"I think Dagon is like he is because..." Aeris exhaled and shook her head she could try to sugar coat and lie to Kai all that she wanted, but part of her was already so done with the lies of everything else that she surrounded herself with. Lies of the jedi, of the circle, and the lies that the New Jedi Order were willing to tell themselves to make their fight seem worth it. For all of her life Aeris had known that the Jedi were fragmented, and that there were more than a few followers that eschewed the meaning of the word until it fit their narrative but it was never until she reached the mythological top that she could peer out across the fields in true horror at just how bad the rift in philosophies seemed to be.
As natural as it was for Aeris to accept everyone until they destroy their own trustworthiness, including Sithspawn, Dark Jedi, and hell, even Sith, she was still somehow alone in it, or so she told herself time and time again. She wanted to see the good in all, rather than always assume that light and dark were synonyms for good and evil, because quite frankly there was enough evidence to prove that such was not the case.
To explain why Dagon, a man she associated with means justifying the ends, might see Kai as a heart-wrenching abomination that he took pity on was not something she could do, and even then she didn't know if that was even the case. For all she knew about the man, she would never claim to understand all of the reasons he acted in one way or the other.
"In all honesty, I cannot give you an answer to that." She eventually said and finished off her tea. "But I would say your reasons for not being sure are more than valid reason to feel what you may feel."
"As you can probably tell, I too have been shaken a bit in the last few weeks. Despite how excited and honored that I am to be given the seat in the Circle that I have been provided, I cannot help but wonder whether or not one of the masters I had as a child was correct after all."
"... Maybe these Circles and Councils are just nothing but a waste of time."
Kai Bamarri
