Location: Aureus Estate - Naboo
Equipment: Jumpsuit and shin guards
Accessories: Bracelet,
Echo Stone
Weapons: Lossa's Lightsaber,
Turmoil - Lightsaber
Tags:
Briana Sal-Soren
She hadn't been counting the days like her cousin. But knew well enough that the eventuality of the need to discuss what had happened would rear it's ugly head at some point.
But she was enjoying the time between for as long as either of them were either too afraid to address it, or similarly, were just as content to let sleeping ack-dogs lie for the while. They had certainly danced around the topic a number of times now. An offhanded comment that went forcibly unnoticed at a gathering. Certain messages on the holo's sitting unopened and ignored because it
could force the topic.
That didn't mean it wasn't affecting either of them in some way. Lossa herself had been at odds with how to handle the talking portion of everything after the fact. That familiar lingering feeling in the back of her mind present as she tried to keep herself centered.
Already having gone over the topic of her connection with the dark side and the slippery slope that meant for her continuing to act as a Head of the Jakku Enclave.
All of this inner conflict with the lingering mirror of herself had driven her to the edge of her patience. Hearing her own voice condemning every little action. Comparing what she did to someone else in how it might affect others. Like her worries and fears had been given a space inside her head to literally vocalize themselves beyond just merely being a thought. Rest was something that came with it's own troubles.
Aside from being so close to the predicted due date, she now had the misfortune of hearing herself second guess everything. How it could have been done better. How much she needed to practice. How she needed to just be like Briana.
Rubbing her eyes now as her boots scuffed against the transports deck plating. Following behind a crew member she had recruited from the Rimward Trade League after the Sith had begun to move in. Many of the people she had casually worked alongside had come closer to the core seeking work, and this was an opportunity she had jumped on.
"Always the opportunist when it benefits you. But never the one to be responsible." That ever present manifest of her darker thoughts lilted. The Skiptown had at one point had a damaged internal plate because of this very voice that haunted her thoughts and actions. So fed up that the only silence she had found was inflicting pain on herself.
Lossa wasn't so lucky this time around though with how impulsively she could act.
She stood in the passageway between the cargo hold and the loading ramp, staring down the amber eyed illusion of her face as it sneered at her. Smug in it's own satisfaction of working on her nerves. She stood sidelong in the walkway, head turned to face herself in the reflective surface as it twisted before slipping into nothing. A tired sigh passing before she flinched.
"- hustle already! You’re gonna wanna see this.”
"Must be pretty important to call us over huh? Waddle on padawan! Go meet with her holy knight-ness." Her own voice cackling before silence returned. Turning finally as a few of the crewman turned to greet her, watching her plod down the ramp.
"Oh shut up, I can only walk so fast anymore." Her tone a little sharper than she intended but not wanting to draw attention to realizing it. She loved her cousin dearly. Briana had been nothing but outstanding in every capacity for as long as Lossa had known her. Understanding, patient, kind, loving. All of that and more.
But feth it was infuriating at time.
"Whatcha got?" Setting aside her own feelings of frustration and lacking to glance between Briana's face and the display to read. Noting it wasn't quite as short a read as she had hoped, her hand propped against her hip as she settled in. Eyes scanning the list slowly and brow furrowing with each detail she noted. Unable to stop that arch of her brow at the realization that the man they had fought had once been something other than a dark sider.
"I... Feth." A rush of different emotions flitting through her at the sight of some familiar names, and not entirely sure how to feel about seeing all this aired out for the galaxy. Her hand coming to her face to ease the tension she felt behind her eyes as she took a few pacing steps away only to return and sharply point at the message.
"With everything going on. With tensions like they are, someone decides to get on their... "
Her frustration boiled over as she groaned and growled. Unable to find the words to express how irritating it was to see someone spurn others on with what she equated to ignorance. To self important ignorance of grander issues than seeking penance.
Had the Alliance and it's people not already had enough of it's overinflated sense of duty and need for justice with their pursuit of Romi Jade?
"Stupa. Fethin stupa bantha poodoo." Her mind was spiraling. The calm of her mind no longer that placid pond but a raging torrent as she wondered just how someone could decide to take matters into their own hands. Those few steps having only stoked the fire in her, wanting to grab the device and throw it against the ground to remove the offense from her sight.
A moment's thought to even reaching out towards Briana in anger kept her from acting, instead moving to the landing gear of the ship and kicking the cover plate with enough force to leave a dent.