S O V E R E I G N
Why was my body reacting much to the same capacity as a humans? My body shook out of nervousness, almost fear of what was going on. I still had no control over my body and its... abilities. I knew some of what I could do. Having a body that could fight on it's own and fight well. During the... accident, I had killed men easily without any problems. So why was it so difficult for me to simply fire a pistol at a target?
Holding the blaster pistol on the indoor range, I held it out and was attempting to fire it, but could not. Pressing myself in my mind. Almost talking to myself as though I had to go through a process.
"Safety off, Aim cross hairs on center mass. Hold steady with both hands. Squeeze palms to resist movement. Left elbow down, right elbow locked. I can do this. Just pull the trigger Aleph. Just slowly squeeze down with the index finger..."
I couldn't do it. I growled at myself and slammed the blaster down onto the table and forced myself to sit down on the bench behind me. The man down two lanes looked at me then looked at the target. Seeing I hadn't even fired a single shot. Going back to what he was doing, he didn't care all that much before he packed up his stuff and started to leave.
I was angry at myself. Zombies? Fought them with everything I had. Humans who were attacking me? killed them with ease. Police upon Courscant? Ended them faster than they could blink. Shooting at a stationary target, I was a coward. I didn't feel right. I felt as though the gun shouldn't be used and that I was using it wrong. But programming that was still in my head, told me otherwise. Looking over to the side, I saw that a few rifles were hanging up on the side. Maybe it was just because I was using a pistol?
Reaching over to grab one, A standard rifle used by the security forces here on Dohmus Prime, I took aim. Holding tight on the stock and folded my elbow under the stock to align it with my shoulder and form. Taking aim over the top of the ironsights, I was about to pull the trigger once more, but the sight of the target caught me. Growing once more, I let it hang at my side in my right hand and just stood there. Palming my face with a left hand.
"What is with me today?"
[member="Dayne Inck'ha"],
Holding the blaster pistol on the indoor range, I held it out and was attempting to fire it, but could not. Pressing myself in my mind. Almost talking to myself as though I had to go through a process.
"Safety off, Aim cross hairs on center mass. Hold steady with both hands. Squeeze palms to resist movement. Left elbow down, right elbow locked. I can do this. Just pull the trigger Aleph. Just slowly squeeze down with the index finger..."
I couldn't do it. I growled at myself and slammed the blaster down onto the table and forced myself to sit down on the bench behind me. The man down two lanes looked at me then looked at the target. Seeing I hadn't even fired a single shot. Going back to what he was doing, he didn't care all that much before he packed up his stuff and started to leave.
I was angry at myself. Zombies? Fought them with everything I had. Humans who were attacking me? killed them with ease. Police upon Courscant? Ended them faster than they could blink. Shooting at a stationary target, I was a coward. I didn't feel right. I felt as though the gun shouldn't be used and that I was using it wrong. But programming that was still in my head, told me otherwise. Looking over to the side, I saw that a few rifles were hanging up on the side. Maybe it was just because I was using a pistol?
Reaching over to grab one, A standard rifle used by the security forces here on Dohmus Prime, I took aim. Holding tight on the stock and folded my elbow under the stock to align it with my shoulder and form. Taking aim over the top of the ironsights, I was about to pull the trigger once more, but the sight of the target caught me. Growing once more, I let it hang at my side in my right hand and just stood there. Palming my face with a left hand.
"What is with me today?"
[member="Dayne Inck'ha"],