This one's OOC.
I don't usually like playing the part of the good guy.
Why? Because being the bad guy is just to much fun.
For awhile I didn't write 'morally correct characters', because I just didn't think I'd enjoy it.
So there was Ven, the chaotic madwoman.
Then there was Ire, the equally crazy, bloodthirsty little babu.
But they didn't stay bad for long.
I realized that while I loved to play the bad guy, I couldn't have my characters just be bad.
They had good parts to them too, even if I didn't see them originally.
I can still remember my first Jedi on the site.
Vargent Nordii, the awkward blind kid with asthma.
She's a Sith now.
I can remember my other Jedi too, though.
There's Svarin, the kid who grew up around darkness, but tries so hard to find the light.
Trying to keep her sane and strong during the war has been a blast to write.
There's Vivienne, the kid that everyone says is going to turn to the dark side some day.
Maybe I'll 'lose' and she will, but she'll go out with one hell of a fight.
There's Nyx, the spy, the traitor, the one that doesn't know what side she's on anymore.
She thought she was going to be the bad guy. I thought that too.
But there's a lot of story left in her. So who knows?
I thought I'd hate being the good guy.
I thought that saving people, that giving myself up so that other people could live, I thought that would be boring.
How could writing a character that never cared for themself be fun?
Well, they do care for themselves, actually.
That's part of the fun.
You take a character who's spent their life devoting themselves to people who usually can't pay them back,
And you make them find themselves. You make them doubt, and wonder, and worry.
At the end of the day some of them aren't meant to play the perfect Jedi.
Or even the good guy, the 'good guy', or the anti-hero.
That's alright though.
Because you'll find that some of them are meant to save the day.
They're meant to give pieces of themselves up because they know that there's more to the galaxy than just their life.
Maybe they won't become supreme rulers of Asgard or whatever you want to be the ruler of.
But you'll get some shiny medals.
And who doesn't like shiny things?
For an actual serious end to this: You won't get to rule the world, or maybe even just a dedicated block of Manhatten.
There are still things your character can get out of it- physical or not.
But to me, it's less what your character gets from it, and more what you do.
Being the bad guy can be fun, yeah.
But really, who doesn't love saving the damsel (or lad)?
