Hearts on Fire

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"]

Her head hurt, Kaili noted with eyes set on the woman’s temple. She had thought she wouldn’t find Kaili, and perhaps it was Kaili’s own fault for making her believe so, but here she was knowing the truth behind the entire situation. At least as much of it as Allyson could remember. So she had planned on going to her room then, but Kaili wasn’t a fan. Not at all.

“No.” She said and gently shook her head with an attempt to smile. “No, stay here. I will help you.” A hand reached for Allyson’s arm to help lead her towards the bed, albeit not for the same reason as last night. “If you lie down on the bed I will personally attend to you, help you with the headache and then give you room to clear your head and digest what has happened.”

“Just please, stay with me. Here.” Kaili begged and stepped closer to embrace Allyson. “I need you.”

“Let me take care of you.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson was embraced and held. She felt as if the embrace was there to hold on to her and keep her where she stood. On top of that she felt as if Kaili was reassuring herself that Allyson was actually there. Sighing softly, she knew she couldn't deny Kaili. As much as she wanted to just run away from all of this, Allyson nodded giving in to the pleas to stay. As Kaili held on, Allyson wrapped her arms around the other woman and gave her a tight squeeze for reassurance.

“You don't have to stay with me. Don't you have an entire planet ready to serve you at your every whim?” Allyson did her best to sound teasing as she pulled away slightly, mostly to get a look at the woman.

“You have work to do Kay, I can manage. You are this world's goddess..” She smiled and allowed the blonde to drag her back to bed for purposes that didn't mirror what happened the night before.

Allyson sat on the edge of the bed and caught her breath. The doctors did mention she would continue to have slight breathing issues as her lungs continue to rehabilitate and heal. Still it didn't come without discomfort. A hand held her chest as she stifled a deep cough in an attempt to not worry Kaili. Smiling, she looked over. “I should try and make a visit to Dr. [member="Hazel Zanteres"] for a follow up. This cough is something new but I'm not too worried about it.” Ally brushed it off and sighed, it was sudden and she hadn't realized how tired she was. [member="Kaili Talith"]

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"]

Kaili would in turn try to laugh at Allyson’s joke. She did have a whole planet to obey her every whim, they both had, and Kaili was indeed their goddess, but well…

“I am, but…” Kaili smiled, genuinely this time. “You are my goddess.”

“No, there is no divine intervention for today.” Kaili laughed as she eased Allyson down to sit on the corner of the bed, an errant snivel causing Kaili’s nose to itch like a nightmare. Hand moved up to mash it back and forth in order to bring it under wraps. “They will simply have to make do without me today. If it’s important they’ll leave a voicemail.”

Kaili let in a deep breath to still her nerves but found herself pausing, even if just for a moment, at the mention of Hazel ‘I can’t keep my hands to myself like a goddamn professional’ Zanteres. Unfortunate circumstances had left them with a rift between one another. One that Kaili wouldn’t be the first one to mend. Attempts had been made, of course, but it remained separated by quite the distance. At the very least Kaili could agree that she was Allyson’s overseeing doctor and as such she had to see her. Didn’t really matter what Kaili felt on the topic.

Nose scrunched with visible tension before Kaili let it go again. There was no point in arguing it.

“It’s that time, isn’t it?” She smiled at Allyson. “Wouldn’t hurt to get the cough checked. But for now…” Kaili eased her girlfriend-slash-fiancé-slash-amnesiac into the bed again. “You just relax, and let me get you a glass of water.”

“And maybe you’re hungry too? I could make you something to eat too. You just let me know, anything you ask.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

[SIZE=10pt]Allyson yawned and smiled at Kaili’s comment. It was nice to hear that she was important – more important than a whole nation that was under Kaili’s rule. Fingers scratched against her cheek as she pondered the woman’s choice in abandoning her positon for the day. It didn’t make too much sense why she would do so. There are more people vs Allyson in this sense and with her believing that Kaili was the woman she remembered in her dreams, the hardest part of the journey seemed to be over for the most part. There were of course some doubts in the back of her mind, especially after her botched attempted at reinstating her proposal to the girl. Still, she couldn’t focus on it too much. [/SIZE]

[SIZE=10pt]“Kaili, you don’t have to stay here. You have things to do. I can take care of myself and go about my day. It would be good for me to try and remember things…when I feel better I could wander around the place get a feel for it.” Looking around the room she used to share with Kaili she could feel the familiarity with it, but still something felt odd and out of place. Maybe she was the one that was odd and out of place. Sitting on the bed Allyson just wanted to return to the guest room, but Kaili seemed determined to keep her here. Closing her eyes, she needed to gather up some courage and go to a place where she felt comfortable. At this moment, she was being overwhelmed and the quietness and the recent familiarity of the guest room would do her good. [/SIZE]

