As they walked back to her place, he made a light joke. She flashed a small smile but right as she was about to joke back, she spotted something. A street kid was stealing a wallet from a stranger and dashing right past her with it in hand. In one smooth motion she swiped the wallet from the kid's grip and fished out a handful of credits. She tossed one chip to the kid and slapped the wallet against the flabbergasted stranger's chest as they walked past. With her bored expression she counted the credits and then shoved them into Cas' pocket.
"There we go. Twenty enough for you?" she joked with a smug grin.
It didn't take long before they reached her little apartment. Sam dumped her holsters on the kitchen counter and grabbed two beers from the fridge. She opened them both and handed Cas one of them.
"Karking finally." she sighed before downing the bottle and tossing it in a bin.
"Let's get that shoulder looked at." she ordered as she went to the bathroom to fetch a first aid kit. She motioned to the couch and got him to take off his shirt.
"With a mouth like yours I expected something more impressive." she jested casually as she worked on cleaning the wound. In no time at all he was bandaged up with a healthy bacta layer covering the wound. Once she was done she dumped the first aid stuff on the dusty coffee table and sat back with a sigh. Just like before she reached for a cigarette, but didn't get further than lighting it before nipping it with a look of disgust.
"Matt did a good job of ruining them for me, that's for sure." she admitted with a hint of amusement in her voice.
The light smile on her face disappeared as she looked at the floor. For several moments she was silent before clearing her throat.
"I need to get out of this life." she confessed out of the blue.
"Don't tell Matt or nobody. But I wanna get out. This mess..." she gestured to the direction of the burning palace.
"It's not the first time. I've knocked on death's doorstep countless times. As a kid I killed to stay alive. As a teenager I heisted a lot of creds and killed a lot of innocent people. Now that way of living has given me reliable and good paying work as a merc." she looked at him with a look of sincerity. Her usually hard facial features were gentle and her gaze towards him was soft.
"But these days it's becoming too much. I'm getting tired of the killing and risking my life for pocket change. I want out of this life. No killing, no fearing for my life or those close to me, nothing. Just a simple life, maybe a starship or speeder mechanic or something. Just...not this." she confided in him, keeping her voice low as if she was letting him in on a big secret. For Sam, it pretty much was.
Her soft gaze hardened up again as she frowned, looking away with a look of shame on her face.
"...I don't know why I said all that, just forget it." she grumbled as she got up, rubbing her forehead. She walked back to the kitchen counter and fished out a bottle of whiskey from under it. She leaned against it and took a swig of the bottle before holding it out towards him.
"Drink some of this, it might help you grow some chest hair." she quipped dryly as she looked at him, struggling to find the will to smile at her poor attempt at a joke.
Cadere