Ship: The Red Night
Weapons: Training Saber
Tag:
Katarine Ryiah
Advanced techniques like this were beyond him. Hell, many basic techniques were beyond him. Gatz didn't think trying would result in anything, but what was the point of being a Padawan learner if he wasn't willing to
learn? Even if he failed, wasn't failure supposed to be the best teacher? Not in his experience, perhaps. But maybe things were different now.
Besides, centering himself in Force and allowing it to flow through him was something he could definitely do.
"Any wise Jedi proverbs before I give this a go?" Gatz asked, as he leaned down near the chalk outline,
"like 'do or do not,' or some other mystic witticism?"
Ah jokes. The telltale sign that he was uncomfortable or scared. And in a way he was both: uncomfortable in letting this Jedi Master he didn't know witness his upcoming failure, and scared that she'd realize he wasn't worth the time. How funny. Twenty-five years old, and he was still afraid of falling through the cracks of the Order. Just like when he'd been a kid.
Gatz lowered his hand to the ground, and closed his eyes. He banished that fear, and it coiled back up in his heart where it always slept. He reached out for the Force, teeming on a planet as populated as Coruscant, drowning him in a tidal wave of energy that he could neither avoid nor swim with. So, instead, he allowed himself to be pulled along with it. Away from the loud city noises, and the polluted smells. Away from the warm encouragement of Master Ryiah and the cold durasteel ground.
A breath was sucked in, and exhaled.
And Gatz
listened.
There was a whisper on the edge of his hearing, nothing more. There was no sight, nor touch, nor smell, nor taste. Nothing but the void, echoing with a sound he could barely make out. Faint words, broken up, making the sentences being spoken indecipherable. Until one—just one—wasn't.
"—back to Doctor T'suro at the clinic."
And then Gatz belted out a gasp. His legs gave out, and he went from kneeling on the ground to sprawled out on his ass. Tremors ran through his body, weakened from the effort, despite how small it was. Gatz was exhausted... but accomplished. For the first time since rejoining the Order, he'd actually managed to succeed in something that wasn't sparring with other students.