what is my purpose (open to anyone)

[Kycoros Oberon]

Kycoros Oberon sat outside in deep thought, his eyes are closed and his scales glint in the sunlight. as he sits he begins to voice his thoughts out loud, "why am I here? what is my purpose? hell why was I born?" he seems to be familiar with these questions and sighs, "what if what they said are true? what if I am a cursed mistake? is it right for me to stay here and bring troubles to these people who have taken me in?" he sighs and falls silent, "and will I ever understand what the concept of what 'love' is?"

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

Matsu stood off to the side, in her black coat and with the hat as she offered a small smile. She was for intents a padawan but still had her mind, her knowledge and her drive for attaining something few others did. Serving the lightside and not falling into the trap of arrogance she had seen. Letting herself push off the wall though and walking over her hearing was good and offering a smile. "Are you alright padawan?"

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

the drakian jumps his violet eyes wide, not realizing anyone heard him, an energy of shame rolls off of him, "I don;t know master..." he speaks with respect to her

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

"I am not a master padawan, well not anymore. My connection to the force has been damaged but it is coming back to me. We shall see what comes of it in the end, now come doubt and shame are not the right things to feel. Talk to me and tell me what has happened to make you so."

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

"mas.....Madam, my life is full of confusion, misfortune and abandonment... my clan disowned me.. my former master before I came here left me... I have been called cursed from the day I was born and thus attempts on my life were frequent..." as he speaks each emotion including anger, sadness, loneliness and pain all pulsate from him, actually its as if he is trying to convey how he feels with out words. "I was told I would cause nothing but pain to those closest to me and now I am scared to even get even close to anyone any more.... I just don't know what to do.. why I am here and what is my purpose for being spawned..." he finally stops speaking not meeting her in the eye but gazing at his hands and claws

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

Ah Matsu sat there and gave a nod of her head, one of interest while she spoke. "I see, to most of it I can only say trust in the force padawan, it might seem cruel or temperamental but it does come through in the end." To the rest well. "Life is suffering, life is hard, I could lie and tell you it gets easier but in my experiences it gets harder and you have a choice. One all jedi, all living beings must face. Give in or resist and find your own peace. When I was younger I was in such pain that I thought I would die but others helped me not give into infinite despair and doubt. They became my friends."

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

the drakian looks up, "I don't know...I try to let the force guide me and it just seems to speak in riddles that I cannot decipher... no matter how hard I try nothing seems to be come clearer, it just seems like the fog of uncertainty gets thicker" starts scratching the stone next to him

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

"That is because your young but even the older masters have problems figuring out the forces will. Sometimes you just need to let it come and see where it guides you." Matsu rose up. "Come on we can keep talking but these old bones have been through a lot and sitting without support is very uncomfortable. We'll discuss the force here on Voss which is a very strong place. Perhaps we'll get some intents and purpose."

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

he stands up rather graceful for his size, it is obvious that he is strong but his body doesn't seem so muscular instead it seems much like a acrobat's build, "alright..."

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

Matsu looked at him and gave a nod of her head while she started walking putting her hands in her pockets and letting the silence reach her throughout the temple. A small grin on her face while she tapped the wall for a moment and stopped letting her finger run along it. "There is much history here on Voss, much shrouded in mystery and that the silver jedi are working to learn of. Even my research only goes so far. What do you know of this world?"

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

"the energy of this planet is so lively,,, It feels...peaceful at times" he says, "I know very little of the life on this planet"

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

"I know enough to get by which is why I can live outside the temple. This world holds more mysteries then some know and the ancients mystics of the planet knew how to best use the energies. They built the tower to see the past, the future and so much more." She exited and went towards the jeep with equipment in it. "So how are you at hunting?"

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

"I had to survive some how on the plains of Dantooine" he says his energy flaring feelings of being insulted

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

"Dantooine is very different then Voss, some fo the creatures here are only found on worlds like Tython and ancient worlds strong in the force." She didn't acknowledge his flaring just climbed into the seat of the jeep while motioning for him to follow suit while her hands danced over it and the engine revved up.

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

he gets in, silently saying nothing his purple eyes just staring ahead

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

Matsu took the silence as a sign of agreement as she made her way towards the nightmare lands of the world. THe corrupted beasts and normal predators there something of a small mystery as they existed and there wasn't a complete source for how they were still getting corrupted.

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

Kycoros sighs, "why do I exist?" he says, "that is all I want to know... why am I even alive if I am a cursed being with no purpose"

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

"Asking a question like that is like wondering why the universe spins or the sun rises. It is not an easy question with no real answer. We are all here and discovering our purpose, discovering our reason for existing is the journey. Not many truely ever learn what their purpose in this galaxy is and some figure it out themselves. YOu will have to look inward to see what you are, who you are and what your destiny is."

 

[Kycoros Oberon]

mutters in drakinese and then says, "that sounds like the sermons I was forced to attend as a hatchling" he sighs, "so what am I hunting?"

[member="Matsu Ike"]

 

[Matsu Ike]

[member="Kycoros Oberon"]

Matsu looked at him. "There is a creature here, a sithspawn from a long time ago, we're going to take it down. Be careful though battle hydra's are dangerous that is why we have the mounted turret."