Mental Issues - Not Alone

[Jsc]

Sup. I'm Jay and I have mental issues. Duh.


By the Numbers

First. This ain't a pity post. As, it is my understanding that many many many of us on this site do. Being human and real people. So no. No, this isn't a pity post. It's a 'lets all understand each other better' post. Which is sorta different in tune. And I apologize if that's uncomfortable. That's a good thing.

Second. Chaos ain't my safe space. It's the internet. It's my entertainment time. It's the Wild West baby. And I know that and I focus on that. Indeed. Tef and Staff ain't my behavior moderators either. I have doctors, meds, family, friends, and paid councilors for that. Tef and Staff are my peers. We work together to create a game community that's fun. It's a team effort and I'm proud to be apart of that team. My member tag means I'm a valued contributor and that's awesome. That's my jam. Even if others choose to see me as different.

Third. I'm in control of all my issues. I'm rock steady, doing my doctor's routine, making money, participating with my family, and life is great. And I'm good with that. It is that success IRL that I believe helps me give real life to struggles and battles of my characters. Success in life gives me success in entertainment. Which is why I put so much focus on being successful IRL. So that I can come here and share that inspiration and that life experience through writing. My scars tell a story, that I love to share through fiction.

Fourth. I'm learning too. My personality ain't Jesus, my scholarly efforts are minimum at best, and my life experiences are relatively sheltered. Especially in light of being a member of an international community. The Internet. So I'm willing to admit that I'm vulnerable to making EVERY mistake in the book. And I've got the warning points, the rep, and the 'Ignore' list to show for it. ...But I'm going to also admit that I'm ashamed of my mistakes, forgiven for them, and willing to work harder everyday to improve. One step at a time.

Fifth. I don't talk about it. But I'm not alone. I accept having a few scars and working hard every day to see them heal. I'll pay for that. I'll pay dat money. ...But. I don't talk about it. It's my thing. My responsibility. My job. Not a crutch. Not an excuse. Not a reason to see myself as different or special. I'm still just human and I can still participate, and have fun too. I'm just like you. A rough stone rolling. Crazy like a bat out of hell.


I'm Okay, Your Okay

So what does that mean for me when I log onto Chaos? Honestly. Not much. But isn't doesn't mean I have to feel alone or bitter about it either. And I choose not to. Nah. I choose to believe that having a few flaws makes for a better character. I choose to believe that having issues makes me a stronger writer. I choose to believe that all the good in my fantasy-fiction comes like squeezed oil from some of the worst places in my life. I choose to believe. Because that's who I am. I get stuff done, son. Boom!

...Besides. Being a little crazy is kinda fun too. Mughahaha.

In closing. If you're a little broken too? If you've lost something, been hurt, in a bed, keep a grudge, or are disadvantaged into society? I kinda know how you feel. Sorta. But you're not alone and you can succeed. Indeed. You can be a member of this website without shame and participate as my buddy too. Mistakes, bad rep, warning points, mental issues, goofy tech subs, crazy characters, bad punctuation, center formatting, blah blah blah, and all. Etc.

You've got this mate. Don't let it hold you back. This ain't our safe space. It's our entertainment space. So, do what moves you. And conquer. Cheers!


How to Reply to this Thread

Give a shout out to the struggling members of our community. Let them hear your voice of support too. So that they know they are appreciated, welcome, supported, and in the good company of crazy crazy people. Lulz. Remember this is an international community with members of all ages and fantasy. Just people being people.

Also. Do you have to name your own issues? Nah. Do you have to storytime your own drama? Nah. After all? Not everybody might understand. Nah. All you have to do is share your own positive feelings towards being a welcome contributor to the site, with a few flaws and feelings of your own too.

Keep it positive.
Support your friends.
Welcome back those we've lost.
Be an inspiration.

*pew pew pew*


#NotASafePlace
#Hustler_Life
#KatyPerryGIFs?

 

[Jsc]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw​

 

[Connor Harrison]

[member="Jay Scott Clark"] I want to reply to this, and I don't, because it's one of those "ooh controversial subject" threads and "how long will it take before it turns into a GIF war or finger pointing exercise"....

