I seen better days. (Xander)(Ask)

[Maya Carrick]

Being that this wasn't what she thought it would be when she was brought back after the battle. The week she been back had been very closely watched from that point on. Longing to be back in her element to be able to go out into the forest to lose herself like on the many hunts. Now being trapped inside stone. Could feel all that was put into to make the stone. One would see it as a curse upon them. To be able to see be on what others couldn't see with the naked eyes.


Finding the one place she could take sanctuary. In this place of hers own she called about all that would give her the peace she would need in the up coming weeks or even years. As she form the bond with those others plants. Finding herself always in a meditation to open herself up to all that had life with in their own leaves and flowers.

There facing that the guards could see inside of every little moment she made. Her being who she was didn't care if her form was view with what given in birth still sometimes she wanted to be alone with out watchful eyes.

This bring up something upon the place a great mist by forming the droplets of the air to from to her own well that was where she was now. Lost with in her own prison. This the guards had called upon one of the newest master of the orders to come deal with this to bring the curtain down. [member="Xander Carrick"].

Inside was a different there Maya laid on her fur pelts curled in a ball. Not wanting to be seen. Yes there was other ways she could hide herself for her this was better then disappearing all the way in the force. This was her personal time letting go what she keep inside of her for so long her heart was bleeding out what had happen what was to come. As many things had been put into motion even those that she didn't understand of yet. This path she walk was her own choosing that was what she would do. Unless there was someone that would come by her side to walk this path that she so dangerous came to the edge each time.

 

[Garza]

Either this would be a good day, or this would be very awkward.

There was no need to be in formal clothing. as such, I wore simple clothes of a shirt and pants. pair of combat boots that were open enough at the top to let my pant leg be stuffed in there. I felt weird without it there since I have done this for the past few years. But that was nothing to my thoughts of what had happened within the past few weeks to months.

Falling in love with a Zeltron woman, [member="Maya Whitelight"], and then her joining the One Sith and helping them. Bringing information to them, and then got captured. What she didn't know of yet, is that I had thrown away my ranks as a Jedi for her. I would go to war for her, and yet she wanted to join in that war on the other side. My own emotions were jumbled up. Part of me just wanted to walk up and slap her across the face. chewing her out on leaving and forcing me to make a decision that could have ended both of our lives. However, the other side of me wanted to go to her and just hug her and kiss her. Being separated for a time all I wanted was to be in her presence.

I was still making my mind as I came to the windowed covered room. However, it was covered with a mist to hide behind. I could hardly see inside. About the only way I could see anything in there is if it was up against the glass. Nodding to the guards who stood outside the doors. One turned around and pressed his hand against the door. it beeped from the sensor and opened. Walking in, I could hear as the door closed behind me, and my skin could feel the moisture in the air. Moving towards the bed that was in the center of the room. The form of a woman laid there with a multitude of furs and blankets. I breathed in, and walked forwards. Sitting at her side, I slowly removed the blankets from her head.

I could see the dark blue hair first before seeing the pink skin of her face. Sleeping. I heaved a sigh and decided on what to do. Leaning down I kissed her cheek. it had been what seemed to be forever since I had seen her in person. Only visuals were that of holo recordings and the incident in the Council chambers. Only if she was awake. I wanted to talk to her. Make sure that she was safe and they had treated her well considering the circumstances.

[member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Sleeping she had been but not where she couldn't feel the present coming into her own sanctuary. Not expecting was the way he had kissed her softly on the cheek. Far from deserving that and what she put him through. If only he knew the full truth of the matter.

"I told them I wasn't going to eat, why can you all just leave me to myself.", as she didn't open her eyes. Even so she stir just enough to open her eyes slowly. As the pink show like bright pink moon stones. After that she went to see what of his own eyes looking at her.

"Xander, I'm...I'mmm...", as she put his finger tip to her mouth to hush her for him to speak. Something more happen as she felt herself being uncovered more then lifted into his arms. They was like the day they first met. It was the tears that came that followed more so then every now. "I'm made a mess,", she just wanted it all to go way and stop. Why had she done what she did even she didn't know why. [member="Xander Carrick"]

 

[Garza]

With her reaction, she may have seemed asleep, but she was not. Saying that she had told them she was not going to eat. That was fine with me. Partly. I wanted her to eat to bring up her strength. When you are a "captive" you would eat to keep your strength up. and it was time that I talked to her. However, she moved my hand to her lips and motioned for me to be silent after she had mentioned my name. I only looked at her as she continued to speak. Saying that she had made a mess. Nodding my head I moved my hand to be on the side of her face.

