Girl Talk (Jairdain)

[Asajj Novar]

"W.. Why? She.. They.. The things they did to me. I just don't understand why they did it. How they could.." She trailed off, her fist tightening. They were beasts, taking what they wanted from her in their sick games and desires. Without meaning to her one eye filled with tears as she recounted the events. "They broke my body, carved my flesh. Defiled me in every way they could think to." Asajj couldn't hold back her tears any longer while thinking about these memories. She hugged herself tightly. She needed to tell someone. "None of them cared. One tricked me into thinking he was going to help me just so he could enjoy himself."

[member="Jairdain"]

 

[Jairdain]

The answer Asajj gave to her was something she could understand fully. That need to know why...it was all Jairdain had in many things. Why did her people die? Why did Krest do what he did? Though that was answered, she had needed to know why.

As Asajj started crying and she exuded her sorrow and confusion, she would find welcome solace from Jairdain. Somebody she could freely open and speak to. Even have some sympathy from, most importantly...acceptance.

She kept silent as Asajj spoke and opened up. A sense of prompting came from Jairdain and allowed the other woman to continue speaking.

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

"They.. I just.. I couldn't get away. No one would help me. They just watched and laughed. I was nothing to them. An object." And then she lost it. All the pain, the fear, the sorrow. It all came crashing down on her. She hadn't had the chance to truly feel these emotions, instead locking them away to protect not only herself but those who worried so much about her. With [member="Jairdain"] though it was someone who could understand. Someone who knew.

Asajj curled up in her chair, bringing her knees to her chest as she hid her face away and just cried.

 

[Jairdain]

She sat listening to the girl speak and as soon as Asajj lost the control she had, Jairdain was at her side in a heartbeat almost. Unless Asajj objected, she would find herself being held in a supporting hug. As the tears flowed from her new friend, she would do her best to just give her the emotional support she had been lacking for all her life.

There was nothing Jairdain could do to change what had happened to either of them, but that wasn't needed. Two broken women needed something and this was what Asajj needed right now. Just somebody to cry and talk to.

No words of comfort came, but there was a sensation that indicated everything would work out fine.

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

Asajj didn't move as [member="Jairdain"] held her. The Dathomir simply clung her knees to her chest and wailed her frustrations and anguish. Of years and innocence lost. Eventually she turned into the blind woman's embrace, sobbing in her arms until she simply couldn't anymore. It would be hours before she finally stopped. Not because she had gotten it out of her system but simply because her body was still healing and exhaustion overtook her. Soon enough the young woman laid asleep in Jairdain's arms.

 

[Jairdain]

Eventually the tears and crying came to an end as Asajj's strength failed to keep her awake. Allowing her to fall asleep Jairdain did not move for a while and just held her in silence. Her own mind going over again her own memories. The old past did not bother her, but all the new stuff did. Not one to show her own pain, Jairdain kept this again to herself and much like before her days with Krest, she kept them to herself.

As the day passed into evening, Jairdain would finally move. With a gentle touch, she would attempt to lift Asajj with the Force to lay her down on the couch and cover her with a blanket. Unless this movement woke up her up, Jairdain would go about fixing them something for dinner and letting Krest know with a mental message his daughter was with her.

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

Asajj remained unresponsive as [member="Jairdain"] brought her to the couch, easily lifted and settled without any worry of disturbing her. In a way, this was the best sleep she's gotten in a while. There on the couch she'd look peaceful, and what's more her disrupted and depressed aura was calmed. The Dathomir would remain in her restful sleep for a while until, as if she was nothing more than a dog, she smelled the food.

Slowly she opened her violet eye, glancing around. She had been moved. Slowly she sat up, rubbing at her eye. "Jair..?"

 

[Jairdain]

Right now it was as if Jairdain played the role of ward for Asajj so some of her attention was directed at the sleeping form of her new friend. It actually made her feel a bit warm at the thought of having a friend here. On a world where she was an outside by most standards, here she was wanted, welcomed and needed. This girl needed the help as much as she did.

Even though Krest had made sure her kitchen had everything that could make food for her, Jairdain actually liked cooking. So she did very little of using the machines and made their dinner for them. Setting the spatula down when Asajj called out to her, she walked out of the kitchen to stand in the door.

"Did you sleep well and are you hungry? Dinner is about done."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

Asajj swung her 'feet' from the couch to the floor, straining a bit to stand again. "How long was I out?" She mumbled embarrassed. The Dathomir had only just met [member="Jairdain"] and was crashing on her couch. Crying even. She frowned at herself, gripping at the stub of her left arm.

"Yeah, I could eat."

 

[Jairdain]

Giving Asajj a smile in answer to her question, she motioned to her eyes in a way and shrugged her shoulders slightly.

"Time passage means very little to me actually. I just follow my body's schedule more or less and what others do. It's not that hard. Maybe something you should as your body repairs itself."

Indicating the kitchen she just came from, she turned back around to finish the dinner.