...BUT I had just say something because we talk about lots of other things on the site that is based around fiction so why not talk about something that's fact.

I know people IRL affected with mental health issues and also some people here. I won't name names or expand because it's not my place to and this isn't REALLY the place to, on a board that's here to help people escape RL a little.

But I will say I support all those with any mental health issues, and any personal difficulties that they feel holds them back. This is a community, and community stands beside one another to help and support, and hopefully through writing we can do this without making anyone feel uncomfortable or scared about asking for support, or help or a little reassuring few words.

Nice post also, kudos for getting it out there. Taboo subjects aren't to be afraid of - more just understood.

 

[Seraphina Shel'tah]

Support your fiends.

Fiends? Was that intentional? I can't really tell, and that makes it kind of humorous to me...

Anyways, I'm a compulsive perfectionist and stereotypical 'neat freak'. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I have a disorder, but seeing things out of place, or dirty, or not done exactly the way I want it irks me like nothing else. I simply have to fix it, or I will think about it all day. I clean my apartment every single day, and constantly try to find ways to better organize my things so that everything has its' own little place. An actual surge of euphoria is when things simply fit together perfectly like I just won a game of Tetris.

Yes. My life is sad. This is what you younger people have to look forward to when you're pushing 30...Living alone in an apartment with your cat finding ways to clean before you watch Netflix and eat your feelings dinner and go to bed. Or maybe not, I don't know you. I'm anti-social and only hang out with the same small group of people I've known since highschool one night a week. Yep, my friend hangouts are a weekly planned event. I'm a real blast!

My friends enjoy that I clean their apartments for free though, maybe that's why they keep me around. :lol:

On a serious note: Life's good. Live it and enjoy it. It could be shorter than you realize. And for those with serious mental challenges know that there's definitely a wealth of support for you!

 

[Ax'no]

I'll reply short and sweet and how it's intended:

Shoutout to my fellow crazies!

 

[Alexander Sannes]

Wouldn't be us if we were normal, simply how it is.

 

[Briah Song]

Psychological intangibility represent.

 

[Tefka]

Some people are full of crap. Some people have legitimate issues. No member, Staff or no, is capable of providing you professional assistance.

That's not to say Chaos can't help you, but please don't take it out on us when we don't.

 

[Tanith Alde]

There is a site I can recommend. (Please don't ban me Teffy)

It's called 7 Cups of tea.

It's free and anonymous, and it can provide trained assistance to anyone that needs to talk.

 

[The Noble Scoundrel]

[member="Jay Scott Clark"]

You could say that I'm "ADD: The Movie".

 

[Jsc]

Some people are full of crap. Some people have legitimate issues. No member, Staff or no, is capable of providing you professional assistance.

That's not to say Chaos can't help you, but please don't take it out on us when we don't.

Excellent and definitive comment. Thanks Tef.

 

[Ilias Nytrau]

Yep, got my own issues up there in the noggin. Always have. It's a part of my life, part of who I am, part of me, but it isn't my *life*. It will never define me.

It's managed. Some weeks are better than others, but life stops for no-one. I'm here too, my fellow mentally imbalanced folk.

 

[Darth Ferus]

Eh. Ny problem is that I tried (key word) to make Chaos my safe place. Or any other place where I rped. So when that got threatened by people or situations, I flip the lid and overreact to such an extreme there's nothing left that would even resemble a safe place. As for the key word, finally figured that one out and no longer am I being the dumb guy trying to use the interwebs as a safe place. Bad idea, ends bad, and is just stupid.

So yay crazies, or something.

 

[James Justice]

My mom was Histrionic and type 2 bipolar--my brother is the classic rapid cycling bipolar. ((Disambiguation)) My best friend in high school was paranoid--so much so that he carried 15 different para-military grade firearms in his van. My dad has a very peculiar strain of OCD and my youngest brother has sensory integration disorder. I used to joke that my family's genes came from the bad end of the gene pool. The side that was slightly yellow, warm, and had spongy fungal matter growing on the surface.

I personally have forms of PTSD and clinical depression from what I have seen and done.

