Nevertheless, She Persisted
Outfit: Clothing |
Right Arm |
Glove
Weapons: Lightsaber
"No amount of planning survives first contact with the opposition, Azzie."
Those words repeated through Azurine's mind, shifting to how she'd heard it said before by Raeth once a long time ago. Back when they continued to fight the first Empire and their loss ratio was so much greater than their sucess. Losing was something she was used to, given how most of her life had been one form of war or another. This just felt ... different. As if her heart took the blow of it harder here than with the others.
Maybe it was the amount of pure dark strength that she had never seen before all concentrated in one place. Maybe it was the fact that she was trying to prove —not just to others, but to herself as well— that she wasn't just a lost ancient relic brought into a time she had no business in. Or a combination of both. She wanted to prove that Master
Valery Noble
was right in her decision to take her as a student, and maybe someday she might be able to follow those footsteps to the council.
"You didn't fail. None of you did. Caltin told me about how bravely you fought, able to keep up with the likes of him.
You mustn't equate military defeat to personal failure, Azzie. It's not your fault."
A small spark of realization moved through her eyes as he spoke and gently wiped her face. She had never had the luxury of getting to hold dreams like that in the rebellion. Her only goal then was to be as much of fire under the bums of the Empire as she absolutely could be, to bring hope to a suffocated galaxy or die trying. Now, though, even with the remnants of the Empire seemingly taking the victory, there was a fire that she could hold onto, which allowed her to think further than just the next battle.
"I just want to help lead people to hope. I ... I want to be the Grandmaster someday ... " she spoke the words outloud, as if saying them would make it easier for her to believe that she could have a goal like that now. She turned her gaze to Thurion, the amethyst color of her eyes shifting with lavanders and deep royal blues with her confusing thoughts attempting to tell her that she wasn't good enough for something like that or that she'd never be a leader worth following.
Before she had the chance to think herself further into a spiraled loop, she was being unhooked from different machines. Her expression quickly changed from confusion to amusement, finding herself laughing even. She would have attempted to get up herself, but she was already being moved. It felt a bit rebellious to be doing this. No doubt one of the nurses would lose their mind for it, and that alone seemed to bring that spitfire light back into her aura.
Though the table definitely looked delicious in a way, she couldn't stop herself from laughing even harder. The Zabrak people were primarily carnivores. It was ironic to her in the most hilarious of ways, but the gesture was so incredibly kind. She could barely even pick up on the sweet smell of the different treats. She could smell which had been cooked in animal fat because that was a smell adapted to be the most appealing for them.
Of everything there, she had to hedge her bets on the fried dessert that was covered in a powdered sugar and fruit glaze of some kind based off of her nose.
"That one there, I think it's called a beignet?" One of those probably wouldn't hurt, maybe make her a little constipated if she had too many, but nothing major.
"It's too bad ice cream doesn't sit well with my stomach, I guess," she did her best to crack a joke, happy to be in a situation that she could.