L O S T
So much had happened in such a short space of time; two absent members of Kobe Seren's family had arrived in the wake of his Mother's murder, and while any child should have felt relief at the sight of their Father Kobe had instead felt disgust. The man had promised his life to Asha, even with his Jedi upbringing Kobe knew of the sanctity of marriage, he knew that part of the vows were to protect one another... But Tracyn had failed. What's more, he was a Mandalorian, and he still was not strong enough to keep his family safe.
Of course, Kobe did not fully comprehend the cacophony of emotions he was feeling towards his Father, he was much too young to understand the subtle differences between sorrow and anguish, disappointment and abhorring. He did, however, know enough to feel rejected and abandoned; neither Asha or Tracyn had been there to raise him, he had not seen them in over a year before Asha met her demise. He loved them, and they had left him alone in the Galaxy, with nothing save the Force for company.
And through it he had felt the slaughter of Cassus, his twin, with whom he had shared a deep seated connection with, and he had experienced his Mother's passing as if it had been his own. The torment was unbearable, meditation did little to elevate the sensations and each dream had become twisted into sickening nightmares that left him writhing in his bed at night. So it was that Kobe had retreated inwards, became a shadowy husk of his former self, his voice muted to the world.
Gareth and Tracyn had proven to be the final straw, and through their untimely arrivals he found a moment of clarity: he could not remain there, living in the shadow of his parents and all that they had done, all that had been done to them, he would not live for pity or mercy. The Galaxy would not be met with peace, of this he was certain; one might question how a child could even comprehend such ideas, much less begin to dispute them of their own accord, but these were concepts Kobe had been raised around, he knew no other life. He was born into the Jedi.
But he knew now that their path was faulty. Death would come to those undeserving, whether in times of strife or apparent tranquility, for peace was a fickle thing, it was temporary; death however was permanent. It was the only thing that anyone could be certain of, an end to the cycle, to the torment. It reminded everyone it touched of their humanity, of their finite and fickle existence.
So it was that Kobe decided he would not play the pawn, he would not be used as canon fodder for the Republic's unjust causes, he would not seek to shape their civilizations or fight for pseudo-peace. He would not play the role of appeasing coward. He would instead seek his own philosophy from the Galaxy, glean it from experience as opposed to text books, and he would stand before it and fight for its very core; after all, strife causes advancement while timidity leads to the suppression of flourishment.
Casting aside his position as Jedi Learner, placing down his training blade and changing out of his robes into something more neutral, Kobe had slipped from the Ossus Academy without word and faded into the crowds at Knossa Spaceport. Being small and nimble as he was, the young boy had no issues avoiding detection as he boarded a transport vessel which was full to the brim with travellers and merchants.
In his possession he held very little; some credits he had managed to acquire, staples for when he became hungry, a small bone-blade of Mando'a heritage and one solitary holocron which mentally sang and reached out for him. It had been his Mothers, once, and with it he would find where she had gone, why she had been so absent, and just who had slain her in cold blood.
Being outside of the Academy proved to be cathartic for the boy, and he managed to get some rest during the first few hours of the journey. When his dream was inevitably invaded, as it always was, by faceless demons the boy awoke and found himself still hunched in the corner of the hull. One individual was staring at him queerly, and Kobe felt colour rising in his cheeks at the embarrassment at his fearful sleep being noted.
He did not sleep again.
When they reached Dressel a few days after first leaving Ossus, the journey faster than anticipated due to the use of the Mara Corridor's hyperspace lane, Kobe came to find that this was as far as he was going to get with this specific transport vessel. Stranded in such a strange corner of the Galaxy, Kobe lingered around the Spaceport while the other passengers went about their business.
Too tired to try and board a second ship, the boy instead huddled down against a corner wall and clutched at the holocron, finding that it gave him a boon to his strength - at least, enough to stop him from instantly falling asleep. He didn't yet have the Force capabilities to activate it, nor the knowledge of how to, but that didn't stop Kobe from trying. And in his ignorance, the boy was unable to hide his subtle usage of the Force -- Luckily for him, Dressel wasn't known for its Force User presence.
