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Troubled focus

It was dark outside, but it seemed evej darker in Abigail's workplace. She'd dimmed the lights at the start of the evening to keep her eyes from growing tired, but the trick seemed to have lost its touch by now.

Abigail hazily looked up from her work, trying to focus on the nearest clock hanging on the wall. It took her eyes a good few seconds to focus before they were able to give her the news. She'd been working the entire night. Again. A distant sound, reminiscent of a voice, cursed her for staying up this late again. She'd promised to stop working late as it made her lose focus, and losing focus could be dangerous. Lethal even.

She looked down at the scrolls laying in front of her and let out a deep sigh. Even though she'd managed to decipher most of it, there were still bits that meant completely nothing to them.

She glanced to the left, where her suit was standing in a powering station. It had been a good start, but it still lacked so much, and had so many kinks and problems. Besides, the energy needed seemed to be a bit higher than she had originally anticipated. And that was really was she was here, working in the dark at night. A small compact device capable of storing lots of energy, perfect for her armour and the upgrades she'd planned for it.

"Just need to finish my research, that's all", she mumbled to the air. She'd have looked mad to anyone who heared her speak, but here she was alone.

She suddenly scoffed, throwing her hands in the air.

"You don't know what you're talking about."

But it did. Abigail had no real reason to be doing this work at night. Sure she was often busy during the day, but on the occasions she wasn't 'doing business' on some other planet she could easily work on this.

Truth was, she'd been having trouble sleeping for a while now. As her mind returned to ponder about her situation, her hands continued to work.

Abigail'd been through a rough few years. First, the end of the Galactic Alliance, which had swiftly caused her entire purpose in life to be thrown out the window. She let out a small chuckle as she remembered how helpless she felt back then. Although, in a way, the feeling wasn't much different from the one she had these days.

Her thoughts then travelled further along time, to her mother. Or the woman who she called 'mother', at least. At first, Abigail had been a bit reluctant about their relationship, but then quickly became more delighted over time. Unfortunately, that happiness had come to fade over time. Whether it either one's behaviour was to blame, or just their lack of time spent together, who knew. All Abigail knew was that she felt redundant, unnecessary. Alex had been more than busy with the New Republic and chasing her new lovers Yasha and Noah. And then the kids. New, wonderful babies and children. Abigail felt glad, she was happy for Alex. But deep down she also felt out of place. No father to speak of and she was technically not even Alex's real daughter.

Their relation had weakened over time, at least it felt that way to Abigail. She'd been spending more time alone and away from the rest, always feeling uncomfortable and like an annoyance when she was around the rest.

A sudden blue flash before her eyes forced her attention back to reality, back to the present. Abigail hadn't screamed. Instead she was just looking at her hand dumbfounded. Or more accurately, she was staring at the burn mark on her left hand. Even though she seemed to be feeling nothing yet, the first thing she noticed was the smell of burned flesh. Her flesh.

After a while her attention returned to the device in front of her. It seemed... relatively unharmed, still glowing blue, and it hadn't completely exploded. Yet.

Then the pain finally registered, much later than it should have. Abigail let out a pained scream as she let herself sink to the ground, leaning against her workbench.

Maybe [member="Beth Cadera"] had been right, maybe this was too dangerous and not worth the risk.

But... what did it matter anyway.

She just needed to focus. Focus.
 
Beth had felt the uneasiness when [member="Abigail Meredydd"] visited, especially so when her family and Beth's extended family was around. And while Beth had mostly overlooked it for fear of stepping on toes, she decided to make a trip to visit her dear sister - who, if she knew her, was likely doing something that Beth begged her not to do. Just knowing her, anyway.

She'd be leaving for Chiss space soon and... Well, she wanted to make sure Abby knew she was always welcome. Abby was her sister, but above all else - one of her, if not her best, friends. She was family, a friend, and someone she loved deeply.

Beth was sure to send messages to her nearly daily, bugging her to death because she just loved chatting with Abby. The last bit of news Beth saw was that Corellia had arranged for talks to secede. Kuat could not be touched by anyone except the Confederates, with their massive blockade similar to Eshan. All in all, the galaxy felt... Dark. The Dark was winning spectacularly you'd have to be a fool to not see it.

