Phantom Pains
Cadomai Prime | Some Unreasonable Hour of the Night | Your Typical Portside Divebar
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When the universe had been born, and whatever powers that were crafted each and every system, some being must've chosen to make so many worlds that would one day freeze over with ice and snow. The sights took one's breath away, majestic mountain ranges, pure white valleys, unfathomable formations of ice, glaciers so tall the breached the lower atmosphere. Whatever had seen fit to make those worlds must've had a vision for them, as an artist did for their work. Cale hoped whatever that being was, it was having an utterly horrible time.
From beneath the scarf he'd wrapped over his face, he exhaled, hot breath visible in the night air as he treaded over fresh fallen snow amidst a sea of faces all covered in some attempt to keep warm. He hadn't questioned what'd been in the containers he'd delivered into the hands of the Devaronian on the docks, so long as it wasn't slaves he'd long since stopped taking jobs with any care for his conscience. The galaxy would go on whether it was him who put weapons in the hands of malcontents or someone else, so he might as well have made some credits for it. He'd watched the galaxy go through once in a millennia changes nearly once a year since the time he was sixteen. Empires, Republics, and Alliances, he'd watched them rise and fall in less than a decade, and for a time he'd stood in their ranks, willingly or otherwise.
There was no point in it all though, anything one built would crumble in a short few years, and whoever replaced them would need to be made to understand him before they'd let him fight all over again. At first that had stopped him, and then it'd been the realization that none of it meant a thing. Any change with any substance to it, for good or evil, would be undone in a matter of years at absolute best. There was no point.
But harsh pink glow of a neon sign cast itself over him, the crowd, and the white of the snow, Cale knew he could wash galactic concerns from his mind. Nothing mattered when he was six shots deep in Corellian Whiskey, not even the force itself could find some way to bother him. He thumbed the access pad, and the door slid open. Stepping in Gunderson shook the snow from his boots and the heavy coat he wore over himself, and shut the door just as quickly.
Dozens of pairs of eyes darted to the door as he reached up and pulled the rough scarf down from the bridge of his nose then drew back the hood he'd worn over his head. Dark hair was still kept short, though it was an as untamed a mess as any, and his beard was rougher than most. His mind commanded he go for a stimstick, and light it quickly, but the hard look from the man tending the bar made it clear that if he meant to remain in the premises, he'd need to give him some kind of business. So he did.
Taking a lonely stool at the bar he gave the hulking Zabrak tending it a nod and lifed a single finger. "Corellian on the rocks, please." The formality felt out of place, but it was force of habit more than anything else.
"Credits up front, don't do no tabs here." The man grunted.
"That can't be great for business."
"Better than spacers like you running off without paying knowing you'll never be back to pay."
"Fair enough." He conceded, tossing the man a chit whilst he returned the courtesy by pouring out the drink over ice. Cale took it and began what he hoped to be an uneventful night of drinking. With any luck he'd be drunk for a few hours, and any unfortunate memories and heavy guilt would be gone from his life for a time. Then he'd drag himself back to the freighter he'd still yet to name, and go do the whole thing over again. A pitiful, meaningless existence, a far cry for once being a guardian of order, and enforcer of evil, or a simple pilot trying to find his redemption among the ranks those fighting for freedom.
But it was certainly safer, and survival more probable. If Tallia could see him now, and what he'd done after she'd helped him escape the gilded cage the Silver Jedi had intended to keep him in, he was sure she'd have regretted the choice. Perhaps he did too. But she wasn't here to see how far he'd fallen, only he was, and if he got himself drunk enough, he'd quit being so damn judgy for just a bit.
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When the universe had been born, and whatever powers that were crafted each and every system, some being must've chosen to make so many worlds that would one day freeze over with ice and snow. The sights took one's breath away, majestic mountain ranges, pure white valleys, unfathomable formations of ice, glaciers so tall the breached the lower atmosphere. Whatever had seen fit to make those worlds must've had a vision for them, as an artist did for their work. Cale hoped whatever that being was, it was having an utterly horrible time.
From beneath the scarf he'd wrapped over his face, he exhaled, hot breath visible in the night air as he treaded over fresh fallen snow amidst a sea of faces all covered in some attempt to keep warm. He hadn't questioned what'd been in the containers he'd delivered into the hands of the Devaronian on the docks, so long as it wasn't slaves he'd long since stopped taking jobs with any care for his conscience. The galaxy would go on whether it was him who put weapons in the hands of malcontents or someone else, so he might as well have made some credits for it. He'd watched the galaxy go through once in a millennia changes nearly once a year since the time he was sixteen. Empires, Republics, and Alliances, he'd watched them rise and fall in less than a decade, and for a time he'd stood in their ranks, willingly or otherwise.
There was no point in it all though, anything one built would crumble in a short few years, and whoever replaced them would need to be made to understand him before they'd let him fight all over again. At first that had stopped him, and then it'd been the realization that none of it meant a thing. Any change with any substance to it, for good or evil, would be undone in a matter of years at absolute best. There was no point.
But harsh pink glow of a neon sign cast itself over him, the crowd, and the white of the snow, Cale knew he could wash galactic concerns from his mind. Nothing mattered when he was six shots deep in Corellian Whiskey, not even the force itself could find some way to bother him. He thumbed the access pad, and the door slid open. Stepping in Gunderson shook the snow from his boots and the heavy coat he wore over himself, and shut the door just as quickly.
Dozens of pairs of eyes darted to the door as he reached up and pulled the rough scarf down from the bridge of his nose then drew back the hood he'd worn over his head. Dark hair was still kept short, though it was an as untamed a mess as any, and his beard was rougher than most. His mind commanded he go for a stimstick, and light it quickly, but the hard look from the man tending the bar made it clear that if he meant to remain in the premises, he'd need to give him some kind of business. So he did.
Taking a lonely stool at the bar he gave the hulking Zabrak tending it a nod and lifed a single finger. "Corellian on the rocks, please." The formality felt out of place, but it was force of habit more than anything else.
"Credits up front, don't do no tabs here." The man grunted.
"That can't be great for business."
"Better than spacers like you running off without paying knowing you'll never be back to pay."
"Fair enough." He conceded, tossing the man a chit whilst he returned the courtesy by pouring out the drink over ice. Cale took it and began what he hoped to be an uneventful night of drinking. With any luck he'd be drunk for a few hours, and any unfortunate memories and heavy guilt would be gone from his life for a time. Then he'd drag himself back to the freighter he'd still yet to name, and go do the whole thing over again. A pitiful, meaningless existence, a far cry for once being a guardian of order, and enforcer of evil, or a simple pilot trying to find his redemption among the ranks those fighting for freedom.
But it was certainly safer, and survival more probable. If Tallia could see him now, and what he'd done after she'd helped him escape the gilded cage the Silver Jedi had intended to keep him in, he was sure she'd have regretted the choice. Perhaps he did too. But she wasn't here to see how far he'd fallen, only he was, and if he got himself drunk enough, he'd quit being so damn judgy for just a bit.