Kelsie Sylvan
Tired Trigger Finger
Shambhala-class Science Vessel Baobab
20:36 Coruscant Standard Time
20:36 Coruscant Standard Time
So... been thinking back to some of the stuff Missy told me. Funny how the words of a droid stick with you. Maybe it's because they're always right? Guess that's why I'm trying this. Anyways, a journal to put my thoughts in is supposed to be healthy or something. For when I'm working through stuff.
I'm working through stuff.
It'll be a few more entries before I get into everything. Right now I'm on a science vessel headed to Cosm's Well. Playing it straight, for credits, actually. Every time something happens I feel so naive, so stupid. Before all the shenanigans that brought me here, money was never an object. Didn't care about it. Always had enough for what I needed. I worked, yeah, so I think I was better than the crazy credit pinchers and accountants and super-rich Coruscant elite. Working for pay is... new. I haven't decided if it's the nice new or the bad new. Write about that later, if I remember to pick up this journal again.
It's pretty poor out here. But the wildlife gets wilder every step of our journey. Sometimes I think I can feel the Force, if I find a quiet place to sit on some of these planets. Or maybe it's just gravity sickness. The cosmic phenomena are getting weirder too.
Poor guys. They were delicious. Didn't even run. Livestock, maybe? The locals didn't seem to harvest them often.
Don't know many of the people aboard. Plaisei would probably have my hide if he were here. Or if any of them were here...
Anyways, the only person I know is Amea Virou . Heard her bragging about her chocolate supply the other day. She was probably too loud. Saw a girl walking out of her room, licking the chocolate off her fingers. Maybe I should tell Amea... but the chocolate here is really expensive.
The captain is a Jedi I'm pretty sure. Shira Varanin, I think her name was. I guess I don't have a problem with them, but being around Jedi always puts me a little on edge. Old habits die hard, something like that. Still, doesn't seem like a normal Jedi -- saw her lugging a big gun onto the ship today. There's this robed guy who fits the bill a little better. Seemed to run off and do his own thing often. Wasn't very social.
I'm not very social either. Where'd that go? I should make friends again.
Keep fumbling around. Don't know how to live. Every time I think I do it's a stupid gimmick, somebody else's dream or cause. I gotta find my own rhythm... my squad. My family.
I'll go tell Amea. Maybe we can share some chocolate instead.
Journal entry end.