[SIZE=10pt]“Kaili…I want to go to my room. I-I can’t be in here any longer…” She knew this was probably going to crush the girl who was so determined to take care of her, but Ally knew her mind. Her mind needed to rest and not continue to be bombarded with memories she couldn’t recall just yet. “I need to go to my room…I need it please.” Hands clutched the sides of her head as she hunched over and attempted to put her head onto her knees. It was too much too soon and she wanted to escape for just a moment to catch her breath. [member="Kaili Talith"][/SIZE]

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"]

The blonde girl was an emotional wreck and Allyson, at least the old Allyson, was the one who knew that the best. She’d known that Kaili would drop everything she had in a heartbeat to be around Allyson if she needed her. There was no greater good greater than Allyson, and if the choice was between the many and Allyson it was a choice that would have made itself before the threatening question was even asked. Kaili did not care for the greater good if that meant she’d lose the greatest pillar of stability that she had. She didn’t care if the whole world died around her for as long as Allyson wasn’t one of them. Few things were ever black-on-white, but this issue was.

As such she merely smiled when Allyson told her to go away and do the things she had to do. The best part about being a god was that nobody could tell you anything you didn’t want to do, and right now Kaili really did not feel like ‘having things to do’ at all. Nonetheless she smiled at Allyson as she laid down some measure of ‘rules’ to how they would spend the day. Separated, left to wander. Fair enough.

Then Allyson hunched over, wanted to go to her room and the smile on Kaili’s lips thinned out.

“Okay…” She felt her nose scrunch to fend off a frown. “If you need it then I can’t keep you.”

“I can help you there, if you- no, you’re a grown woman. You don’t need me to lead you to your room.” Kaili chuckled to still her nerves. “Just… Let me know if you need anything, okay?”

Kaili rose from the bed and extended her hand to help Ally out of bed. “I want to be there for you.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson looked towards Kaili through the mess of her brown hair. It was an odd reaction. The assumption was that Kaili would protest against this separation and demand that Allyson stay where just was. Kaili had been groomed to be a goddess and the thought made her chuckle. Though the chuckle remained unheard as Allyson listened to the woman's response.

“You already have been. I know you're here to help me, but it's just been so much at once Kaili. Like I said. I gave you the time frame, but I had already made up my mind to end my life. I was just giving you time.” Allyson used the hand that was offered to her and then pulled it back after she had stood up with adjusted balance. “but you've told me the person I was without is you. Which completely changed my plans and what I had come to terms with. Trust me, I'm happy and relieved that you're still alive and that you are well…” Allyson paused and tried to think of a good word. “...you're you.”

Sighing softly she began to make her way to her room. Keeping conversation going as she walked towards her bedroom door. “it's just so much, one moment I'm ready and willing to die the next I'm determined to live.” As much as Allyson wanted to include her failed proposal, she knew it would only sound as if she was trying to guilt the girl into the promised relationship. Arriving at her door, Allyson paused and looked at Kaili. Her back against the door, the woman nodded and smiled through the pain of her headache. “I will let you know if I need anything. Thank you Kaili” a slight bow and the door opened behind her. The Corellian slipped in an headed towards the small bed probably smaller than her bed in the hospital but it would do.

Peace and quiet lingered and Kaili would be left to do her job, leaving Allyson to search for her memories. [member="Kaili Talith"]

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"]

As far as doing her job went Kaili wouldn’t actually do much at all. Once the peace had settled, and once Allyson had been left to her own devices Kaili would venture out for a long walk around the area. She had left the Corellian with a glass of water, painkillers and something to soothe the coughing if she had so desired to take it. As much as Kaili didn’t see the point, or rather didn’t want to do it, she kept herself away. If Allyson needed time to let things melt and to organize the facts she had been struck with, then that was exactly what Kaili would give her with a promise that she would make an arrangement for her to meet Hazel.

Which was a promise she only really got around to fulfilling once she knew she was safe from prying ears and eyes. A message would be relayed to [member="Hazel Zanteres"] desk ranging from a numerous amount of topics spanning ‘I hate you, but you have a purpose in my world’ to a plain message for the doctor to ‘come over, fix her up and get lost’ as well as instructions on how to get to Kiara, if she so had to. She had of course phrased it as politely and professionally as she could. Kaili was upfront under most circumstances, but that didn’t mean she had to be any less polite or be outright crude. There was enough of a verbal assault in there to get the message across, yet enough kindness to have it reek of a passive-aggressive temper tantrum.

