LOCATION: unknown
Objective: Endure. Resist. Subvert. Escape.
Equipment:
Cybernetics | a black robe.
Tag: [
Darth Tennacus
] [
Darth Senthral
]
The Master’s piercing gaze ensnared Jhira, swallowing her whole. Eye-to-eye and soul-to-soul, locked in a silent struggle. Drowning her in a bitter rush of anger and hate. The burning need to avenge the wounds she could not prevent. Rage pushed her to mindless action, yet the breathless recognition of an alpha predator on the hunt stunned her to instinctive, wary stillness. The bored indifference which had so angered her was revealed as a mere facade.
The Master hunted; he hunted her
soul.
The Darth Lord’s voice whispered the heart-breaking truth into her mind,
No one is coming for you, each poisoned word thereafter further lacerating her soul. Loyalty strained, stressed by that devastating sense of abandonment. A tremor started in her toes, throat locked closed on a scream, as the horror of
hearing him within her own mind brought forth how fully helpless she was before the sorcerous power he wielded. Courage fractured, not by the risk of an honorable death, but the risk of
falling.
Eldritch rage boiled within, feeding on her pain, fear and exhaustion. A life-time of loss sent a furious snarl to her lips, rather than tears to her eyes. She would not fall to an
aruetti; would not let her honor crumble, though he denied her the clean death she’d sought. The cold promise of vengeance, of work unfinished, gave her the strength to endure a single moment. Another breath and the reminder of whom she truly hated got her through the next. Hands clenched, the instinctual urge to lash out barely checked. There would be but one chance at vengeance or escape; she dared not waste it.
the weakest pup is left to the will of the wild.
She had her answer as to why
her, and she hated him for it. Weakness that could not be overcome, fragility that endured, was every bit as despised amongst the Mandalorians as the Master might wish. Hated, too, that she’d been left without a backward glance, without a moment’s consideration. A lifetime of taking in the lost, of standing strong when others failed, and yet she’d die here, unnoticed, unmourned, forgotten - and for
nothing. Rhand was lost, not even the temple’s destruction achieved by her hands.
the weakest pup is left ...
A mercenary, just a mercenary. No
vode had stood beside her on Rhand; only
aruetti. It didn’t matter in that moment, that she knew their retreat had been the tactically correct decision. Bitter anger consumed her from within. The fact that COMMs were jammed, that she’d been drug into the earth mere moments before the temple become a mushroom cloud suddenly didn’t matter; didn’t excuse that none of them
grieved her. That she was nothing to them.
A final promise and temptation:
The Force shall set you free.
Jhira trembled, caught in the whirlwind of summoned emotion, the agonizing hope in that whispered seduction a dagger in the heart. Free … to return to her children. To hug Lori-goof and drink Omen’s
Tihaar; to fight with the
Karjyr, laugh with Mia, tease Vulcan. Argue with Ijaat. Devastating hope, that all she needed to regain them all, was to betray them. Another memory rose, and her fingers drummed an old war chant against the chair’s arm, steadying her.
The Master spoke aloud at last, freeing her from his gaze. Raw emotion yet knifed her; sweat trickled down her exhausted body. The avalanche of pain pushed her beyond fear at last. Poised, graceful balance returned as she relaxed into the chair. Defiant, rejecting helplessness, Jhira’s battered fingers curled around the Master’s unfinished drink.
He spoke of the Light, in terms that made sense to her, even if she despised the hollow emptiness of it. Death was never to be rejoiced in. The joys of life were not to be feared; the people that give life meaning were to be cherished, not rejected. Lifting the Master’s drink to her lips, she moistened a mouth gone bitterly dry. The Darth Lord listed what the Light feared, and she attended to the order he revealed them in:
wealth, conquest, ownership — companionship.
Jhira could never live so; she loved as furiously as she hated. Her drumming hand went still, a single, high call echoing through her memory, an image frozen in time.
A brush of power lifted the Master’s Light Saber free of his robes and broke it into a halo of indecipherable parts, only to reveal the cold, dark gem within. Cruel and passionless as the Jedi, or so it appeared. Cold, so cold. Heartless. She shook her head, baffled, when he listed the desires of the Dark:
Life, death, passion, emotion, hatred, rage — jealousy. There was none of that in him, none that she could sense. Emotions turned to weapons. Power as absolution? Being guided but not ruled by the passions. How the Light could not abide the Dark’s war on death?
The Darth Lord’s war on death?
Another sip, and Jhira’s voice, strained and breathless, whispered free.
“But not love?” Passion, companionship, ownership, even fearing the loss of a companion were acceptable. But he never spoke of love. The evolution of selfishness to over indulgence to half-crazed made sense to her, especially in light of what happen at Rhand.
And Mandalore.
Csilla.
Too many Sith who’d been driven mad by the lust for power and the constant seeking for experience and the lesser emotions, whilst still denying themselves the greater. The crystal swept towards her, mirror bright facets sending lured crimson visions dancing across her mind’s eye, terrible and great. Eyes drifted closed, but the visions yet remained, like the scars upon her soul.
Tell me, young Jhira: which do you believe is most just in its followings?
Another sip of her wine, and she pressed back in her chair, curling her legs beneath her. A languid gesture of the cup saluted his acumen in questions answered and asked.
“Not with the MAW; they are all mad, by those standards.” a smile flared, since they clearly were mad by hers, as well.
“Nor with the soulless Light, cutting out of its wielders the very things that would make them trustworthy custodians of power.”
Breath frosted over the glass as she rolled it between her palms.
“So close; the Dark is so close, but it turns you on the ones you love, like Death Watch.” She gestured between Master and Apprentice.
“There is trust, here; trust and respect and maybe even affection. And yet you both have sworn your honor to turning upon each other someday.” a baffled shake of her head.
“Strength. It always comes down to that.”
“Are you sure defining it so narrowly is necessary?”