"I suppose it's all about the perceptions of others whether you live up to or fail the reputation that follows you," she replied, even as one of the masks turned its full gaze upon her. She didn't shrink away from the observation of it and the shadows that whispered around it. She had been on the receiving end of such scrutiny before, but that had been the collective gazes of the old Jedi Council. Many of those beings were gone or retired, but back then, as she began her grand deception and Corvus brought her before the Council for judgment, they had examined her in the Force thoroughly.
This... this was nothing new to the Lady of Secrets. She ignored both the praise and the derision offered her by two of the other voices, as both could be distractions of another type. And the question it asked, the price it requested for continued truth, was such a complicated question.
"That's a rather long story," Taeli said slowly, gauging her words carefully. "And not as simple a matter as one might believe when the question is ever asked. But if you want the tale..."
She trailed off, a lazy gesture of the Force conjuring a tea cup from green mist.
"During the height of the One Sith, after I was so graciously promoted to Lady, I returned to my homeworld of Lorrd to see my parents. Suffice to say, that meeting did not go well and they were killed. Back then, I was a slave to my emotions. My Master had not sufficiently trained me in such matters, and when they rejected me, my powers lashed out and destroyed the house. In the wreckage I discovered a locket that revealed the truth; I was adopted and that I had another family waiting for me. Imagine the one two gut punch when I discovered they had been murdered by a bounty hunter that was hunting my sister, Corvus, one of the Masters in the Jedi Order. Only our youngest sister, Melori, survived the attack. I was able to contact Corvus and we forged a connection."
She took a sip of her conjured tea.
"She wanted to pull me over to the light, but I wanted the opposite. Both Melori and I were Sith, and I wanted the entire family to be within the dark, but we had some adventures to further our sisterly bond, away from the war and the cycle of light and darkness. I saw... an opportunity however. I revealed my plan to the Eye of the Dark Lord, Darth Isolda, and his Wrath, Reverance. I would pretend to repent the dark side, conceal my true nature, and infiltrate the Jedi to observe the Order and slowly corrupt it from within.
"I created a new version of the false light side aura spell, anchored it within the tattoos that the One Sith gave me upon becoming a Sith Knight, and met my sister. She met me with open arms, could feel the light within me, and took me before the Jedi Council. They only saw a Sith wanting redemption, a woman that had turned her back on the dark side. They did not sense what I truly was, and they never suspected even as the Republic and One Sith waned, and the Galactic Alliance rose. The collapse of the One Sith meant that those who knew my plan were no longer in power, but I kept my observations, assisted the Jedi in their crusade as the Order joined with those helping Omai Rhen. We defeated the One Sith, shattered their power, and I was a respected Master in the Order. I was perfectly positioned until one day... Corvus and Melori both vanished."
Even now, after all these years, the hurt from that day still lingered in her soul. It gave her power, gave her focus. It would always be a reminder of why the Jedi were no better than the Sith, worse even perhaps.
"Corvus had been a Grandmaster of the Republic Jedi, had served unflinchingly, ever loyal to the mission of the Jedi. She was such a pure light for the Order to follow, a teacher to many students... and they didn't even give her a memorial. Just an acknowledgement at the next Council meeting and then it was onto the next order of business. I was livid, and I'll perfectly admit this was petty of me, I wanted to see the New Jedi Order shattered as I was. I knew I could not do this alone however. I had turned some, taught them how to conceal their true natures from our fellows, but it would take more time. I needed manpower, I needed a partner in this endeavor, but at the time, many Sith could not muster what I needed. But one could..."
She remembered that moment. When she had served in the One Sith, she had not wanted to associate with Kaine Zambrano. She had viewed him no better than a brute, accomplished warrior and powerful Sith though he was. But he had an army, he had connections that she still hadn't fully built herself. Aurora Industries was still growing into what it was and her Order of Shadows was small, working on a few projects to harry the Alliance.
"Kaine had retreated to Panatha when the One Sith fell, and he took much with him. Armies, ships, artifacts, information, all of it taken as he quietly rebuilt in the safety of the First Order. I arranged a meeting with him on a neutral world, revealed my secret as he had believed me a traitor, and we agreed to work together to bring down the New Jedi Order and the Alliance. Almost a decade of scheming, of suborning Jedi and military officers and politicians, while Kaine and other Sith reformed in the Tingle Arm a new empire. Everything culminated in Operation Eclipse, the time when we broke the Alliance and the Jedi, turned them upon themselves."
She set her tea cup down, empty now.
"When the dust settled, many of the followers I brought over came with me to the Sith Empire, where I was given plaudits and took a rightful high position on the Dark Council for my efforts. And ambitious as I was, I kept myself in check as I knew I could not challenge the Zambranos outright for the throne as their power base was still greater than mine, nor did I have the desire at the time to do so. I wanted time to work on my experiments, to study the dark side and the greater mysteries of the Force. I wanted to rebuild my family line, strengthen my power base, and grow my influence. I am in Kaine's inner circle, privy to plans many others don't know even exist or that are moving in the shadows even now."
Taeli banished the empty tea cup away just as she had summoned it.
"That is why I have remained an ally of Kaine's for so long... but the ambition never goes away."
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