Kaili Talith — class act. That was who she was. A guard was told to inform Allyson of the arrangement.

Returning to the estate she would proceed to make way towards the kitchen to get something to eat. Afternoon was upon them and the sun was beginning to set. Down below the boats were still travelling across Lake Klare to the abandoned city, yet the joy Kaili had found in it felt distant. Looking out across the grand garden that separated it from her own master bedroom she couldn’t help but frown as she poured herself a cup of tea.

She had Allyson back, so why did this underlying anger remain? It didn’t make sense. At all.

Cup to her lips she proceeded to step out into the flowery garden and the greater balcony spanning the entire cliffside, much like her own balcony did. This was where she had practiced with Master Keer when she had felt this way. Both hands on her cup she proceeded to approach the edge and stare down at the boats.

Had Allyson woken up at this point, or if she was out and about she would be asked if she wanted to see Kaili, and if so that she was in the garden. Otherwise, well, at least the blonde hadn’t been a stranger to spending the evening alone-

No. That was not fair to Allyson.

Hand dragged itself across Kaili’s face to stave off the pain as it had so many times before and wipe away the tears she held off. Had she made a mistake by saying no to Allyson?

 

[Allyson Locke]

The door shut behind her and Allyson was left alone in the room. It was a room she had grown to accept as her own and it was a place she could hide from the bombardment of hazy memories. The woman was short of breath, she had been all morning and for most of the evening. It wasn't something new, she has suffered with this for the past few weeks. The doctor claimed she would eventually get better, but there was nothing more to be done for the damage her lungs had taken while in zero gravity and no oxygen.

Slowly, Allyson pushed herself from the door and wandered carefully to her bed. It had been made up since she had last slept in it the other night. It still felt surreal sharing a bed with the master of the house and then finding out that she was the woman she had been looking for. Sleep was in order she knew she needed it. Closing her eyes she quickly fell into a slumber.

She had woken up a few hours later to a note from a guard and some painkillers. Taking the drugs and reading the message she sighed. At least the doctor was coming which was a good thing. With notice she was awake the guard entered the room and questioned the young Corellian if she would want to see Kaili. It was a heavy question and she pondered it. Of course she wanted to see her, but something held her back. Why all of a sudden did she not want to see her? Allyson shook her head, “Not right now. I'm still not feeling well enough.” The guard nodded and went to relay the message.

Why was she being like this? Selfish reasons? Probably. Allyson curled up in the bed and focused heavily on the conversation they had in the morning hours. It didn't go along with how the Corellian assumed the meeting with her fiancee would go, but still she didn't think she'd be upset about it. Groaning she could feel another heavy cough. Reaching over, she grabbed the stained cloth she used to cough in. Opening it she coughed heavily into and the pulled it away.
Bright red dots stained the fabric, they covered up older stains of blood. Allyson sighed and bundled the fabric and tossed it on to her dresser. “It's getting worse. Great.”

[member="Hazel Zanteres"] [member="Kaili Talith"]

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

After having given Allyson the initial all clear to return home, Hazel had kept tabs on the Corellian to keep an eye on her condition. As while she was able to leave the Galactic Alliance facility, there were still some complications that would linger for a time. It was a question of whether they would become a permanent thing or not. So she wasn't too surprised when she received the call for a check up, although she wasn't expecting the messages to be from Kaili Talith.

Albeit she really should've, given the fact the blonde was essentially Allyson's carer for the time being. And her love, her fiancee...

Hazel grimaced at the reminder of that whole mess. The Hapan was glad nothing had escalated from that, other than the seething hatred the Borleian held towards her. As made rather apparent in the messages she had sent, ones that were impossible not to parse the tone hidden between the words.

She could almost picture the blonde's face as she was typing them up. Hazel sighed before sending a quick response saying she'd be there as soon as possible.

-x-​

​

It had taken a bit, but Hazel had managed to find her way to Kiara. After getting through clearance, she was directed to a specific landing pad, one she presumed was attached to Kaili Talith's residence. The Hapan let out an impressed whistle as she took in the sight of it from this side of the cockpit window.

Hazel let out a ragged breath, taking the moment to calm the nerves that had settled during the journey. It was rare that the Hapan got nervous about seeing a patient at their own residence, and for the most part this was just another usual home visit. Albeit it was also the very same home of the woman who had caught her kissing Allyson. No matter the 'reason' behind it, it was still that.

