Shiraya's Odyssey

The climb to Shiraya's Rest was steep.
She could have taken a speeder, or any other number of transport to reach her destination, even augment herself through the Force, to make this all easier, but Briana decided to embrace the climb. She didn't want easy today. She wanted to let herself feel the ache in her legs, feel the way her knees groaned and protested as she forced herself to stay upright, her dust-covered boots scuffing along the endlessly narrow and steep path that twisted like a carved serpent through the Gallo Mountains. The start of her self-imposed penance, manifesting in burning muscles and protesting joints.
With each push forward Briana's breath fell in more jagged, un-even pants, the thin mountain air clawing at her lungs with invisible talons.
In the stillness of it all, with nothing but wind and stone for company along the trek, her thoughts churned in an endless, unforgiving loop. Vulnerable against the lack of easy distractions to hide from the demons that came for her with teeth and claws and aimed straight for her throat.
Astor and his final words filtered in and out, along with the images of Romi and her final stand amidst the ruins of Coruscant. Little Zeriana was there among the ghosts, her and her dark curls and impossibly large eyes; her empty crib and the grief that consumed Lossa like a living nether beast following her every step. The helplessness in knowing there was no easy fix for any of it — the gut wrenching truth that her own flesh and blood was the cause of that pain.
It chaffed away at her pride.
There were prophecies and warnings she didn't yet fully understand, fractures, some of which she'd caused among her council members — mind lingering on the sharp words she'd barked at Lorn and Brandyn, and what ultimately brought her out here after having given them the space to breath — herself the time to contemplate on the ways in which she could have handled herself better.
Should have been better.
Briana grit her teeth until her jaw ached, steel blue eyes locked on the next bend in the path, refusing to look down at the dizzying drop beside her, at how far she'd come—at how far she still had to go even as her steps faltered and balance wobbled, as if the mountain itself was trying to drag her back down. Back to where she'd started. Back to failure.
...It would be so much easier to give up.
Keep. Fucking. Moving.
The words pulsed through her blood like a war drum.
She needed to endure this — had to, if she hoped to face the pain she'd caused and try to repair it. Assuming Lorn would grant her an audience. Not that she'd blame him if he decided against it. But, giving up just as she was about to crest the top of this punishing hill, wouldn't only be admitting defeat to the mountain, but it would be admitting defeat to herself. Would be to admit that they were defeated, as a whole, and that there wasn't anything worth trying to salvage.
The muscles in her calves were screaming by the time she pushed herself up that final stretch, sweat trickling down her spine as she dragged herself to the top of the ridge where the path finally leveled out, pausing to take in the view of the training villa that sprawled against the cliffside, basking in the fading sunlight.
Shiraya's Rest. Briana mused. A misnomer if there ever was one.
Shiraya's Crucible seemed more accurate. The thought brought a thin smile to her lips as she studied the weathered stone. Like most things connected to Naboo, there were layers of meaning, some more subtle than others.
Reaching out with the Force, Briana probed delicately, alerting Lorn to her arrival — assuming he hadn't already sensed her trudging up his Shiraya-damned mountain like some penitent pilgrim.
Which, she supposed, was the truth of it.
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