Location: Ballroom [Edge - Near a Viewing Portal]
Tag: [member="Aryn Teth"]
“The scale is not equal…”, Srina responded plainly while her eyes chased the blue-hued lines that ran just beneath the skin of the man before her. To the untrained eye he looked almost the same. His hair was unchanged. The cut of his jaw was just as strong as it ever was, the shade of his gaze, still the identical. Yet—She could see the differences as Echani eyes missed nothing. She could feel the differences. He would heal her, certainly, but the last vestiges of his connection to the Force would be exhausted. Srina would not be responsible for taking that from him.
No more than she already was; simply, by being caught in his gravity. She breathed? He suffered.
She had tried to fix what had been broken. Coming across the hardware and software needed to make the nanites function as it should was not something that Confederate scientists and engineers had simply pulled out of nothing. It was all experimental at best. He set down his drink while she glanced down at her own. Srina had never indulged openly before in liquor for a variety of reasons. She didn’t like when her senses dulled. She didn’t like the loss of control.
Her hand rose on its own and she took a small sip from the tall flute. It didn’t disturb the mask she wore, but alarms rang in the back of her head, for what felt like eternity, before she tilted her head back and downed the rest. It went down smoothly. Sweet, at first, but with a bitter effervescent burn.
A well of emotion poured from the former Jedi that stood at her side. He had once referred to himself as the Commander of Ashes. If she thought back hard enough, she could remember, sitting across a long table amongst the leaders of several nations. She didn’t belong there. Srina had been a simple Apprentice, an outsider, that was simply part of the attaché for the Vicelord. Regardless, for some reason, when she spoke—They listened. Aryn had been so different then. Less jaded, perhaps.
Just a boy and his droid that somehow had managed to ascend to the head of military power. It was reminiscent to her appointment as an Exarch. For a moment, a brief moment after Kuat, the Confederacy had fallen to either herself or Adron. Srina’s eyes closed. Silver bled to gold as she inhaled and corruption pattered itself around her eyes. She could feel his pain. The regret. It burned her through and through…
“You survived, Aryn.”
“When a thermal detonator goes off at point blank range survival should have been too much to ask. Yet, you are here. I am here.”
Others were not so lucky. Srina set her glass down on the edge of a high table and reached out so that she could wrap her fingers around his. His hands felt the same. Callused where they needed to be, but soft, in other places. He had endured a life of hard work and sacrifice. There were things he needed to know, to understand, and things that he didn’t. He had blamed himself for the fall of the Galactic Alliance for so long. It didn’t matter how many times she pointed out the truth.
The success of a nation did not fall on the shoulders of one. It was the synchronization of gears and cogs all working in harmony to support the system as a whole. Without a strong foundation, with crumbling arms and legs, how could he have hoped to stand?
“…You didn’t do this. Goheno nin*.” [Forgive me*]
He hadn’t chosen this. He hadn’t chosen to keep fighting after Coruscant had torn asunder. She had pulled him back into this life by continuing to fight with Confederacy—No matter the cost. He had pulled away from this existence as a public, warmongering servant, but Srina knew nothing else. She was a soldier.
Always. Blood, would always have blood. There was no perfect world, no place, where battle didn’t sing in her veins. Reparations would be made…But as long as there were those that had more than others, that believed different ideals, there would always be war. Death was her gift.
Everywhere she went—It followed. Nothing was safe, nothing, and no one.
Her eyes closed against the viewport to block out the endless sea of stars. Briefly, she contemplated sharing the rest of her thoughts…But she quickly chided her own weakness. Her mind doubled down, warding away entry to her most secret thoughts, even to those that were closest to her.
There were just some things…Aryn never needed to know.