Hard to focus...so hard to focus. The force pulsated here, Lirka's untrained senses couldn't take it all she couldn't pull away the simple background nonsense, the energy given off her her so called "allies" and whatever vile horrors laid within. It was infuriating, and underneath her helmet her teeth clenched while her lips turned into a fine line. She was enraged, purely enraged now. Her "gift" became more and more of a curse with each passing year, each passing decade. For so much of her life she had been able to live content as the only force user in a whole system practically. Nothing to distract her, nothing to pester the back of her mind. And that no longer was the case. She had met more and more force users as she entered into the CIS and it's folds.
She wasn't pleased about it.
Pulsating rage was a fine way to describe the woman and her mighty greatblade. She walked, half focused on both present and past. The force premeditated the "Princess's" past and had played such a mighty role, something she hadn't learned till she had been a young woman...too much. She was getting distracted, she had made it deeper now: not even realizing she had began to walk. By the Force? Isn't that what the cultists used as an contemplative. Bah! Panbocn tah baniouahe lumpa! Huttese was what she used, little welps those Cultists were.
But still...the Force...and quickly she had decided one thing after this great exposition: she hated the Force.
And yet, the Force was the only reason the armored brute of a woman walked among the CIS today. Or maybe even among the living. She hadn't realized it then, but like so many other things Lirka had learned just how much was hidden from the naive and young Princess she had been when Thustra stood on it's own and not engulfed by those Mandalorians and their Empire.
So distracted. She wanted to just scream, she hated the Force, and Lirka was a particularly angry woman just to begin with. This place offered no help to soothe her nerves, the enchantments gifted to her set them off, she hated this place. Maybe one day she would be more than a mere Bounty Hunter who had thrown her lot in with a group that could pay well or the thrill of being "Mandalorian"...maybe she would have a fleet...maybe an army...maybe become a Warlord and retake Thustra from this T-visor wearing welts. Then she could come back here, and burn this rock "Roon" to nothing more than ash and space debris.
She had kept walking, not paying attention save for that she had gone somewhere else. She didn't even know where she was anymore, in fact in her near mindless state she had wandered off from the main group. Maybe that was for that she had some privacy, for with this she let out a roar induced by the very same thing she had come to despise, but the very same thing that had saved her dozens of times: the Force, the Dark Side. A roar, a scream, an echoing cry of anger, twinged with the despair of an alien too ancient to not be among her own kind, and of the thrill-seeker never to be fulfilled by the path she had chosen. The poor wall next to her felt it the most, and her metal gauntlet was quick to crack a solid and brutal punch into it. Sending cracks through it, a testament to the rage coursing through her veins, and the strength the CIS had never seen from her.
This place, it was her exodus. A time for the Sephi to look inwards, if she wanted to or not, to consider the Force. Consider what had been forced upon her, to look to the deep past of what could have been when Thustra was just Thustra. And look to the first taste of blood, the taste of murder:
Time blurred, she was back on Thustra. Younger, a mere child at a ripe age of 8. Far to the 127 year old woman of the present. She had a pure look to her, the child sweetheart of Thustra they could say: she had lived that role for a few years. It put her in the spotlight...made her a target for all the bad parts of the Galaxy, an attempted kidnapping had sparked in her early life. A quick pull to snatch the Sephi Princess and sell her right back to the Monarchy for more money than any one man could ever need.
It was during that attempt that her mind had wandered back to. It had been her first taste of the Force, a small taste of the Dark Side that had lurked and festered in her soul ever since.
Lirka's face was younger, icy blue eyes of malice were blue balls of innocence, her skin was nowhere near as pale as her now Dark Side Degenerate skin, her face unblemished by wounds, scars, and her distinctive tattoo. Only a trickle of blood ran down her face from where the man had struck her while he ran to the nearest landing pad. Tears ran down her face as she made another desperate attempt to wrestle from the strong grasp of the man. She was nothing compared to what she was now, a mere child, a weak and pathetic child. Not the woman with a body of solid and toned muscle, the experience of killing men with her bare hands, wrestling a Slice Hound even. She was a child. The thought of murder, death, the violent parts of the Galaxy were so distant from her then.