Beth knocked on the door to Abigail's workplace right before she heard a scream. It was late, but Beth's sleeping patterns were wild due to the pregnancy. And her hormones in general were all over the place. One minute happy, one minute a sobbing mess. The doctors told her, it wouldn't be an easy pregnancy. High risk, they said.

Instead of hearing come in, Beth heard a scream. And instead of waiting politely, Beth entered the room to find Abby leaning against her workbench. "Abigail?" She said quietly, as she moved close and inspected the girl. Her hand was... Burnt, pretty badly. Definitely a second degree burn, at least. It was healable, at least by the healing side of Beth. Her eyes caught the scrolls and knew exactly what Abby had been up to. Her hunch was right, after all. "I'll heal it, stay calm," she said quietly as she gently took her hand in hers.
 
Abigail slowly looked up with a confused expression, her vision hazy and blurred.

"Beth? How... how did you get here? Why... Why?", she stuttered between groans and the occasional flinch. Her hand hurt like hell. Whatever happened definitely wasn't supposed to happen. At least probably not.

"I-I don't understand", she mumbled as she leaned her head against the workbench, letting out a pained sigh. She'd been working on this in secret for quite some time, but even though she was still convinced this was worth the risk, she was slightly ashamed for [member="Beth Cadera"] to know about it. The girl had scolded her before, telling her about all the dangers. And she'd been right. What happened just now was nothing spectacular, as it could've been much worse. Much deadlier.
 
Beth tsked softly at Abigail. There was no shame, or scowl, just a natural worry from someone who loved her. She held her hand carefully, her other hand brushing over it as she felt through the Force - called to it, and began the repair of the burnt skin.

"I was coming to talk to you," she said quietly as she focused on her hand for the time being. "I see you ignored my advice," she said with a twinkle of a tease in her eyes. The deepness of the burn made it take a bit longer than she expected to heal her hand, but once she was finished. Her hand was right like brand new.
 
Abigail flinched as [member="Beth Cadera"] touched her burnt hand, fully expecting pain to shoot through her hand.

"Talk", Abigail repeated as she stared into the air, looking at nothing. She was tired, bewildered, confused and modt importantly, she was lost. The corner of Abigail's lips momentarily curled upwards as Beth mentioned her advice. No, Abigail hadn't followed the girl's advice, but they had both know that already.

Once Beth was finished, Abigail raised her hand in front of her own face, curiously looking at the healed flesh. If Beth hadn't been here, Abigail would've started to doubt whether or not it had really happened and it hadn't just been a dream.

"Thank you", she whispered softly as she lowered her hand again. Abigail didn't dare to look up at her sister. She was too ashamed to do so. Too full with emotions and doubts.
 
Beth tried to give [member="Abigail Meredydd"] an encouraging smile. She was tired, hurt, and... Lost. Once Beth had finished healing her hand, she placed both hands over Abby's. She gave a small squeeze. She gave a release after a moment. Was this what it was going to be like with kids...?

She took a breath as she leaned against the workbench, sinking down to sit on the floor as she patted next to her for Abby to sit down. "Abby, what's going on? You can talk to me," she said quietly once Abby sat down. "I'm worried about you," she admitted after a few seconds pause, her emerald eyes watching Abby with clear worry.

Beth had an advantage - and that was a stable government. The Clans were ravaged before Beth came into the picture but her time has been fully stable. Abby has had to live through the fall of the Alliance, the Remnant, and now the deterioration of the New Republic. It had to be... Hard. She reached over to take Abby's hand in her own again, giving her a gentle squeeze.
 
When [member="Beth Cadera"] had asked her what was going on, she shrugged at first, merely muttering that she was working. But when the girl pressed on and told her she was worried about her, Abigail couldn't lie. She sighed as she leaned her head back against the workbench where they sat next to eachother.

"I...", she began, but ended up saying nothing as she couldn't find the right words. A lot had happened, and there was a lot going on. Where to begin? What to say and what to keep secret? She didn't want to have Beth worry too much about her, even if that worry may have been justified.

"There's just so much going on, and it's all falling apart," she mumbled. "I'm just... I don't know. Working."

Then she slightly tilted her head upwards before opening her mouth slightly, contemplating whether to ask Beth the following question. "Have you ever felt that you don't belong?"
 

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