"I know, I know." Taking her hand within my other. I kissed her hand, ​"You certainly have done that darling." I just looked at her. Unable to speak. Not even to ask her the questions that I had on my mind. Now that I saw here, all I wanted to do was hold her. All I could do was ask her one question that everybody asked once in their life to someone they cared for. "Are you okay?"

There were so many things to say no too. She could tell me about anything, and I would probably not be surprised. Hell, if she even said that she was pregnant I wouldn't doubt it. But I just wanted to talk to her. Simply to hear her voice and to be near her.

[member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Those words came out of his mouth are you okay. Looking away to some of her plants that she had put around her. Some moment passed before her own eyes came back to him to searching his eyes for something that was there all the time. "Xander, oh Xander I don't know if I'll every be okay.", thoughts flow from her mind.

Also, something had to be said but could she find the voice to tell him after all he was the only one that could be the father. Raising her hand to his cheek only to find herself last for words once again. Finding her lips to kiss his forehead then the tip of his nose. "I want so much for us to be able to go back to that place." Before she spoke of anything else letting her remember that time he took her out of the temple. Having felt and seen so much blood shed and death.

Holding her own breath now as she softly lay a kiss on his cheek. "You must know that I ...didn't know myself until they had me go through physical."

Looking deeply into Xander eyes like those of jewels to her own pink eyes. Taking his hand from her cheek before she could speak. There came the door entered into the room was another of the healers with a plate of food. Stopping looking down at both of them, almost with an understanding of what was going on. "Maya you need to eat, if not for yourself think...", before she could let this one get the words out of her mouth.


"That enough, you can go,", looking at the food plus one of those fruit drinks on the side of her bed. Watching with her own eyes for her go leave them along. Why, can't they just leave me a lone can they see I want to be by myself. I ...oh Xander [member="Xander Carrick"]...please..I don't want you to go."

 

[Garza]

Her words were not convincing. But she told me the truth. Saying that she didn't know if she could ever go back to how she once was. I already knew that. As much as I may have wanted that and wished for that, it would not come true. and truthfully, I wanted her the way she was. She was a beautiful and very independent woman. One that I cared dearly for. Ha, in fact more than any other person that I have known. I nodded to her and she kissed my forehead and nose. Speaking again saying she didn't know herself until they had a physical. I looked at her confused only to be stopped when a Healer of the Silver Jedi came in. Saying that if not for her than for someone. She was cut off by Maya and she continued to speak.

I grabbed her hand. As she asked me to not leave, I looked at her with a serious look. "Maya, I would never leave you. I will always find you and be there for you." Pulling myself towards her, I kissed her forehead. and rubbed her arm. "This is hard of me to ask, but in order for us to fix all of this, to try and reassemble our lives, I need to know everything about the truth." I then closed my eyes, trying to not seem like the bad guy here. "Maya, I need to know what happened since I last saw you, and everything that comes in relevant play up to now."

I didn't want to ask her any of this. I wanted to just let her be herself. but for us to continue as the way we are, and were, I need to know the truth. I had a small idea on what it may be, but I wanted to hear it from her, rather than speculate and make assumptions.

[member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Thought her heart would stop he asked him to tell him everything up to where it got her now. With the guards outside not having her freedom. It was true she was a very independent thinking living on her own for so long. Now she would have to stop this looking at Xander as her eyes went back and forth.

I want to tell you everything. First thing is ...", wondering just where to start. "I need you to understand I let other to advantage of my compassion and empathy. It started with my son I thought I could handle and play Darth Veles game beat him at it. As her own eyes met his, I got to see Connar she is well. I want nothing more then to wake up from this nightmare. Xander I love you, only you.", , letting her eyes look down at her lap. Only to have them back up, "They sent a healer in here to make me eat, because of the..because of ...

As she got up went to one of her plants as one of her fingers touched the leave tenderly. For the longest time she keep to herself. Finding it hard for her to turn around to face Xander again. "I thought I could help should known that I wasn't ready to try and turn one from the dark side of the force. "


As she let herself go to look over to him down at him. Grabbing his hand putting it on his hand on my stomach again. Just what was so hard to tell him. Was it worry of how he would react. ​"I"m ....I...I'm ....I'm ....pregnant. [member="Xander Carrick"]

 

[Garza]

Maya began to speak. Vocalizing her love for me, as well as telling me that she though that by playing the game with Darth Veles would help her get her son back. Beginning to tell me why the healer was here, she stood up and moved to one of the plants that was around her. Looking at the leaf that hung from the stem. I looked to her. Seeing her bare feet against the floor, I started to get up but she turned around and walked to me in a haste almost. Grabbing my hand she placed it on her stomach and said in what would have been fear that she was going to give birth to a child.

