Private The Dreams in My Head are His

[Loomi]

The Dreams in My Head are His
Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

Loomi hadn't been getting much sleep again. She had been having bad dreams, nightmares even. They weren't the same as her usual ones, however, the ones about the scary people from her past life. No, these were a different kind of deal entirely. These dreams belonged to Braze Kai'el , or at least she was pretty sure they did. As they spent more time together, the Godoan felt their thoughts and emotions intertwining more and more. On the one hand it was a comforting presence. Loomi had always felt so alone in her life, and here was a connection unlike anything she had ever experienced. Unfortunately this came with everything else as well. She struggled to handle her own dreams at times. How was she supposed to take on someone elses?

She didn't want to sever the connection. Instead Loomi saught a solution. Valery Noble seemed a good source of wisdom on the matter, what with how smart and strong and cool she was. Or maybe Loomi just really liked her. She was very good at giving reassuring council, as the discovery of her mother she could never meet was a clear indicator of. Maybe she just wanted someone to tell her that everything was okay.

The Godoan needed that every now and again.

So she made her way to the room of the Sword of the Jedi within the Temple, knocking on the door first meekly, but then with some energy. She wanted to make sure that she was heard.

"Miss Valery... Master Noble... Ma'am?" she stammered, her lip curling as she cringed at herself. That was a bad start. "A-are you here?"

A part of her hoped that she wasn't. A do-over of that could be nice. She was terrible with titles.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Outfit: Epicanthix Outfit | Wedding Ring
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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

After a long training session, Valery had gone up to her own room to take a shower and relax. It was a rarity for her these days, especially with the war picking up, so it was something she could enjoy a lot. Currently, she was sitting on top of a comfortable meditation seat, her legs folded and her hair loose and still a little wet, rather than tied up into its usual ponytail. An unusual sight for everybody but her husband, but nobody was going to see-

Knock, knock, knock.

Valery blinked and opened her eyes — she had been drawn inwards so much, that she hadn't even felt Loomi approaching. But the Godoan's presence was one she always instantly recognized, and her voice was quite clear to her as well. Quickly, Valery got up from her seat and walked over to the door to open up.

She didn't really look like Master Noble right now, but it likely wouldn't bother Loomi.

"Hey, Loomi," Valery said with a warm, welcoming smile as soon as she opened the door. "How are you doing?"

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

Loomi blinked, staring for a moment as Valery opened the door. She had never seen Master Noble in anything other than her regular jumsuit atire, so it was a bit of a confusing sight. The dress was very pretty. The Jedi Master's warm smile drew the Godoan's scattered attention away from her clothes and back into the moment.

"I-I'm okay," Loomi stated, biving a respectful bow. "I just... have a question. Kind of a weird one, a-and I didn't really know who else to go to."

Suddenly she got the sense that maybe what she was asking was abnormal. Everything she had found on empathic powers, which she had been developing, seemed to not be in line with what was happening between her and Braze. Something was clearly wrong, right?

"So... I've been having dreams lately," she explained, rubbing at her shoulder. "They're... nightmares, I think. Th-that isn't the weird part. It's..."

She frowned, looking up to Valery with some concern in her expression.

"They're not my dreams," the padawan concluded. "Does... that make sense?"

Loomi very much hoped that it did.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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"Ask away," Valery said, relieved to hear that she was at least doing okay. Last time Loomi came knocking on her apartment door, she came inside crying and really needed some comfort. This time, it seemed serious but felt more manageable. Though, as soon as Loomi mentioned shared nightmares, she already had a strange feeling what this was about. The only way that could happen was Force-bonds.

But it had to be quite a strong one.

"I see," Valery began before she pushed the door open a little further, "Come sit down inside. We'll talk about it more over some tea, alright? I know this might be a little scary or strange, but I can assure you already, there's nothing to be worried about. I'll explain it all." She smiled warmly, hoping that early reassurance would make this conversation a lot less stressful.

"First, can you tell me when this started? Very recently or before you and Braze got to know each other pretty well?"

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"First, can you tell me when this started? Very recently or before you and Braze got to know each other pretty well?"

"How... did you know it was Braze?" Loomi reacted.

Was it obvious? Well, they were at least pretty close given the amount of time they spent together. Maybe that was the basis for what Master Noble was going off of. That made sense, sort of. Loomi took a moment to think, her antennae curling back as she tried to stitch together a timeline in her head. She hadn't really experienced anything like this at all before she had met Braze.

