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Heroes, Rebels, and Politics
She had been summoned before the Empress only on two occasions before this. Once, was before they began to strike at the Shadow Empire, the second, was on that beach exodus where she had met Corin, and now this would mark the third. Sadly, this was perhaps the lowest point that the Warden had experienced. Her injuries, her shame, and now...her pride, all undone by her own hand. It was a miracle in her mind that Corin considered her a friend still, would even consider her an honorary Ultranaut. She wished to feel pride in this moment, but there was only the shame she felt, standing on the new cybernetic leg. The empress herself had given funds for it's creation, something that the Warden knew she didn't deserve, and yet, here she stood upon it, in the middle of a crowd being honored for her 'sacrifice'. The real ones who should have been honored were the departed, the ones who had died while Lil had betrayed her comrades.
Standing before the rest of her peers, Lilanna had moved before the Empress as commanded, kneeling, her bowed. She wished to hide her face, to keep herself from being known, hoping that the other Wardens might not know of her shame. She should have felt pride as the Empress praised her, laid upon her a promotion, elevated her in status to something of noble holding. Yet, she felt nothing but that festering guilt. How had she proven herself? How did she deserve to keep going when so many others just as worthy had departed? Lilanna had no answers. She merely closed her eyes, and took that which was placed upon her, trying to soothe her emotions that the Empress wasn't mistaken, that it was just her emotions at play.
It didn't make her feel much better.
Rising as she was appointed as an official knight, she felt the eyes of the other Wardens felt upon her, and merely grimaced as their gaze felt as if it shifting to blame. Did anyone know the truth of that day? Would they know? Or would it be a secret between herself and Corin?
Lilanna had no real way of knowing.
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OBJ 1: Heroes
Lilanna had found a nice hiding place within the parade grounds, though she had phased through the nearest all to accomplish it, she was able to view the others from the view port before her. Others were being praised for their service against Omni, for their efforts against the drones in that otherworldly place. Which was exactly why Lilanna had withdrawn from the festivities. Corin deserved far more praise than herself, as did countless others. Besides, as a Warden, she had no place in the lime light, there was no reason to make herself known, not when she had been fighting for the other side for most of the conflict. She pulled up a chair, still cradling the bottle of Corellian Ale she had swiped from the bar, and opened it. She was tired of wrestling with her guilt for the day.
She needed to fight this demon alone.
Hopefully Corin didn't come looking for her.