"Make yourself comfortable and you can stay here as long as you need."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

"I don't have all the time in the world to stay bedridden." She mumbled, glancing down at her legs again. How long was she going to be stuck like this. Asajj glanced over her shoulder to where [member="Jairdain"] stood, offering a faint smile none the less. "Thank you, Jair. For letting me stay here. It's nice to be out of the house or the palace. The same thing day in and day out eventually gets old, y'know?"

 

[Jairdain]

"No you don't, but you have the time needed to recover. There is a difference, Asajj and I don't think that is something you yet know."

Probably was never given the chance in the past either. Here it would be given to her if Jairdain had anything to say about it.

"A change of pace is always nice. I don't think I will be staying here too much longer myself. Time will tell I suppose. Life carries on outside these walls and it is passing me by while I wallow in my own pain."

Letting out a little growl of personal annoyance for even saying anything, she turned her attention back to the dinner.

"Come on in and have a seat. Dinner is done."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

Asajj blinked over to [member="Jairdain"] as she spoke. Pain? She was still hurting? But, about what? The Dathomir didn't know anything recent about the blind woman. But, she did as she was told, standing with some effort to walk into the room to have a seat for dinner. She glanced around the room, smelling the air for what ever was cooked. "Smells really good. You must really like cooking huh." Small talk. Asajj really just wanted to make sure her friend was okay, but didn't know how to bring it up. Maybe while they ate. Yeah, that would be good time to. She thought to herself.

 

[Jairdain]

If Asajj looked at her physically there would be nothing apparent to her. Jairdain's pain was all in her head, but unseen. As the two of them might get to know each other, then that pain would be more obvious in her eyes. A hollow look and maybe haunted. Nothing on the surface to be seen. Quite the opposite of Asajj and her wounds were on both levels.

"If you want, I can help a little with the pain or recovery. More than just a place to stay, but it's up to you. Some people feel they need to feel the pain and heal to learn something. I think you've learned enough to last a lifetime though."

Smiling as she dished out the food for them, she brought the plates over to the table and set them down.

"I do."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

"Yeah." She whispered. No, she was done learning from this. A cold shiver passed through her as she glanced down at her arm. How many lessons were there? How many punishments? Asajj shook her head quickly to clear the thoughts less she again fall to tears. [member="Jairdain"] had done so much in preparation for dinner it would be rude if she didn't at least partake in it.

Quickly the Dathomir took a bite, then smiled wide. "That's good stuff! Really good! What is it?"

 

[Jairdain]

A small nod greeted the single word Asajj said to her question. While the healing Jairdain offered right now wasn't active, it was far more subtle. Here the girl could take the she needed. For her physical and mental recovery. Another thing she offered was acceptance. Asajj wasn't going to be turned away, ridiculed or anything negative while in the presence of Jairdain. Hopefully she had figured that out by now.

The prospect of dinner drew the girl in and her natural exclamation that it was good made Jairdain smile.

"Colors in there mean little to me, but the chunky, chewy things are potatoes. The little sliced things are onions. Cylinder looking things are carrots and the meat is reek. The broth is reek broth, but there shouldn't be much of that and more like gravy."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

"I.. Can't say I ever actually gotten into cooking. It's been mostly how to kill people." She whispered. That was her life as a Sith. Kill this, kill that. Asajj took another bite, falling quiet again as she processed more of the thoughts she had. She glanced up to [member="Jairdain"] , watching her in that silence. Why was she so nice? Especially since the Dathomir wanted to take Vaulkhar for herself.

"I.. I really appreciate all of this."

 

[Jairdain]

"Everybody should know how to cook something. Tell you what. Come here when you can after today and I'll teach you how to cook. Mostly simple things mind you because well, I'm blind. If I don't know where something is...or what it is...things can get rather interesting."

As if Jairdain could sense the questions rattling around in the mind of Asajj, she did not press on them though.

"If somebody had extended this hand to me at another time, I would very likely be a different person than I am now. Maybe I would have been one of those that tortured you. Though I can hardly imagine myself like that."

[member="Asajj Novar"]

 

[Asajj Novar]

"That's uh.. That's a scary thought." Asajj suddenly felt very vulnerable after [member="Jairdain"] spoke about her potentially having become one of those who tortured her. She felt small, weak before the blind woman who could very well crush her if she wanted. She didn't want to think about that. Instead, she took another bite, falling utterly silent as she ate the delicious food.

 

[Jairdain]

Just because Jairdain had the ability to do what Asajj feared it was not something she would do. There were no signs to indicate this and it worried her that Asajj thought she would after she even said it.

"It is a scary thought, luckily I am not prone to doing such things and even when I was sith...I never truly fit."

Focusing on eating, the silence had changed and it had been her words that brought them to it. If she could have made eye contact with Asajj she would have.

"I'm not going to hurt you, Asajj. Promise. Words alone may not be able to say that, but I'm sorry."

[member="Asajj Novar"]