Like you said, Jay, its not my life, but its a part of my life. I personally do talk about it. A lot, actually, but not because I want pity but because I help people. I tell them that they can make it, because I did. Because my family made it. Because I am still here, so there is hope that they too can make it through the dark times or the bad things that happens in their dysfunctional family. I've helped a few different people in my college last week with this understanding, "Families can be remade"--mine was.*

So, rest assured, there is hope. There is always hope. Life is full of turmoil and struggle--as one of my professors was fond of saying, "We are born cold, wet, naked, hungry, and screaming--then things get worse!" Life is full of tragic hardships that push the best of people under. That's not ok, and just because you end up getting shoved under the water, doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you. It doesn't mean that you are broken, or wrong, or a bad person. It just means that the dominoes are falling that way today, but tomorrow they could be going the opposite direction. Your not hopeless or helpless.

And if you are broken, that's ok. You don't have to stay that way if you don't want to, anyone can be put back together--I speak as a former victim of abuse. Letting yourself hurt, letting yourself feel is one of the best possible things that can happen to you. It means your still alive and where there is life, there will always be hope.

If your out there and you need someone to just listen, be your friend, cry with you, or just cheer you on, I am your man. I can't claim to make people better, or to be able to heal the world. That can't be done by one man. But what I CAN do is stand with you when life sucks and I can give you the hope to keep on trucking.

Because tomorrow, really is, and really can be, better than today.

Cheers folks.

CAVEAT:

Spoiler

It should go without saying, however I will throw it in there anyway to make sure there are no misunderstandings; if you are in an abusive relationship, DO NOT stay. Get out and as far away as fast as you possibly can. The person may change, and that is great for them, we all hope they do. But until then, YOU need to get out of there. Do not reconcile. Do not stay with them. Do not listen. Get help, go to a professional who has completed the college I am taking. OR, if not that, go to the police.

 

[Matreya]

Sigh.

Not even gonna.

 

[Ellie Mors]

Sigh.

Not even gonna.

What? This is literally a support post.

 

[Matreya]

What? This is literally a support post.

I wasn't saying anything bad.

I sighed to see another person stated to have mental disorders, and said I'd leave it as is. Ie, the thread says it all..?

What did you think I meant by it?

 

[Jsc]

..the thread says it all..?

I was pretty comprehensive, wasn't I? Lulz.

Cheers and happy RPing dude. Best wishes from here.

 

[Sanya Val Lerium]

Ill admit chaos is my escape. Everyone here knows me as me and that gives me comfort. Sure I'll admit there are some asshats here and they do frankly piss me off sometimes but one is born everyday and there are no escape from those types. But no matter what I'm always drawn here because it's better than having people irl to see me who I am not. But the other day I did get good news that I have been approved for my treatment. On the 27th of may I get to sign a little sheet of paper saying I consent to something that could kill me and the strange thing is I'm okay with that. This is something I've given a lot of thought to and even if it dose it is something I need to do for myself to be happy. I understand more than most that in life risks are necessary.

My advice to anyone is if you are left with that one question you don't have the answer for, don't you dare stop ever. No matter if the answer is good bad or both. Its better to know than regret. Ask your grandparents the things they regret in life 9/10 it won't be things they have done but the things they never got to do. I spent a lot of my life pushing my feeling down it ruined me, destroyed me and left me with probably the biggest regret of my life. The regret is I should have said something sooner. I'd probably not be in a point in my life where I feel like everything around me is falling apart. if your like me and always put others before you. Then for once put yourself first because it could change your life. Don't make the same mistakes as me. Be who you are and don't be afraid to own it. The worst part for me though is I'm only 20 and I have many more years (hopefully) to live with my regrets.

Sorry for the ramble

 

[The Red of Sinner]

So [member="Jay Scott Clark"]

This makes me happy, beyond happy, to see such great people come together to support those with mental illnesses. One of my bros has autism, and he is my heart, my rock, and everything that I wish I could be. But, I dont envy him, nor do I pity him. He is an amazing person with the biggest heart in the world.

Light it up Blue is almost over, I hate to see our little blue light go down, but for those who know what Im talking about, thanks for supporting autism awareness!