She couldn't help but feel she was walking right into a lion's den.

Stepping off her ship, Hazel was greeted by two guards, who she assumed had been sent there to escort her into the building itself. The Hapan was dressed in her usual attire whenever she was on duty. Primarily consisting of her long white coat and thin black turtleneck. Hanging over one shoulder was her satchel.

"I'm Doctor Hazel Zanteres, I'm here to check up on Miss Locke."

[member="Kaili Talith"] | [member="Allyson Locke"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

One of the men approached with Allyson’s message; it was a no. Brows furrowed and eyes closed. Disappointment laced with understanding. She had probably bombarded the Corellian with too much information too fast just like the SIS had told her quite specifically not to do. The rest of the tea was devoured in a quick chug and the cup was left at the table by her side for one of the servants to come pick up later. Kaili had other things in mind, other business to attend to. She had a company to run, right? Or rather, a collective of creators living off of her riches much like the people at the base of this very mountain did. A sigh burst through Kaili’s nose as she stepped into her room and took her seat by her desk. Hours came to pass before one of the cleaners came knocking on her door, brought forth a stained piece of cloth.

No, these were not just any stain, these were bloodstains. Kaili covered her mouth with her hand to hide her shock. The servant excused herself and Kaili would proceed to nod them off as the surprise began to set in. Was this what she had done? Elbows rested on the desk’s edge for a second before she dragged the hand across her face again and looked at the rag in her grasp. She dropped it against its polished surface and made a twirl towards the balcony. Fresh air would do her good, right? Worked every other time she felt this way in the last month, had it not?

Yeah, fresh air. That would help her with this.

One step onto the balcony and a quick look at the still moving boats. Why did she obsess about that?! Why was it that the movement of farking boats was all she could think to look for? Why was it that this entire world was so set on giving her this title she did not want? She needed an escape. Her eyes began darting from one place to the other before they set on the bottle by the balustrade edge. It was far from an ideal escape, but it worked for others, right? She was just like anyone else, she could...

Well, maybe she could too.

One hand grabbed one of the glasses, the other at the bottle. She moved the lip of the bottle towards the glass’ edge before it quickly retracted. Her grasp around the glass jerked towards over the edge of the balcony and let it go with a throw. The butt of the bottle poked at the second glass to tip it over the edge and as the sound of glass crushed against the rock below she gave the bottle a quick look and a chug.

The regret was instant. What was she doing? As far as escapism went this was just pathetic, even more so than she usually was. The bottle followed suit after the glasses, its shattering carcass falling on deaf ears as Kaili slumped into the pool of wine that had trailed behind her back, across her shoulder and chest and subsequently the ground below like purpur specks of regret. Silent tears poured as her back found itself leaning against one of the spindles in the balustrade.

Just fark everything. Every single thing. Micah, Allyson, the entire situation could just go fark itself. Just this once, right? Didn’t seem too much to ask for, but what did Kaili know about that? It seemed as far as happiness was concerned it was all she ever did in the end, even if it took four freaking years to get there.

So Kaili remained seated, her body eventually too weak to keep on for the night simply fell over and forced her to wallow in her own self-pity much as she always did until morning arrived.

---

The sound of a knock forced Kaili to wake up, the sound of a guard’s hurriedly shuffling feet was followed by her subsequently also being lifted from the ground to ensure she was okay. Kaili waved the man off with a cough and aching back, but he did not leave her alone. Instead he would lead her to the bed and only then would he leave her alone again. A hand moved up to rub at her sore neck and back.

“I’m fine.” Kaili waved him off in pain. “Just go. I am fine.”

He nodded his head and rushed back out of the door again. Kaili hoped that would be the end of it, but something told her that it wasn’t. Her back found the mattress and the memories therein. Shet. Like shot out of a cannon, the blonde stood and turned back to look at the bed. That thing was what had started everything. Where Kaili had farked up and said no.

A servant came in with a change of clothes and a message. Hazel was here. Lips thinned, nose scrunched and brows furrowed. Kaili didn’t need this. She really, really did not need this.

“Tell them I am in my room if they need anything.” Kaili groaned and grabbed the change of clothes. “And tell the doctor that I expect her to live up to what I told her in the Alliance hospital as well.”

Professionalism.

The servant left, and Kaili stepped into the refresher. The guards would at the time let Hazel in to see Allyson, one of the guards making quite the unsubtle move to stand guard inside the room. Special orders that fell on him, no matter how uncomfortable he’d feel about having to watch his second goddess get checked. His head shook. Screw that.