My emotions exploded in my head. Wanting to yell at her asking how it happened when I already knew the answer, or ask if it was Veles child because he was not very forthcoming about what he did to Maya. But one emotion broke past all the others. Love. Love of the woman who I had fallen and would do anything for. Love for the child that she would give birth to, and I would be tasked in raising into a functional adult.

I stood with my hand still on her stomach. Looking to her all I did was smile. I smiled that she would be carrying a burden that some women would never have a chance to do. My empty hand raised up to her face. "Maya, there is no reason to show fear when you will be giving life to a being." kissing her with our lips touching, it was only for a few seconds when I broke it and grabbed her hands. "Maya, I promised that I would never leave you, and now with a child on the way, I will only be closer to you." after I spoke my words, I wrapped my arms around her in a soft embrace. Knowing full well, that by staying with Maya and the child, will bring times of grief, and also times of joy.

[member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Letting out a long sigh of relief to here those very words come from his mouth. This a breath of fresh air, after all she didn't know what she would do. As if flashing back to when she found out she was pregnant with Connar and his father no where to be found. Find her other hand once again up in his spike blonde hair. "Xander I was such a fool...to think so freely...like when I was a smuggler...to think I had to handle things on my own.", her eyes are what told him all he really would need to know. As she once again let her own empathy flow over to him. This time it was a lot different from the experience that had been given her on her long journey that started so long ago.

Letting herself sit back down on her bed of furs now her eyes looking at the plate that was brought in by the healer. To just stare at it only one again her eyes wondering up to Xander once gain before her soft voice spoke once again. "I guess I should try and eat something, after all its been a few days." , feeling that his eyes was boring down upon her just because of the fact that know it had a very concern look upon them. [member="Xander Carrick"]

 

[Garza]

I kept a hold of her and when she sat down, I allowed my hands to be on her arms. She had thought I would leave her. If she knew of my past and how my parents left me in a ship with a Robot for literally Eons, I promised myself that I would not do the same to the people I loved. I promised myself so much that even in death, should the event happen, I would still be with her and the child. She then smiled and spoke about eating and I nodded my head.

"Yes. For you and the baby." I placed my hand on her stomach and looked directly at her. "You need to not be just strong enough for yourself. You need to be strong enough for the both of you." Reaching for the plate, I moved it to be between us. Nodding my head for her to eat. "Please darling."

[member="Maya Whitelight"]

 

[Maya Carrick]

All in all she had to sleep that what she was going to do closing her own eyes for a few minutes. It wasn't long before she opening her own eyes again. Looking down after which time she let herself pick at her own food taken a few bits in her mouth. Chewing slowly finding her self reaching the cup to her lips as she let the drink slip down her own throat.

Slipping a few more bits before pushing the plate away from them as she finished off the drink. Laying back down this time her own head feeling that her head would be in the lay. After which time she did close her eyes. "I got a long ways to go, to gain back the orders trust fully"

[member="Xander Carrick"]

 

[Saki]

[member="Maya Whitelight"] [member="Xander Carrick"]

Saki had been told about Maya mostly that she wasn't eating and as she moved the jedi master had her arms crossed over her chest. She hadn't brought her other equipment through the temple but being here and going to see her was interesting. "Maya." Saki knocked and looked at Xander as she spoke. "How are you doing kid?"

 

[Garza]

I watched as Maya ate. Making sure that she took in her fill. Even just sitting here, I could see that her form was slightly smaller from when I had last saw her. Probably the fact that she had been with the Sith, Pregnant the entire time, and refusing to eat food until now when I convinced her to for the child that we would be having. As she set the plate aside as well as the cup, I listened to her as she said that there was a long way to go for her to be redeemed. "Yes that is tr-"

I was cut half way through my sentence when the woman who had taken Maya had walked in. Saki had been seen on the holovid of her being taken. However, as I had gotten the information from the Sith, Darth Veles. Sith, even when they had the same interests as you did, could not be trusted. I wanted to get the Jedi Masters account of what had taken place. If I was going to get all that I needed for a report, as well as possibly initiate my plan to get everybody in the good side of the Silver Jedi, I needed more information than that of the foe that I am trying to overcome.

