He doesn't even know the name of his own ship? That's surprising. And to think it's a borrowed ship, like he said himself—I would've thought he'd know its components. Just goes to show that even a dark lord can't be good at everything. Honestly, that's kind of reassuring. At least there's one thing I'm better at than him: piloting. But, then again, that's a bit of a downside, because piloting is my expertise, not his.
And then he mentions that he likes to annoy his superiors. I wonder, if I were a Sith, what kind would I be? Would I be the irritating type, always pushing limits, or the type that sucks up to those above me? I honestly have no idea.
I watch him sit down and start meditating calmly during the trip. Am I going to have to meditate too? Ugh, staying still for more than five minutes is torture. My anger flares up inside me as I think about that nightmare that keeps haunting me. Maybe it could be a good catalyst for my power, though, something to focus on, something to fuel me.
"Yeah, just one question—don't mean to push my luck—but how's this training supposed to go over the next few days?"
That's the only question that really matters, because anything could happen between now and then. If I'm going to die, at least I want to die on my own terms. And if I'm supposed to fight with skills I don't even have yet, well, that's going to be interesting. I just hope my instructors know what they're doing, because honestly? I feel like a lost cause.
And that thought gnaws at me, stirring something dark and bitter. I want this power so badly—so much that it scares me. But at the same time, a part of me doubts I'm cut out for it. What if I'm not disciplined enough? What if I'm not strong enough? I've never been able to sit with myself in silence, let alone find some kind of inner balance. Yet here I am, on the brink of being thrown into a world where failure could mean my end. I can feel the frustration growing, like a fire under my skin, tightening around my doubts and feeding them. If there's one thing I can rely on, it's that raw, festering anger, a force that's kept me going this far.
I might be a hopeless case to some, but I'll take whatever I have and make it my weapon. I look out the porthole at the stars passing by at full speed, I find it hard to believe that we are going to Korriban, the sith academy.
Darth Nexion