Perhaps that would mean he was safe, for now at least.
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Of course, Kobe did not fully comprehend the cacophony of emotions he was feeling towards his Father, he was much too young to understand the subtle differences between sorrow and anguish, disappointment and abhorring. He did, however, know enough to feel rejected and abandoned; neither Asha or Tracyn had been there to raise him, he had not seen them in over a year before Asha met her demise. He loved them, and they had left him alone in the Galaxy, with nothing save the Force for company.
And through it he had felt the slaughter of Cassus, his twin, with whom he had shared a deep seated connection with, and he had experienced his Mother's passing as if it had been his own. The torment was unbearable, meditation did little to elevate the sensations and each dream had become twisted into sickening nightmares that left him writhing in his bed at night. So it was that Kobe had retreated inwards, became a shadowy husk of his former self, his voice muted to the world.
Gareth and Tracyn had proven to be the final straw, and through their untimely arrivals he found a moment of clarity: he could not remain there, living in the shadow of his parents and all that they had done, all that had been done to them, he would not live for pity or mercy. The Galaxy would not be met with peace, of this he was certain; one might question how a child could even comprehend such ideas, much less begin to dispute them of their own accord, but these were concepts Kobe had been raised around, he knew no other life. He was born into the Jedi.
But he knew now that their path was faulty. Death would come to those undeserving, whether in times of strife or apparent tranquility, for peace was a fickle thing, it was temporary; death however was permanent. It was the only thing that anyone could be certain of, an end to the cycle, to the torment. It reminded everyone it touched of their humanity, of their finite and fickle existence.
So it was that Kobe decided he would not play the pawn, he would not be used as canon fodder for the Republic's unjust causes, he would not seek to shape their civilizations or fight for pseudo-peace. He would not play the role of appeasing coward. He would instead seek his own philosophy from the Galaxy, glean it from experience as opposed to text books, and he would stand before it and fight for its very core; after all, strife causes advancement while timidity leads to the suppression of flourishment.
Casting aside his position as Jedi Learner, placing down his training blade and changing out of his robes into something more neutral, Kobe had slipped from the Ossus Academy without word and faded into the crowds at Knossa Spaceport. Being small and nimble as he was, the young boy had no issues avoiding detection as he boarded a transport vessel which was full to the brim with travellers and merchants.
In his possession he held very little; some credits he had managed to acquire, staples for when he became hungry, a small bone-blade of Mando'a heritage and one solitary holocron which mentally sang and reached out for him. It had been his Mothers, once, and with it he would find where she had gone, why she had been so absent, and just who had slain her in cold blood.
Being outside of the Academy proved to be cathartic for the boy, and he managed to get some rest during the first few hours of the journey. When his dream was inevitably invaded, as it always was, by faceless demons the boy awoke and found himself still hunched in the corner of the hull. One individual was staring at him queerly, and Kobe felt colour rising in his cheeks at the embarrassment at his fearful sleep being noted.
He did not sleep again.
When they reached Dressel a few days after first leaving Ossus, the journey faster than anticipated due to the use of the Mara Corridor's hyperspace lane, Kobe came to find that this was as far as he was going to get with this specific transport vessel. Stranded in such a strange corner of the Galaxy, Kobe lingered around the Spaceport while the other passengers went about their business.
Too tired to try and board a second ship, the boy instead huddled down against a corner wall and clutched at the holocron, finding that it gave him a boon to his strength - at least, enough to stop him from instantly falling asleep. He didn't yet have the Force capabilities to activate it, nor the knowledge of how to, but that didn't stop Kobe from trying. And in his ignorance, the boy was unable to hide his subtle usage of the Force -- Luckily for him, Dressel wasn't known for its Force User presence.
Perhaps that would mean he was safe, for now at least.
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