He listened to her little cryptic words, and what did he do?
He started laughing.
Alright, honesty time. Something Circe didn't see a lot of.
"Ahahahahahahaha -HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Circe, Circe, Circe... I'm sorry, dear, but I'm afraid you've gone far off the deep end" He spoke with an amused smirk crossing his lips. "No, I will never understand, Circe. You've lost it" He snapped, growling toward her. He wasn't hiding it anymore. He'd tried so much to try and keep civil with Circe despite all the pain she caused, but everytime he tried, she found ways to remind him of the monster that she was.
"You're more then just a monster, Savan" He spoke, that was likely the first time anyone had called her by her real last name in quite some time. He looked around at this... Arena of sorts, this chamber of horrors at Malachor V's core... "You're a danger to everyone around you, you care only for yourself.. And by the time someone puts you down, you'll have done more damage to the galaxy then you will have saved it"
"I suppose it's difficult to understand" He admitted, looking back at Circe. "How does one person be so cruel? So selfish? And so delusional? I've been holding this back for a long time, Circe... But you're living in your own little bubble. You think everything you do is for good, but its not. You're hurting people. People who cared about you. Jak cared about you. He was the only person besides me who tried over and over to see good in you, no matter how many people you hurt, no matter how many lives you destroyed. No matter how much you cheated on him and played infidel, all the lies, all the pain you inflicted... And you backstabbed him. He's gone. And it's all your fault. And you hold no remorse for it"
He disliked playing the Jak card. He knew Circe hated it. But she needed to see what she was doing.
"You're not saving anyone. You're only fulfilling your own ends. And I've tried, just as much as your ex husband did, to see the good in you and try to put you on the right path. Even after all you've done. You destroyed my family, Circe. I'm alone in this world, I had one family member left, and you took him away from me. How do you think that makes me feel? I have nobody. My brother thinks he's too far gone now to ever come home. He's of the mind that as long as he has the dark side in him, he can't be himself again. And that means that in his mind, him and I, we are forever fated to be enemies, because of what you did to him. But I'm still here. Maybe I'm just foolish? Maybe I'm just like you, maybe I'm mad. Maybe I'm insane. And no, don't give me that bullcrap, we both know that you're mad. I'm not calling you mad because you claim to save the galaxy... You're just mad. Everything you do is insanity" Josh spoke, staring Circe down.
"You want to know what real compassion is, Circe? What real love is?" Josh would ask, circling her. "Since I've already learned enough from you that I can go and be taught elsewhere now that the problem is out of the way should you no longer want to help me, I'll tell you the truth. I confronted Nick. We've fought. And as I said, he's too far gone, he thinks he can't be saved with the dark side in him. Why am I here? Simple..." He began, before he stopped right in front of Circe. Face to face, their noses just about touched as he stared into her eyes, a fierce look in his own.
"I'm going to undo the damage that you did. I'm going to save him... Even if I have to pay the ultimate price to do so. Learning and using the dark side... It was the last thing I ever wanted to do. But Nick is my brother... Despite everything, he's my brother and I love him. I will move mountains if that means saving my baby brother. I don't even care if he goes to the Jedi. But he doesn't want the Sith life, he thinks he's bound to it, and can't live a normal life with it in him... I will do everything in my power to show him the truth. The dark side isn't a dead end. If I can learn, use it... And still be a Jedi. Still be me... I can prove to him that he can escape this, and live a normal life like he so sorely wants. It might cause me problems for the rest of my life, but... That's a sacrifice that I'm willing to make for the people I love" Joshua would whisper. "I risk being consumed and destroying everything that I've spent my entire life building. But if it means giving my little brother a chance at life, I'll do it a hundred times over"
"That's saving people, Circe... This... Monstrosity of things you do to people, to everyone in the galaxy, that's not. But you're blind to it, Circe. You've been consumed by a lust for power. Or perhaps... Is it a lust for revenge on the galaxy for what it's done to you, and you just refuse to admit it?" He would accuse, a small smirk crossing his lips, as he leaned over and whispered into Circe's ear. "You've told me before about your past as a slave... Used for all sorts of unspeakable, abusive acts... And I can tell deep down that it still eats at you. Is it perhaps that you've just been acting like this out of some warped measure of revenge? Like the galaxy has done you wrong, but you're justifying what you're doing by claiming you're saving it... But that's not true, is it Circe?" He would whisper into her ear.
He stopped leaning against her ear and looked her in the eyes again. "Tell me the truth, Circe... You resent the slavers who did that to you, don't you? Is that the cause of all you do, at the root of it all? If so... Well... You honestly don't have to go this far for your solution" He spoke, and his lips slowly twitched into a small smile.
"Your solutions standing in front of you, all along. You can do actual good... And still avenge what's happened to you"
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