"I-I think it started after I met him, kinda," she explained. "There was a moment when we were helping the Ashlans escape the Sith..." That seemed like forever ago now. "I could feel his thoughts, and he could feel mine. It wasn't a lot then, but it's been... changing."

She had said that there was nothing to be worried about, but Loomi struggled to keep from feeling worried. It seemed like a strange thing to be going through, but she couldn't really think of any reason to be worried asside from the dream-sharing. Maybe she was just an easily worried person. The Godoan squirmed in her seat trying to get comfortable, but she couldn't quite find a good spot. In reality she was really just tense, but it wasn't something she could observe in a self-aware manner just yet.

"Wh-what's happening?" the padawan asked.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

"I have my ways," Valery said with an intentionally mysterious tone, not to make things more tense, but to lighten up the mood a little. Because even as Loomi explained the situation in more detail, Valery kept her smile and stayed relaxed. At no point, did she want to create the illusion that this was something to be worried about. On the contrary — Force Bonds were a strength to her, as long as they were managed well.

"First things first, breathe and relax — nothing bad is happening," Valery said in an attempt to reassure her. She had noticed how tense Loomi seemed in her seat, and wanted to relief some of that.

"I believe what you're experiencing is a Force Bond, though a stronger one than the usual. They can allow us to feel each other's emotions, or even each other's presence across the stars. But some bonds are known to be much more than that," Valery explained with that same smile.

"My husband and I can communicate without trying, feel each other's emotions and read each other thoughts in an instant, no matter the distance. We're bonded through time and space, in what's called a Dyad, and can even swap places or teleport to each other wherever we are."

"Perhaps something like it is the case with you as well, but it's hard to say what exactly the bond is like. They take time to develop."

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

Dyad?

That was a word that Loomi had never heard before. So it was a stronger force bond. Well, clearly it was if the Master Nobles were using it to teleport and swap places and all through space and time or whatever. The only real question was why her? Braze made sense. He was an up-and-comming star. Things came naturally to him, he comminted himself to rigerous training, and he was a student of a councilmember. Loomi wasn't really any of that at all. She was just... her.

"Why do they happen?" Loomi asked. "I-It could've just been a normal force bond, right? What makes this... different."

She frowned, her antennae curling back nervously.

"What if Braze doesn't want to be in a dyad with me?" she muttered.

Loomi knew that the way Braze felt in regards to her were genuine. She could feel it, of course. The Godoan just couldn't move past her own fears of being left behind, slipping back into the terror of her old life. It seemed like anyone could leave her...

Even if that wasn't really true at all.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Outfit: Epicanthix Outfit | Wedding Ring
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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

"Well, they don't form for a specific reason, though you could call it the will of the Force," Valery said with a chuckle. "Whether it's a Dyad or not remains to be seen — my husband and I only found out after a while, as more strange things started happening. But what you described are some good, early signs of one." They were still incredibly rare, so she couldn't be sure until there were signs of them practically being one in the Force.

For Valery and Kahlil, it became clear after they had teleported on accident when they traveled to Thule for the first time to deal with his old labs.

"As for Braze... well, it's not really a choice. There are methods to sever bonds, but I'm not sure if that's possible when it concerns a Dyad," Valery explained. "Force Bonds usually form between people who are close to each other. A Master and Padawan, a husband and wife, or even just close friends."

"A Dyad can even form between enemies."

 

[Loomi]

Courscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"A Dyad can even form between enemies."

That was a strange thing indeed. How could someone become connected to their enemy? It didn't make sense. That seemed like a very drastic jump from husband and wife, which Valery and Kahlil were. Could you share a bond with someone you were diametrically opposed to?

"I-I'm scared," she admitted, tucking her head and scrunching up her shoulders. "I don't want to hurt him, b-but it seems like our thoughs and dreams are slowly starting to mix more. I have some memories that..."

She couldn't finish her thought. Her physical form was enough to make it clear what her implication was.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

"It will have its difficulties," Valery admitted, not to scare Loomi but to be open and honest. It wouldn't help her at all if she didn't tell the truth, so that also meant confronting the hard parts. "A Dyad or even just a close Force-bond links people together in ways that aren't really normal to most. It starts with emotions, dreams, memories. But they can get quite intense," Valery explained while she placed a hand atop Loomi's shoulder.