“I will be outside if you two need anything.” He said and stepped out again. What was Kaili going to do, fire him? He had other options available to him. “Forget that.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson slept for most of the evening with moments where she had gotten up to get some water or something to snack on. She remained in her room mostly to avoid running into Kaili at this moment. She didn’t know what to say to her or how to really react. There was so much that had happened and so much she wished she remembered. Sitting on the bed, she looked out the small window and wondered what it would have been like to live here knowing everything and understanding the relationship she had with Kaili. She felt as if she was living another person’s life, as if the Allyson Locke she was, wasn’t the Allyson Locke that Kaili knew.

She coughed again and this time it began to hurt. Instead of the small fabric towel, that seemed to have gone missing at some point of the evening and early morning – Allyson coughed into her hand. She looked down and realized that the blood wasn’t bright red any more. The dark clotted looking mucus dripped and stained her hand. Cursing, she searched her room for a towel and wiped it. She did her best to hide the evidence, but unknown to the Corellian – [member="Kaili Talith"] already knew. Doing a quick clean up, Allyson paused to catch her breath. Time passed quickly as she remained in the bedroom. She gathered clothing for the day and moved to the refresher.

Allyson wasn’t aware that the good old Dr. [member="Hazel Zanteres"] would be making a house call today, so she continued doing what she needed to do. The room was picked up, the refresher emitted steam and the sound of coughing echoed as Allyson did her best to get as much of the bloody mucus from her throat as possible. Yet the more she did it, the more it hurt and it seemed like a never-ending supply. The water shut off and the bloody water made its way down the drain, Allyson reached for a towel and wiped the corner of her mouth. She brushed her teeth for what felt like the trillionth time this day and wrapped the towel around her frame. Voices echoed from the main part of her room and being suspicious, the Corellian stopped and listened intently. A voice was one she knew for the most part, but the other hadn’t made a peep. Poking her wet head from around the corner of the bathroom, she came face to face with her primary doctor.

“Wow, just couldn’t stay away eh doctor?” A toothy grin spread across the Corellian’s as she crossed her arms over her chest. She stifled a cough, mostly to remain in her glorious towel covered stance and to get the doctor to not worry and give her a clean bill of health. “I’m surprised you found me, I was meaning to call you about some things that have come up.” Arms remained across her body as the grin faded, “Uh how was your trip?”

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

As she was being escorted onto and through the premises, Hazel couldn't help but just look around at everything. The residence was certainly sizable, especially so for just one or two people to live in. It made her wonder what exactly Kaili Talith did for a living that she could afford the place, and that was just seeing the place from the outside. Once she walked through the doors, the Hapan was immediately drawn to how extravagant the interiors seemed to be.

Eventually though the two guards stopped outside of a room, one of them men took up position outside the door, while the other opened it and allowed the Hapan in. Immediately she took note of the room, neat and tidy to a point Hazel was almost going to ask the guard whether they had gotten the right room. But the sounds of running water coming from the bathroom alerted her to the fact Allyson was present.

She turned around to face the second guard, who initially made a point that he wasn't going to budge from his position within the room. Hazel wasn't shocked by it, hell she had expected that Kaili would have someone posted to keep an eye on her.

Couldn't blame her either.

However the man seemed to be conflicted about it, and before the Hapan knew it, he had left the room too. She gave him a polite nod in response to his statement.

Moments later, she heard the water stop. Hazel turned around just as Allyson came around the corner. She let out a small chuckle, shaking her head at the Corellian's comment. The Hapan's eyes seemed to instinctively linger on her towel-clad body before snapping up to her face.

"Yeah, seems Miss Talith thought ahead and contacted me to come. Said you wanted a check up on a few things?" A look of concern crossed Hazel's face, her mind quickly drumming up thoughts on potential issues. She shrugged in response to Allyson's question. "Pretty uneventful, only fuss was following the directions to the planet. Other than that, nothing."

Silence fell for a moment, Hazel just standing there, keeping her gaze fixed to the Corellian's face and nowhere else.

"I can step out for a moment, let you get dressed?"

