Grief & Rage
She stood under the shower. A hot shower. This should feel nice, calm, soothing after all she had endured. Yet, she found no joy. Steam swirled as she heavily breathed out, resting her forehead against the cold, durasteel wall. She reached up with a four digit hand and wiped a small amount of steam and water off the wall, revealing the blurred reflection of her face against the smudged metal. She breathed again. More steam. Two amber eyes, unfamiliar and foreign stared back at her.
"So I'm back here again."
Her voice was far from weak or somber. If there was grief, it was hardened in bitterness and rage.
"I'm back here again. I'm alone again." She breathed. More steam swirled around her as she leaned against the wall, unable to support herself. "But never again."
As water slipped down the wall, starting to cover her face in the steel mirror again, she narrowed those unfamiliar eyes she would claim as her own, "I am Mando'ade. I have a duty. No Sith, no exceptions."
She still felt the phantom limb, water dripping down its non-existant mass. "I will protect everything I have left. I will learn whatever skill, knowledge, and power is needed to protect my loved ones. No weakness, no exceptions."
She hissed, seething as her eyes were hidden from her sight, water droplets covering it and steam whirling. She was a monster now, and her own flesh and blood was the blame for it. "If I was born for misery, I will drag the rest of the galaxy down with me. If my father saw me as an abomination, that is what I'll be. Kark morality, I don't care. I only care for my own. I'll be selfish. No mercy, no exceptions."
F O U R - M O N T H S - E A R L I E R
The loud hum of the floating bed gave her a headache. Blinding white light practically blinded her. She could seldom make out any shapes at all. Mechanical beeping blared. Voices were nothing but random gibberish to her. She struggled to keep her eyes open as the bed she was chained to moved down the hallway, guarded and secure.
Where?...
Eventually the bed jostled, announcing her stop. The sound of a door hissing open was far away from her perception. They went through the doorway, into a larger room. The lights still blinded her. Oh, this headache. A robed man stood in front of her. He scoffed. That voice was... familiar...
His voice was familiar, but she was unable to decipher the words. The tone was belittling and spiteful, and it made her shiver. The bed began to move again, and she was bewildered.
Where am I? How did I get here? Why did that man sound like my father? Where's Kranak? Eliz? What...
The questions kept rolling on and on in her mind as she faded into unconsciousness.
She opened her eyes.
She winced at the light pounding into her eyes, shutting her eyelids once more. She moaned before slowly opening her eyes again, looking up to many lamps, medical equipment, and other strange objects crowding her, looming over her. She tried to move her head from a needle that was making her claustrophobic, but she realized her head was bound as well. The metal cuffs and bands clung to her, squeezing her against the table. Wherever her eyes darted, only more equipment and lights. She started panting, breaking out into a cold sweat.
"Ah, you are finally awake."
No... No. That-that could not be...
Father?
"Greetings, Gwyneira. Welcome to my workplace."
Her eyes fluttered towards the direction of the voice. She could faintly see the tall Arkanian through her peripheral vision.
"After all this time, I finally found you," He paused for a moment before bitterly muttering, "My greatest mistake."
That stung. Gwyn had been called worse by her father, but this still stung. She closed her eyes, heart beating rapidly in her chest. He continued to speak, "I finally got to it, half breed. I finally am doing what I should have done all along. I am fixing the errors and cleaning the mistakes. You, girl, will suffer immeasurably before you finally die. Just as you deserve."
Panic was causing her to shake, panting. What was going to happen to her? What did he have planned? After everything she had been through, had she suffered enough? Apparently not, as his footsteps echoed around the room as he walked around the equipment. "First off, I will need to collect your tainted DNA."
She opened her eyes, trying to look around for what was happening. Alas, chained to the table, she only could hear him tapping some buttons on a machine, "Your leg will do nicely."
The sound of a buzzsaw being tested was terrible, but the wind just above her ankle was even worse. Tears flooded her eyes as he spoke.
"No anesthetics. You will feel everything, Gwyneira Craft."
S H A T T E R I N G
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