As Saki walked in, I stood up and faced her. Letting her speak her words and have a word with Maya, and see her reaction to the Jedi Master, before I would speak and ask the questions that were on my mind.

[member="Saki"], [member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Trying to hold on to Xander as tightly only to have to let go as he stood fully up as Saki came into her own little place. Getting a look in her face as she narrowed her own eyes upon her. "Kid, is it I'm having a kid so can't be one myself." shaking her own head back and forth. As she looked down at her own belly. Almost in a defense manner.

Giving out a long sigh before closing her own eyes. "Fine I guess, considering[member="Xander Carrick"] [member="Saki"] all I been through."

 

[Saki]

[member="Maya Whitelight"] [member="Xander Carrick"]

Saki went over towards Maya as she stood there and spoke. "Maya if there is one thing I have learned it is that age only matters to some, a sixteen year old can have kids well okay younger then that." She stayed there looking at her. "Besides you never know what can come of it, you might get through this stronger then ever."

 

[Garza]

"Yes she might, but that matters on how much her body can take." Speaking in retrospect to the two. Answering [member="Saki"]'s comment as well as wanting to move into the other conversation that I WILL be having with her. As Maya almost clung to me, and then let go as she had spoken to the Jedi Master. I still stood in the same spot where I had been, looking at her. Watching her reaction to all that was happening, and all that was going to come at her.

[member="Maya Whitelight"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

Picking herself up as she got closer to [member="Xander Carrick"] touching him on the bare shoulder in a smoothing manner. Speaking on after a great deal of thinking. "Please I know all this and the game I have been playing, you don't understand, I was this close to having my son back into my arms, but no you had to go hunt me down like a blood hound.", holding up her hand with fingers almost closed.

Shaking her head once again, as filed with sorrow. To only believe that there was somehting else more so then every to be said in her now eyes of pain and sorrow. I wished not to fight you on that battle field only to do what need to be done to keep in good grace with the sith that has my son, young lady if you take anything from this remember that sometimes there is more in play then meets the eye. [member="Saki"]

 

[Saki]

[member="Maya Whitelight"] [member="Xander Carrick"]

Saki looked at Maya and spoke crossing her arms. "Your son is dead." She waited a moment "Or the next best thing, sith don't keep prisoners without a reason. Either for information or because it will serve a purpose. The purpose of keeping your son is to have you take his place or have him ascend from being captive by killing you." she narrowed her eyes. "THere is always more at play Maya but one thing that is certain." She stopped and pointed her finger before tapping it to emphasize her point. "Joining the darkside is stupid. Intentions can be good and that is what they count on, I said it on the battlefield your an idiot for thinking they would let you walk among them and then let you go. You'd either be killed or turn into a monster and then what? You'd kill your child because that is your weakness, sith kill and hate weakness." She stayed there and tapped her again. "Think with your head and use that brain the gods gave you to look at the whole picture beyond your own little world."

 

[Garza]

I looked at either of them as the argued. Both of them were raising their voices as they pointed at each other. Once more, I would have to be the mediator in this conversation. Moving between the two women, I faced Maya first, "Maya, she is right. The One Sith kill those who are not with them. You can checkout, but you would not leave alive." I placed my hand on her shoulder as she had done to me, "The One Sith do not deal with Grey, Only white and black."

I let my arm drop and turn to Saki, Simply speaking in a calm, yet surprisingly cold at the same time. "Yes, Maya is right as well. She was close, even when that was true, We could pull her out a different way rather than taking her straight from the Battle field." I then raised my open hand to her, "I have received information with my own work on the One Sith. With footage of you attacking Maya and then taking her away. I cannot trust the Sith who I got the information from, but I know that you, as a Sister of the Silver Jedi Order, that you will tell me the truth when I ask you, what happened."

Turning my hand to indicate Maya, ​"As well, what Maya remembers on happening. I want to see all the information so that we can pin this on who is responsible, as well as continue on getting her son back."

[member="Maya Whitelight"], [member="Saki"],

 

[Maya Carrick]

"Your wrong your so wrong", her eyes narrowing at Saki in a way now as she could be or could be. Feeling Xander's touch upon her her eyes dropping. How could she let herself get out of hand like this. Finding herself now lowering her own head again. Raise it once again.

"I need my son back I want me son back in my arms.", her eyes drop down to the floor more. As if the plants in her green house room. As if they knew that their owner some what emotional right now. As the leaves seem to come alive.

[member="Xander Carrick"]@Saki.