// PARAGON // SWORD OF THE JEDI //
// KUAT // KUAT CITY //
// INSPIRE CHANGE //
// FOCUS //
Allyson Locke
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Ryv met Allyson's gaze from across the room, slowly leaning forward to avoid aggravating his wounds. His forearms rested on his knees as his hands clasped together. Rather than the typical visage of Ryv Karis staring back at her, his form painted the image of a far more stern force of personality. He maintained eye contact for several heartbeats, each second dragging on an uncomfortable length of time. Finally, he released a sigh and shook his head.
"None of you get it. That's the problem, Allyson. That's why you aren't going to join me next time," Ryv reached down to his pack beside the bed. He dug around inside for a moment, pulling a few articles of clothing aside before eventually revealing a small lockbox. He reached inside his jacket next, pulling out a tiny key from somewhere within. The Kiffar inserted it into the lockbox, turned it slowly, and watched the rusted container pop open. His stern persona cracked momentarily, pain bleeding into his gaze. Just as quickly as it appeared, he forced it back down into whatever cage the young Jedi Knight built around it. Ryv reached inside the lockbox, only to pull out what seemed to be a set of rusted, bloody dog-tags. He tossed them across to her, brow furrowing. When Allyson stopped to study the object, a single name greeted the woman.
"If you want to know why, Allyson, read that. Run your hands over it every day of your life for six years as you cry yourself to sleep, wishing he could come back to you. I hated him because of what he did. My father threw his life away because of the Jedi Code. He left behind my mother and I. You know what happened to her when he wasn't here to protect us? I watched the Sith drag her away. Never saw her after that," he took a deep breath, steadying his growing emotions. Subconsciously, the Jedi Knight unhooked the Blade of Ruusan and began rolling it between his hands. The effect was immediate as a wave of calm crashed over the young man, beating back the surge of emotion that threatened to overwhelm him seconds before.
"I know you've felt loss, Allyson. Maynard has too. I have. It's why all of us rush headlong into danger to do the right thing, even if it means we're gonna die bloody and screaming. Don't you think that's weird? I've always thought that was super odd," he ran a hand along a purple and black bruise along his forearm, wincing from the slight contact. "You know what I always found even weirder than that? No one gives a shit. The Alliance, the SJO, the Republic, the Jedi Order, the innocents we protect, the people who want us all dead. None of them give a damn if we die for their sins. Our lives mean nothing to these people. We're expendable. Meant to die in the place of those too cowardly to pick up a blaster and fight for themselves," he forced himself to his feet, gritting his teeth as nothing but pain gripped every fiber of his being. Silently, Ryv limped across the room to the window and looked beyond their small haven. His gaze was drawn across the city to a distant light outside of the former Kuat's palace. Even from where he was, miles away, the Jedi Knight could feel the tension in those gathered as they both protested and celebrated the shift in power on the planet.
"And you know what? I'm tired of it. No more of this shit. The Jedi aren't expendable. Just because we're born with a power they can't comprehend doesn't mean we'll live out short lives, prepared to make the ultimate sacrifice," Ryv turned back to face her, leaning against the wall for support. "It's one thing to make a sacrifice you know is right. It's another for someone else to make that choice for you. I'm not going to let that happen anymore. I'm going to fix this. You, Maynard, Loske, and me. We were all trained to believe subconsciously we're just an expendable cog in the machine. And you know what? It all starts within us. Your skills make you the best damn eye in the sky the Jedi have, Allyson. The best you can do for us is to make sure you're watching our backs and making sure we get out of there alive. Maynard? He's a goddamn general in disguise. He'll be a leader of men, one who inspires change and brings peace through his actions."
Ryv shifted where he stood, working to find a more comfortable position for himself. The pain continued to assault his senses, but he suffered through it as he spoke.
"I'm going to help you all see the truth of who you are. I'm going to inspire you to do more than just see the future, Allyson. I'm going to help you all be the future. The Jedi need leaders. They need guidance from those of us who've been chewed up and spit back out by this system, so it doesn't happen to them. I need you to take a step back and look at the big picture beside me. I can't do this alone, and I can't do this if we're bickering over how useful you are. I know damn well how useful you are. I'm the guy who's gonna get beaten into a bloody pulp, again and again, so you guys don't have to. And in turn? You're all gonna change this galaxy for the better. I just need you to trust me."