Corvus tucked into the food. It was far more elaborate than anything she'd have attempted herself. "This is really good," she said, and grabbed a couple of cans of soda for them to drink. "I don't know just how much water we have, so this seems a sensible drink until I find out."
Once the meal was concluded, Corvus checked out the water situation. They had full tanks and so drinking and cleaning water was not an issue. "OK, I'm going to call it a night. Or rather, get refreshed, read and then call it a night." She smiled at Connor. "Make yourself at home and I'll see you in the morning."
Corvus went to her room, showered and then got into bed.
She could hardly keep her eyes open...they'd been travelling for over a full day now, but she persevered to read one more entry.
'Good morning, Qui-Gon.
Quiet here, as always. I know there are seasons on this planet, but I'm still not sure which one I'm in. But it is peaceful.
You know, we trained ourselves to be able to find solace even in the busiest places. Coruscant teemed with souls, and we meditated right at the centre of it. By comparison, you'd think this place would be ideal for meditation.
I can't tell you why it isn't.
You used to say that in cases like this the problem wasn't the place; it was the person. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do about that. It's not as though I'm going to be any less worried about things after I've been here six months. Or six years, or however long it takes for hope to return to the galaxy. It's not like I'm going to suddenly get my friends back. It's not like I'm going to feel any better about what I had to do to poor Anakin. It's not like...'
The words suddenly stopped. Here, safe in the middle of a desert, Corvus allowed her emotions free reign. She felt Master Kenobi's pain. Tears formed in her eyes and she put the book aside. But she knew she couldn't sleep with this the last entry in her mind. So she picked up the journal and read on.
'I don't know what you can see from where you are, Qui-Gon, but I doubt you missed today's trip.
No, once again, I wasn't intending for it to be a big production. You don't have to tell me what our mutual teacher used to say. I don't crave excitement or adventure - or rather, I crave them not, as he would have put it.' Corvus smiled. She wasn't the only one to use Yoda puns.
'I was going to the store for water, on a day when nobody was supposed to be there. That's all. Instead, I got into a riot and a range war. And I forgot all about the water. And my eopie.
But I guess I'd rather see, and do nothing, than not see at all. I'm missing so much of what's going on in other places. I can't live blindfolded. It's not really the Kenobi way.
Then there's Annileen.
I was tempted to call her "the Intrepid Annileen" just now - because she seems to be able to deal with whatever horror this planet can imagine. That's what I need to become: absolutely familiar with all the dangers here. She takes them in her stride. Not because she's fearless, but because she knows she has to go on.
If I'm going to go on - and we both know I must - I'm going to have to find a way to stop tearing myself up over what happened. There's pain, yes, but a lot of it lately is self-inflicted.
Like this. You see what I'm holding here - again. A last remembrance, I've told myself. But I'm locking it away now. And I would be a lot better off if I put it away once and for all, and tried to go on.
Like Annileen has had to do. I can learn something from her, I think.
And yet, when I think about her, I have to consider ... '
Again the words stopped but Corvus mused for an entirely different reason. Here, alone for all those years? She hoped he did find company. He of all people deserved it.
And within minutes she was fast asleep.
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