[member="Kaili Talith"] | [member="Allyson Locke"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

Showers usually worked, but not now. Soaked head weighed heavy as an arm kept her propped up and out of the floor’s beckoning reach. Kaili knew she was just reaching for familiarity at this point and to seek what she had with Allyson before. In the last twenty-four hours she had acted without much of a concern for anyone other than herself and in the end she had gotten burned. That was the real cause of this. Too much too fast and the spark had been ignited with a backfire. The water rushed along Kaili’s neck and shoulders, down her back until it simply didn’t feel like it had a point anymore. The refresher stopped its onslaught. A shivered sob parted through gritted teeth but Kaili held the tears back. She had no right to be sad about this, she had no one to blame but herself. Hand reached for a towel to dry herself.

Hair first, body following in a sloppy sweep that left her just barely more dry than wet. She could have done it properly, but quite frankly Kaili didn’t feel like it. There were other more pressing issues on her mind. Lazily putting her shirt on, her pants and socks there was nothing to keep her from another day’s work doing…

Feth all.

Kaili twirled in her seat with a groaning sigh. It stopped and pointed her towards the balcony. Screw it. It was meant to point that way then. Getting out of her chair she shrugged and approached the railing of her balcony again and looked down at the cliffs below.

Somewhere down there, a wine bottle laid smashed worth hundreds of credits.

Headshake. Why was she being like this?

Depression, probably. One that lacked all measure of stability with no lack for extreme loneliness and outright jealousy over the ‘welcomed’ guest in their home. The kid took a seat on the balustrade and looked back inside her room to stare at the door leading into her sanctum. The messenger would arrive by now, probably.

Most likely already had actually. Ideally also left the message.

---

A hand carefully knocked against the Corellian’s door and in stepped a woman in her thirties. Timid, careful not to give any odd looks to infuriate anyone. Perhaps because of Kaili’s own palpable frustrations, or maybe not, in the end it didn’t matter. Her message was all that did.

“Revered Mistress Talith will be at her room if you need anything.” Her voice meek with the utmost reverence to Allyson. “And, she also told me to tell you both that the doctor is to remember what she told her at the hospital too.”

The servant had no idea what that meant, of course, but she bowed regardless and began to make way for the door and stepped out.

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson really had no shame and she looked at the doctor slightly puzzled at the sudden urge to give privacy. The doctor had probably seen the Corellian in her nothings during the time at the hospital, not to mention they’ve locked lips before. There really wasn’t anything more to hide at this point, but Allyson decided to tease and play the game with the doctor knowing that Kaili was probably fuming where she was. “You act like you’ve never seen a naked woman before, but okay.” She shook her head. “You’re fine where you are – get set up I’ll change into something comfortable so you can give me my check up.”

As Allyson pulled a shirt and other clothing down from her closet, the woman that usually carried Kaili’s messages about entered the room. Looking at her, she listened to the message and nodded. “Thanks, I’ll let her know if I need her.” Allyson disappeared and reappeared rather quickly in the t shirt and short cotton shorts. Folding her arms in front of her, she stared hard at the floor and off to the side. “I discovered recently that Kaili is the girl that I was seeing in my memory relapses while I slept. I don’t fully remember everything nor do I see her face when I do remember the hazy memories, but something tells me she wouldn’t lie about it.” Shrugging, Allyson let out a sigh. “I just feel overwhelmed by everything, I kind of let myself get caught up and proposed again?” A cringy smile spread across her face as she shook her head, it was quite embarrassing and now that she thought about it – completely uncalled far.

“So, I’m trying to remember her on my own. Anyways, not the reason why you were called…” Allyson shifted uncomfortably as she wandered to a drawer. Opening it, Hazel would come face to face with several cloth napkins showing different ranges of stain sizes with blood. “It wasn’t so bad when it started, but over time it’s gotten worse. I uh, feel like I coughed up my lung in the shower earlier…it’s also really dark and smells weird.”

Chuckling nervously, Allyson tried to force a smile. “Nothing serious, right?” [member="Kaili Talith"] [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

Hazel shook her head slightly, it wasn't a matter of whether she had seen people naked before, or Allyson specifically. Back in the medical facility it had been expected, especially given the fact the Hapan had been specifically called upon to care for the agent. Instead, it was more about the fact they were not in her home, somewhere that had an established sense of deceny and privacy.

That and the looming fact Kaili was likely keeping tabs on what was going on in her house.

As the Corellian went about selecting her clothes, Hazel moved over to the nearby table and placed her satchel on it. With a quick flick of her hand the straps were loosened and the Hapan began taking out some equipment, placing them out beside the bag. That was when the servant entered, Hazel glancing over as the door opened noting the woman's posture and how she spoke.

It wasn't the fact she was a servant that made Hazel frown.

"Revered Mistress?" She asked, not really expecting an answer to her thoughts. Was Kaili worshipped or something? And Allyson too for that matter.