"But you two aren't enemies, so it's a lot more bearable. It's important that you communicate with Braze about it, and that you two offer each other help and comfort with it all." That's why it never really bothered Valery too much. When something happened to either her or her husband, they were there for each other.

"That said, if you ever run into trouble, contact me or my husband. We'll help you, alright?"

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"That said, if you ever run into trouble, contact me or my husband. We'll help you, alright?"

"Th-thank you," Loomi nodded. "I... I really appreciate that."

She managed a smile, sitting a little more comfortably in her seat now. Things would be scarry, but maybe that was okay. Loomi wasn't alone anymore. There were people with her now, people who could guide and help her through her struggles. Things would work out. She hoped that they would work out.

"What was it like?" she asked. "When you met Master Kahlil?"

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Tag: Loomi

Seeing Loomi smile and relax a little was good — it meant that she accepted what had been said, and that she'd be willing to seek out help when other new things popped up. The shared dreams and emotions were only the beginning, and had likely only really happened at night. But soon enough, it was going to start happening in broad daylight as well, in ways that could be highly distracting if not controlled at all.

Sometimes, it felt like a miracle that it hadn't ever caused her and Kahlil issues early on.

"Well, when we met, there wasn't really a Dyad yet. Technically it formed immediately, but it took a while before we noticed. We bonded the same way others might do, just... a little more romantically." She chuckled at the thought, and decided not to elaborate too much there.

"He helped me through the most difficult time in my life at that point, even though we had only just met. So it was safe to say I fell in love quickly, and I still believe that we were meant to meet each other, and that our special bond has something to do with it all. But maybe that's just the hopeless romantic in me."

"Either way, I've met my soulmate and bonded to him in ways I couldn't have ever imagined before. It's a beautiful thing, really, and I think it can be the same for you and Braze."

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"Either way, I've met my soulmate and bonded to him in ways I couldn't have ever imagined before. It's a beautiful thing, really, and I think it can be the same for you and Braze."

Loomi's face went red at that remark. She very much did feel something in regards to Braze. What exactly, however, remained unclear to her. The idea of deeper bonds like what Valery and Kahlil shared, well beyond whatever dyad they had formed, was simply something she didn't understand. It had never been taught to her before. Her cold, isolated youth had left her little room to learn about things like love. Alicio Organa and Minerva Fhirdiad had spoken about such things as well when she had spoken with them. It was all... strange.

Alien.

"What... does love feel like, exactly?" the Godoan asked out of the blue. "L-Like, that kind I mean. I didn't learn a lot of... social things when I was younger. I've been trying to figure out what it is, but I can't seem to wrap my head around it all."

She frowned, tucking her hands between her legs as she awkwardly leaned forward.

"I've been feeling a lot of things lately," she added. "I just can't seem to make heads or tails about them."

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Outfit: Epicanthix Outfit | Wedding Ring
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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

"That's very normal," Valery was quick to point out when Loomi mentioned that she had been feelings things she didn't quite understand. "We all go through this time in our life when we start experiencing things we don't fully understand, and love or affection can be one of the stronger ones," she explained with a smile while she thought about her own love life, and how it had only really began after meeting Kahlil.

"Love is something that can feel quite different to a lot of people, but it generally means that you care far more about this particular person than anybody else. You want to be with them as much as you can, you care for them and about how they feel about certain things."

"To me, it meant that I wanted to spend my life being with my husband. I wanted him to be the father of my children, so there was a trust between us that just doesn't compare to anything else. I trust him with more than my life."

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

Master Noble's words were genuine. That was comforting. It didn't fully help Loomi wrap her mind around it all, but it pointed her in the right direction. Maybe she had felt things like this before, just not as clearly as Valery described it. Of course, even with that wisdom, there was still a pit of doubt in Loomi's chest.

"I... don't know if I'm ready for that stuff," she admitted, hanging her head. "I'm scared..."

She sighed as she looked back up to the Master, a conflicted look in her eye. There was a pengilum swinging in her head, unsure of what she was afraid of more. Loomi only ever knew a world that hurt her, yet simultaniously she knew the damage that she was capable of herself. It was like two forces were pulling at either arm, trying to tear her one way or the other. The Godoan didn't know what was worse: Being hurt again or hurting someone else.

