.
The Force denied me then. Why should it now let you be the one to bring me down?
She closed her eyes then, a soft exhalation escaping her once more as she relaxed, letting the pain and fatigue wash properly over her, but not to fall into sleep or blessed unconsciousness, as if to know more, but rather to let her turn inward, reaching once more for the Force. It was hopeless to attack now, her options limited by her mobility and agony, as always. She could not push him away, not before he sensed it and finished her off, as he promised. She could not summon her lightsaber, for not only could she no longer find it with her thoughts, even if she had, drawing it to her would ellicit that same fatal reaction from her fellow Acolyte.
I promised to share my pain with you, though, did I not? If I'm going to die, I should at least be sure to keep my word.
Her telepathic abilities were nowhere on par with his, but for this, they did not need to be. He was stood directly above her, a physical connection made, that barrier broken with little resistance. Elensa knew where he was, so to reach for his mind was the simplest of things in that moment. The anger she felt surging through him was strong, but that fiery inferno raged about her with relentless force.
You feel fire, heat rising through you to offer you strength. Experience what I have to feel: the cold, dead weight of sorrow that expresses itself through tears and not flame. In seeking to dominate even her thoughts, he had to make contact with her mind: those messages sent across the void of non-verbal space had created a conduit between them, and she used it now to show him what he needed to see[/i].
The very first sorrow, of course, had come the day the Jedi had come to their stately home on Hapes, to remove her from the safety and familiarity of her family, taking her off-world to Tython. She remembered vividly seeing the serene, cold beauty of the Temple and tears streaming down her cheeks, even as she sought to look proud and calm, as her mother would have wanted it. She remembered those initial days in the Temple, surrounded by failure as she struggled to grasp what they taught. Her anger at being assigned to male teachers and having them try to instruct her. The frustration of trying to fit in and be what they expected of her: not because they demanded it, but because to do otherwise would be to fail. And then, years later, that fateful moment where she had found her home and purpose, then watching as it all blasted away in a torrent of fire, explosions everywhere, shrapnel flying as tall stately buildings collapsed into rubble. Bodies falling, these misshapen bloody fragments dressed in the robes of people she had known. And then blessed unconsciousness, giving way to that uncertain moment when you awake, wondering if it had been a dream. Sitting painfully up to look around, seeing the devastation that had been wrought out of nowhere, and then moving to cry out in horror, and hearing nothing. Reaching up with both hands to touch her throat and finding a bloody jagged line that had cut it's way under her chin and robbed her even of the solace of her screams.
Locked inside myself now.
Fast forward again, to this moment. The rush of initial fear giving away to cold intent, the adrenaline surging through her along with the Force energies from outside. That shock of agonising pain as his lightsaber had cut across her, burning nerves and flesh in equal measure, a fiery gash that bled not at all, but left her feeling as if he had ripped her insides out. The anger she felt at the way he mocked her, challenged her, this male daring to harm her, his audacity ripping through her. And now, both battered and pushed, him standing wearily above her with that vicious feral demand, her agony and sorrow combined in full measure, knowing that the end was close and that the pain was so hard now to endure.
Feel it all, she thought silently.
Experience the pain you see in my eyes. Would you submit?, Elensa asked him without words, knowing there could be no answer because he would never be able to hear her.