She was glad her ability did not harm the Emperor, and did not damage the equipment. Ingrid could barely stand on her feet, when the Emperor slapped her with such force that she fell to her knees again. By this time she can think with a clear mind, so she perfectly knows that she attacked her Emperor even if only indirectly. She didn't reach for her face, just got up off the ground as quickly as possible. Truly she was surprised that she survived this. The other could have killed her without any problems; she committed betrayal, treason.
His voice, last time her father spoke in a similar way to her, when she wants to give up everything, when she only wants to get out of it all. When she lost control last time, it was ages ago, and she did not cause as much damage as it does now. She felt shame. Ingrid knows perfectly her Emperor is right. But yet she was sure about one thing, the Emperor doesn't understand what happened with her, what happened inside her. Not the Force ruled her, she felt the Dark side before, and this one was more different than that. She felt this was
Scherezade deWinter
herself.
”It will not happen again, if so, I'll end up with myself sooner than hurt anyone, especially not you, my Lord. You also know that I would never hurt anyone or you intentionally. Never!” she replied.
She shakes her head, it sounded like she was explaining her certificate. Her face ached and her whole soul burning in shame, but at least she was completely calm and in control of all his emotions, as at any other time. She didn't have to gasp for air anymore. She saw only one possibility that this might not really happen again.
”I’ll find the way to remove her essence from mine, my Lord!” she promised.
She didn’t know how she should do that yet, but she has to do that. She can’t control that feeling, so Scherezade or herself. Only one can remain. Scherezade wants back her anger, but she was not a sorcerer, she was just a warrior, she can’t help. If she can do this, she would have already done it. Ingrid tried to evoke from her memories to whom to turn. Only one Forceuser came to her mind,
AMCO
. After Lanteeb, it would be timely to meet him again anyway, but she didn’t want to burden him with her personal problems.
If she can learn not only to steal, but also to get rid of the feelings afterwards from herself, all this would be a dreadful ability in her hands. Yes, she will do this; she will start to experiment, not with new essences and feelings, but with what she has now. The tongue-lashing was worked, not that Ingrid didn't know all this, and she knew the law, the customs. She understood exactly what the man was saying.
”Understood perfectly, my Lord! I’m ready for the battle!” she saluted after her words.
With telekinetics she lifted her helmet off the ground and picked it up, she already knew the man wouldn't help her, she alone must find a way to remove the essence/feeling. And to restore her own inner harmony, which she had since her childhood…