"Golly, I don't know," Loomi sighed. "E-Everything is so confusing. I should be happy, right? Everyone here has been so kind and helpful... but I can't get all of those other things out of my head."

A more serious expression spread across her face.

"He can feel them too now," the teen noted in regards to her developing bond. "I don't want to scare him."

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
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Valery quietly listened to her concerns, and dipped her head again once she finished speaking, "It's completely okay to not be ready for it. Some people dive into relationships, love and deep bonds early on, and others need more time. I was 30 years old when I met Kahlil and really fell in love for the first time in my life." Sure, she had crushes and feelings for people before, and it was Jedi tradition that hadn't allowed her to pursue anything.

But none of those sparks compared at all to what she felt for Kahlil.

"As for Braze, I don't think you'll scare him. But the fact that he feels the same things you're feeling just means you have someone you can always talk to. Someone who always understands, even if you might struggle to understand something yourself. So, my advice is to be open with him, and to seek out help from myself or others you trust when it does get overwhelming." Valery reached out to place a gentle hand atop Loomi's shoulder.

"We're always in it together."

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"We're always in it together."

"Yeah," Loomi nodded, giving a weary smile.

She wasn't alone anymore. Things were different now. Loomi had a network of support, friends who cared about her well-being just as much as she cared about them. It was refreshing to have that reminder, something to pull the Godoan out of her old way of thinking. She was living a different life in a different world. Maybe her past lingered in her mind, somewhere repressed and lost, but the new life she lived was just as real if not more so.

That was a reassuring thought to her.

"Thank you," the girl finally stated, dipping her head respectfully. "I think this conversation helped a lot."

A more joyous expression came to the young Jedi's face, her eye lighting up.

"Next time we meet we should do something fun," Loomi insisted. "I'll bet you need to get away from stuff too. You're always doing something responsible and all that."

Valery was her friend now too. She wanted to be able to spend time with the Jedi Master that wasn't just asking for advice about her problems. And besides, everyone needed to unwind once and a while, right?

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

Seeing Loomi's expression brighten up made her heart melt.

The best part about helping other people, was to actually see and feel change in them. Even if it was just a little bit of help, bringing a smile to someone's face just made her day. "That sounds like a wonderful idea," Valery then said at the offer to do something fun next time. She did spend a lot of her time handling important responsibilities, and while some of those were fun, some time off was always welcomed.

"Is there anything you'd really like to do?" she asked, hoping that Loomi would share some of her interests. Valery's private life revolved mostly around her family, and she wasn't going to put any pressure on the Godoan to meet some really chaotic little children for fun.

Even if most Jedi seemed to really like the kids.

 

[Loomi]

Coruscant, Jedi Temple
Tags: Valery Noble

"Is there anything you'd really like to do?"

"I like learning," she noted. "I guess that's kind of... 'bookwormy' is I think what they call it. I like doing new things, and meeting new people. It's like a collection of little adventures, the nice kind that don't get you beat up."

She had been on a few of the kinds that did get her beat up too, but in those cases she was usually more concerned about the safety of her friends than anything else. It was nice to do small things. They added up, ultimately, and a collection of small things made up Loomi's formative memory at the moment.

"So I'd like to learn what you like to do," Loomi decided. "I don't know a lot of things anyways, so maybe I'll find something new that I like too."

It made perfect sense to her.

 

[Valery Noble]

Coruscant Temple

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Outfit: Epicanthix Outfit | Wedding Ring
Appearance: Link
Weapons: Blasters | Lightsaber
Tag: Loomi

The nice kind that don't get you beat up?

Valery just blinked at that little part and wondered just what kind of things she had gotten up to — she was too young and inexperienced to be getting herself into serious trouble. But, for now, she wasn't going to address it and bring the mood back down by forcing Loomi to tell about the less pleasant experiences.

"Well, I like a lot of things," Valery said with a chuckle. "When I'm feeling adventurous, I'll take my speeder bike out for a drive through the mountains, or sometimes just along a very uneventful path, but one with an amazing view. Other days, I just stay home and spend time with the little ones, or take them out to the park or to the beach." Very Mom things, she knew, but she loved those the most, really.

"So it depends, really. We can do something thrilling to get the adrenaline going, or something very relaxed."