Hazel shook the thought away as Allyson returned dressed. She looked at the woman with a curious expression, wondering why she immediately began to stare down at the floor. Though that quickly changed to her eyebrows raising up in surprise at Allyson's words. The topic of the Corellian's memory loss was something that had been on Hazel's mind for a long while. Wondering and hoping that the two would take it slow in trying to reconnect what had been lost.

It seemed that wasn't the case, and at least to Hazel it felt too soon for that revelation to suddenly fall on Allyson's shoulders.

"And how do you feel since having that confirmed?" Albeit how much of that was really a 'confirmation', with Kaili revealing the information but Allyson still holding the muddled memories and dreams, being unable to visually place the Borleian's face with the woman she saw. "If it helps, I also believe that Miss Talith wouldn't lie about it." Although that said nothing about her thoughts on the woman's impulsive action.

When Allyson pulled the drawer open, Hazel didn't need a motion of the hand to know the woman wanted to show her something. And upon walking over and peering in, the Hapan's expression quickly evaporated. Her gaze flickered over to Allyson, to say the doctor had a serious look in her eyes would be understating it.

"After you were discharged from the facility, how long after did this begin to happen?" She asked, stepping back over to the desk to grab a pair of medical gloves. Hazel slipped them on then returned to the draw and began to examine the bloodied napkins carefully.

[member="Kaili Talith"] | [member="Allyson Locke"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

Deep breath.

She was just being jealous, and there was no point to jealousy. Allyson was being tended to by a doctor, and that was just how it worked when you had once been near-death. It was just an average check up and Allyson was simply being tended to by a doctor. Just a doctor. Nothing more than a doctor. A doctor that had made out with her right before Kaili’s eyes, but still just a doctor.

Doctor. Doc. Doccy. Doctorius. Just a doctor.

The doors open, eyes set on the servant she had sent to deliver the message. The servant got close, whispered the details of the room back at the goddess. Allyson, naked, doctor staring, message delivered. Kaili of course got hung up on just the one thing.

“SHE WAS WHAT, AND THE DOCTOR WAS WH-?!” Senses were lost and then regained. Lips pursed, head bowed in silence at the servant and Kaili returned to silence once more. “Thank you, you may go.”

No, it was just how these things worked. Allyson had to be naked because of reasons. Good reasons. Probably good reasons. Good enough reasons for Kaili to not wander over no matter how much her nerves told her she had to.

Screw it.

Kaili pushed herself off the balcony and into her her bedroom again. Her butt found her chair, her eyes the screen of her private computer. Three gentle strokes on its holographic keyboard and the house would begin to buzz with new electronic life, each data feed providing audio that remained unheard, but not unknown.

The perks of being an expert in her field.

The bug in Allyson’s room woke up.

“If it helps, I also believe that Miss Talith wouldn’t lie about it.”

The bugs died, all of them, in an instant.

Kaili backed away from the computer again contemplating what to do, anxiety ramping up by the second.

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson would have answered the doctor's questions about how she felt about the confirmation of [member="Kaili Talith"] being the woman from memories, but something in the way the doctor looked at her about the bloody hankerchiefs made her realize this wasn't something she should have kept quiet for the time she did. Allyson looked up and thought about how long this had been occurring. It felt like it was something that had been happening for quite some time and she remembered doing it early on when she had first come out of her coma.

That time though it died off and the doctor had been around to monitor it. Sighing softly, Allyson felt a hand nervously rub the back of her neck. She could already tell that any answer she gave was going to be unacceptable to [member="Hazel Zanteres"]. “Well...about a day or two after I was discharged. It wasn't an everyday occurrence.”

Feet shifted uncomfortably. This wasn't how she wanted to deal with this. Maybe she should have kept her mouth shut on wanting to see the doctor. Although, mostly she wanted to see the doctor for some other reasons...an older crush that would never amount to anything beyond what it already was, but even so that wouldn't warrant Allyson going out of her way to call the doctor. No, Allyson had a new reason to desire living and she neglected this issue until now.

“It's been getting progressively worse. Even with cough suppressants it happens a good number of times during the day. When I have a big one like I did earlier in the shower I'm pretty good.” She said this but as she finished a stifled cough came behind closed lips. Even then Allyson couldn't keep whatever bloody mess came up locked behind them and soon spit it up in a tissue she grabbed quickly off her dresser. “It's...it's really nothing doctor. “

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

"You should've gotten in contact the moment you started coughing up blood." Hazel's tone was on that professional level of remaining neutral, but also sharp. Her examination of the drawer's contents were halted as she glanced over at Allyson. There was no denying the look of disappointment on the doctor's face as she looked at her. But that was gone rather quickly as Hazel sighed, her eyes lingering back over the napkins.

