Braze's frustration simmered beneath the surface, though he kept his expression neutral. The moment Lily mentioned her training regimen, his jade-green eyes narrowed slightly.
Here we go again, he thought.
Another person talking about building muscles as if that's the only way forward. He had heard it from others before—comments about strength and size that never sat well with him.
Aris Noble
, already taller and broader, had outpaced him in size. Braze was well aware of the awe, praise, and attention Aris gained from his new found height. He already understood the limitations of his more slender frame. He was now doing what he shouldn't agian. Compairing himself to others.
"Thanks for the offer, Lily, but I'm good for now," Braze said, keeping his tone even. He stretched his arm, still feeling the strain from their spar, but his mind was already focused elsewhere. There was more to power than raw strength. He'd continue proving that to everyone who expected him to follow a different path.
As Braze stretched his arm, a lingering thought crept into his mind, one that had been nagging him for some time.
Is it a problem that I'm still this small? He knew he was lighter and more compact than most others his age, but was it something he could control, or was this just how he was built? The idea weighed on him, especially as others like Aris seemed to grow taller and stronger without effort. He wasn't sure if he was simply a late bloomer or if his build was just naturally lighter.
Does it even matter? He shook the thought off for now. There were other ways to prove his worth, and he knew that his size wasn't everything. But still, the doubt lingered in the back of his mind.
The more Braze thought about it, the more the insecurity gnawed at him. It wasn't that he was just smaller—it was how often people brought it up, like Lily had just now.
Why does everyone think I need to bulk up? The constant comments, even when well-meaning, had started to wear him down. Each comment like that felt like a spotlight on something he couldn't control. He wondered if they all expected him to grow into some towering figure, and the pressure of those expectations made him question himself even more.
Shaking his head, Braze tried to push the feeling aside, but the insecurity lingered.
Maybe it's not just in my head after all.
He wondered how
Jasper Kai'el
Loomi
or even how
Ko Vuto
might view him thanks to his small stature.
"I think I have some chores to do for my master today. I better get going thank you for the sparr Lily, it was nice meeting you. " Braze chirped and offered her a bow.