She was afraid. She was angry. How hadn't her guards saved her? How hadn't they gotten rid of him? She knew they had guns...why weren't they using them?
And anger, was power. She knew that now, and she learned it then. She made the right move once, she had brought the Sephi artistic mind to her fairly long nails of the time. Each one practically an art piece in it's own right, but this was a fact of survival. What were nails but an improvised weapon? She got the right position and those little art pieces stabbed deep enough into her wrist to draw blood, the large man drew away with a snarl. Enough for her to get herself back and out of that death grip. Staring down at a man with murder in his eyes.
She acted on nothing more than raw desperation, she had played with weak telekinesis in private. She had something in her, she knew that much, maybe it would save her? She prayed it would save her. With a cry of the raw desperation the half sobbing girl let out a force push built from the anger and fear within her. He didn't stand a chance. Blasted away into a nearby railing Lirka assumed he died on impact, his neck shattered as he was flung over. Down hundreds of feet to to the valley below the pad. What was left of the man when they found him, wasn't worth calling a man...
Panting, lacking any breath to speak of, she could only hear the pound of feet as her father and his guard finally caught up to them...
But she wasn't there, she was here. Deep in Roon, not on that chilly pad. Not an innocent child, not a Princess. She was a warrior now, a harden killing machine and a proper woman of the Underworld. Oh, how times had changed for dear Lirka. Emotion rolled through her veins, and somehow. This ruin, this worthless down-trodden cesspool, where the Dark Side clouded her mind and far too many Force users distracted made Lirka realize: she didn't have a purpose in this Galaxy. For a little over a century she had lived a meaningless existence from what could've been on Thustra. Champion on Choah? Meaningless. She was just a fighting slave for their entertainment. The days of Anzat, those hot days where at any moment she could've been killed? Nothing. It was a kick to drive her deeper down this path. A bounty hunter? Becoming scum, hunting men and women alike for nothing more than the thrill of the kill and her own greed? She was nothing there. One of thousands of faces, known only for a suit of armor...a suit of armor.
She looked down through the lenses of her helmet, it fed her tactical data she could care less about and ignored. She had a fortune at one point, fighting for decades as a gladiator did that, and where was that fortune now? The armor that had become her second skin and the weapon that was her instrument of death. That had become what could've been a laid back retirement on a decent world...now it just dug her deeper into this whole.
Truly, she felt helpless. Not the sort of helpless when first looking down an Acklay in a far too small arena, but a deep helpless. Something that festered in the soul. Maybe it could've consumed her then, maybe that was how this place was going to remove the weak. Like herself, one could say? Wrong. Lirka wasn't weak, she'd never let herself be weak. For while she rolled in the thoughts of her own meaningless existence up until this point, she knew she could be something. She could fight, she had the "backing" of the Mandalorian protectors. Legions of droids could march under her command, worlds just crumble and bend, the enemies of the Confederacy could burn...or she could leave them. Steal their ranks for someone new, do it again, become a bastion of infamy instead of fame...or do none of these things. But what Lirka knew, she was going to become
something, one way or another. And she didn't care how many people would bleed, die, or end up in some sad state of dismemberment along the way.
Feeling a roller-coaster of emotions she hadn't experienced since her teenage days on Thustra, Lirka had overcome yet another challenge to her mind. Taking in what was around her, she breathed in. Letting herself listen to the force, letting herself finally listen to it for once.
"Guide me..." she thought, in true Dark Side fashion she commanded the force. Taking it in for the biggest cluster of force users she could feel, heaving her massive blade into hand she began to roll her shoulders and pick up speed as she moved.
That soon evolved into a thundering run, each step rumbling through the hall as she let the force increase her pace far beyond what someone not touched by the Force could ever reach. She could feel that beacon the witches gave, just as she could feel the beasts they fought. Never had she opened herself to the force like this...it was...liberating almost. But she still hated it anyway.
And so, she ran, and ran, and ran. Right into the slaughter, the glorious, exalted, joys of raw violence. Maybe that was her calling in this life...
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