She cursed quietly, enough that the Corellian wouldn't hear. It was clear to Hazel at least that she had missed something. On the eve of Allyson's departure from the facility, the Hapan had done a thorough checkup to ensure there wasn't any lingering complications that would require her remaining. There had been nothing that warranted it, beyond prescribing the Corellian some medication to help with the inevitable coughing.

But now she was coughing up blood, mere days after leaving? How had that been missed?

Hazel's mind was spinning with different thoughts. Perhaps the medication was having a side effect? Or could there have been something that went unnoticed during the various scans. Maybe Allyson pulling the plug on the machines had done more damage than originally thought, and more so the healing Hazel attempted wasn't enough - or even made it worse somehow.

So many things were swirling about, only to be snapped back to reality the moment Allyson began coughing. There was immediately concern on Hazel's face as she walked up to the Corellian. She reached forwards and grasped Allyson's hands, who had been clutching the tissue shut after spitting into it. Hazel said nothing, but gently pried her hands so she could see the contents of it. Blood, with a tiny bit of something darker lingering in it.

"Go and lay down on the bed." She ordered, her tone serious as she took the tissue from Allyson's hands and placed it in the drawer with the others. Afterwards, she moved over to the table and began looking for something specific. "You said before, that when you had a coughing fit in the shower it was darker, and that it smelled, right?"

[member="Kaili Talith"] | [member="Allyson Locke"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

And then there Kaili was again, pacing back and forth in her room worrying about the likelihood that Allyson had just felt what she did. She clearly had retained her ability in the force, as small as it was. She had sabotaged the machine on instinct when in bed, who was to say she wouldn’t feel the bugs around the house flare to life and then promptly extinguish a second later. Kaili could have gone over and check for herself, but at this point she was in too deep to do so. The girl was nothing if not stubborn, and when pride came into the mix there would be more than just the one issue. Throw in jealousy as well and you had volatile recipe for disaster.

Kaili’s back found a corner and she slumped down on her butt. Arms rested upon her knees, her eyes against her forearms. It was all too much. She couldn’t hold the nerves back. Tears streamed to the unheard company of sobbing. The burden of the world felt destined to crush her, and with the lack of support she felt more alone than she ever had before. Yet this surge of emotion was something she had never felt before. She had come so close to everything she had asked for in the last month and then felt it slip from her fingers. She had a brother in a deep coma being corrupted from within by the darkside, and then there was a woman in her very home who had driven a brief wrench in her happiness.

Of course she was freaking out. It felt like all she could do.

The tears streamed and she remained in her corner.

It was just too much. The stress was too real and the effects it had were unbearable. Just one mess after the other, never any rest between them.

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson grew fearful. The tone the doctor had was a bit alarming in a sense. Something flashed to life then shut down quickly. Blinking, Allyson looked around and tried to figure out what that feeling was. All the training Kaili had given her remained dormant inside of her, instead this immense feeling of helplessness washed over her. The Corellian had no idea where it came from, but the first person that popped into her head was Kaili. Why though? Why now did she think of the blonde?

Her attention was drawn back to reality when the doctor took the tissue and ordered her to bed. Allyson moved slowly and sat down on the edge of the bed and stared at [member="Hazel Zanteres"]. What was going on? “Uh yeah, it was dark and it smelled like old meat or something rotten. Today was the first day that happened…” Allyson paused and then remembered what she had done at the hospital. Instantly regretting it, she sighed and looked away. Wanting to die before she even allowed herself to try and remember was so idiotic. Now here she was not wanting to die at all and she might do so anyway.

A hand found its place against her forehead. She suddenly felt very alone and she didn't want to feel like that again. Allyson wondered if her request, the one she wanted to make since the doctor arrived would be honored or if denying Kaili to see her would be the reason the woman decided to stay away. The hand that had been resting on her forehead slid down and covered her face. “I didn't think anything of it. Mostly because I assumed it would just go away. I didn't want to go back to the hospital and do nothing.” The hand fell and her eyes looked towards the door. “Please tell me I'm not dying, Kaili has been through enough with me.”

Eyes fell back on the doctor and Allyson continued to fight with herself. She wasn't ready to face Kaili again after the failed proposal, but she didn't want to be alone. “I need Kaili...please can she just be here?”

[member="Kaili Talith"]