Be an English teacher, then. But only if you can remember that you're not allowed to set 'kill yourself' as a piece of homework. Not even in the literary sense i.e. "Write about killing yourself in as much creative detail as you can. Include how, when, how long it takes and why you chose this method. Bonus marks will be given if you can talk about your state of mind at the time, leading up to this." Seriously, not a good piece of writing!