"I guess that's where we, two nobles, differ the most," Maria spoke, then drank a bit of her coffee again. This time she had been prepared for the its warmth. "For me, pain is not denying myself, but always thinking about myself. There are others who need help. And I just deny them... It's... difficult to live like that.
But my change in philosophy didn't become because of that. Hatred, passion, evil, dark... they were the things which didn't let me walk the same path anymore. I was always controlled by the evil which resided in me, my passion made me do things a noble would never do, hatred is what drove me crazy during my days in the citadel, and darkness made me lonely.
Only light and its peace can make me feel myself. I have come to find three types of people during my thoughts in the lonely Arx Mortis. The first one are the ones who deny others to feel themselves. The second are these who deny themselves to make others feel good. And the third... are the ones who seek for happiness through being selfless.
It's not as comfortable as being a selfish person, I know. But it's definitely easier to bear. Evil will cause only suffer and misery, good is what makes everybody feel happy."
[member="Nemene Talith"]
But my change in philosophy didn't become because of that. Hatred, passion, evil, dark... they were the things which didn't let me walk the same path anymore. I was always controlled by the evil which resided in me, my passion made me do things a noble would never do, hatred is what drove me crazy during my days in the citadel, and darkness made me lonely.
Only light and its peace can make me feel myself. I have come to find three types of people during my thoughts in the lonely Arx Mortis. The first one are the ones who deny others to feel themselves. The second are these who deny themselves to make others feel good. And the third... are the ones who seek for happiness through being selfless.
It's not as comfortable as being a selfish person, I know. But it's definitely easier to bear. Evil will cause only suffer and misery, good is what makes everybody feel happy."
[member="Nemene Talith"]
